As a man aged 30+ years with reasonable financial stability, a caring family and a good social life, I too wondered, like many others, about the “purpose” of this birth. I had always been a serious person neither inclined towards any materialistic things nor attracted towards spirituality.
3 years ago, my wife Rakshitha was drawn into spirituality (on the hindsight she has always been a spiritual person) and would be re-directed to Mohanji’s blog whenever she had questions for Shirdi Sai Baba or if something was bothering her. She has read Osho, Jiddu Krishnamurthy (JK), Sadhguru (Jaggi Vasudev) and that very thing makes me stay two steps away from her for the simple reason that I can neither understand them nor I was willing to try. Hence, I would tell her “keep your philosophy with yourself and please don’t bring it to me”. During this time (Aug-Sep 2015), she had read a book titled “Journey of Souls ~ Michael Newton” and was guided to do “past life regression” to know about the past life which would eventually answer few imminent questions:
Why did I take this birth
Why am I in a relationship with an individual (or) in a family
What are the lessons to be learned in this lifetime
Clinical hypnotherapy had always been an interesting subject for me and I, for once, accepted her request and read the book. Impressed by the sheer depth of the work and the case-studies, which I truly believe were for real with no amount of fantasy, I readily accepted to go for the session. The therapist was a very nice person of Italian origin and could connect to higher (ascended) masters. The first session started casually with me going to the time when I was happy as a child and entering the room of Akashic records.
At that moment, without me informing anything in particular to him, he said “someone is eager to meet you” and wanted me to open a door inside the room during the session. It was none other than my dad (He passed away in 2002 when I was doing my 3rd year Engineering. Like all other father-son relationship, I never truly valued him or his opinion when he was alive. Now, not a day goes without his thought.) I had always had this guilt feeling that I had done NOTHING for him. As soon as I saw my dad during the session, I hugged him tight (visualizing), cried (for real) until tears ran out while the Doctor (sensing the energy) kept saying that my dad was really happy with me and I should be proud of myself.
One hour later, the session ended and I returned home happy and couldn’t wait for the next session. In the next session, while the doctor was attempting to get me back to my “past life”, I couldn’t do it. We tried and finally the doctor asked me what would like to do, “access your past life” or “speak to someone”. At that instant, I said I wanted to speak to someone. When probed on who I wanted to speak to, I saw visuals of Shri. Ramakrishna Paramahamsa. I should quote that I knew him (Shri. Ramakrishna Paramahamsa) to be a Saint and nothing beyond.
Also sitting in that room was Mahavatar Babaji in his lotus posture and never spoke a word until the end of the session. All the talking was done by Ramakrishna and some of the answers came out was with such clarity that I was certain that I wasn’t hallucinating.
During the session, Ramakrishna said that I should go and MEET Mohanji. When the doctor asked “Is He your guru, why should you meet him?” the answer that came out was “he has some important things to learn from him and it will only benefit him in the due course”. When asked “why can’t he access his past life”, the answer was “why should he know about his past when I am telling him what he has to do? People access their past to learn to correct themselves. With our guidance, he need not know his past rather look forward to the future”. By now, my wife had completed reading all of Mohanji’s WordPress blogs, his Q&A blog, cried enough and had an urge to meet him.
With my father’s ceremony (tithi) coming near, I had planned for an India visit in Nov 2015 and had written an email to email@example.com seeking time to meet him. This was more for my wife than for myself as I knew she was praying hard to meet him and felt it was her eligibility that’s stopping. As destiny would have it, Mohanji was in Bangalore gearing to go to Puttaparthi on the New Year eve (31 Dec 2015).
In no time, we confirmed our willingness to meet him at the allocated time. Through the one-hour auto ride, we hardly spoke a word. We entered the home and were warmly welcomed by the Mohanji Family. We were happily chatting and laughing when out of nowhere entered Mohanji.
Upon seeing him, tears were flowing like a stream of river that had no ending. While I can justify her tears, there could be no logical explanation as I had come just as a companion with my wife who had an urge to meet him. His first words “we have been waiting for this meeting over lifetimes…” still resonates in my ears.
Mohanji spoke about his skin condition (during his Dubai days), importance of settling the dues of ancestors, promises made to people who were alive and many other things, many of which didn’t get into my ears while my mind was busy analysing and forming an opinion about him. Though I have met a few Masters at my young age thanks to my dad, this is for the first time I was drawn to a person and I still couldn’t believe anything that was happening around.
I asked him questions and he answered them. Honestly speaking, I didn’t understand many of those reply. But something in me kept telling that I have found my GURU. We both were given Shaktipat and came home happily. We were pinching each other for a reality check and were blushing all the way through.
Returning home, we continued our daily chores. But I could see something was changing in me. I started meditating which I never ever did before, went to Shirdi Sai temple regularly, observed myself and started removing some of the deep rooted habits and most importantly, kept thinking of Mohanji and his teaching all the time. It was as if the person died on 31st December (on the day of meeting) and a new person was born.
Looking back, I can certainly say few things:
No matter what you think you are, GRACE will protect you from all calamities
With GURU’s touch, all unwanted habits, things and people will vanish
With GURU’s blessings, things will happen on its own with little or no effort from you.
For a practical person like me, it would have been very easy for me to discard past life regression or the book or whatever I had spoken to the Doctor as hallucination or the work of mind, but I had FAITH. I trusted this because I firmly believed it was for my good.
Over these years, I have learnt and still learning many things. It goes without saying that I now value the life Father has shown me and most importantly the pressing question of “what’s the purpose of this birth” has been answered. The answer is nothing but “Living this life NOW is the very purpose of our existence” and I am sure with his blessings and guidance, I will continue this journey.
Thank you Father for accepting me as who I am and always showering your abundant blessings and love. Life is beautiful. Thank you for this journey. I humbly pray that I remain a dust at your feet always. That to me is “a life well spent”.
As seekers on the spiritual journey, all Masters tell us clearly that the journey is all about looking inward. Yet, we often search for external validation that we are on the right path. On one side, there is faith and the unerring belief that a Guru’s grace is already working on you at multiple levels. But then how does one deal with the analytical mind that raises questions? It is perhaps to quell these doubts that the Masters grant experiences (or miracles, depending on how “unbelievable” a certain event seems) to the mind; clear signs to indicate their presence and their grace.
Over time, I’ve learnt that experiences are of various types – visions, astral visitations, materializations, unbelievable synchronicities and so on. Since I came under Mohanji’s fold, I’ve had the good fortune of having a few experiences, some of which I’ve shared earlier. Recently, I had one such experience on the night of Mahashivraatri (Feb 24, 2017) and that got me thinking of a pattern of similar experiences earlier.
It was during a satsang that I first learnt that each Master has a unique fragrance. But this is felt only if the Master wants it to be felt or if they are in their subtle form. My first experience of this nature was during the Kumbh Mela in Nashik 2015. After we had finished our dips on the first shahi snan (royal dip), I heard some people say that they suddenly felt a strong smell of vibhuthi (sacred ash) coming from near Mohanji (For one such reference, you can read the following blog post). However, as I went late for my dip after attempting photographer duties, I couldn’t experience this. Sniffing around in the air wouldn’t have been of much use either, so I put it off saying it wasn’t meant for me. But the question nagged me on and off – why wasn’t I given that opportunity?
When we finished the Kumbh Mela trip, we stopped at Ganeshpuri, on our way back to Mumbai, to visit Bhagwan Nityananda’s samadhi shrine. While the rest of the group went ahead to Bhagwan Nityananda’s samadhi and Kailash Bhavan, Mohanji stayed back at the Nath mandir (temple) with Vasudevan Swami. Kailash Bhavan is the house where Bhagwan Nityananda (aka Bade Baba) lived. So usually a visit to Kailash Bhavan involves stops at the various places where Bade Baba used to sit and sleep – his armchair, his place of rest near the staircase, his bathtub and so on. The devotee gets an opportunity to touch and feel the objects that were hallowed by the touch of Bade Baba. The trust maintains this place wonderfully and with the surfeit of photographs, one can literally feel Baba’s presence in the place.
Opposite the bathtub area, there is a small room where Baba used to sleep. This is usually closed but one can see inside through the slats on the door. As usual, we stopped outside this room and put our head against the door to pray. As soon as I touched the door, I felt my head spinning and a kind of magnetic feeling as if my head was stuck to the door. At the same time, I could feel a strong scent of vibhuthi (sacred ash) and chandan (sandalwood) emanating from inside. I took my head out and tried again and the same thing happened. A few others around us felt the exact same way and we guessed that Mohanji was visiting Bade Baba. Each of us sought confirmation from the other that they felt it too – you see we need so much validation to believe something unexplainable like this, as there was clearly no physical object in that room that was giving out this fragrance, and the door was not metal, neither was my forehead.
We headed back to the Nath mandir (temple) and asked Mohanji if He was indeed visiting. With a twinkle in his eye, He confirmed His presence there and said He didn’t need to physically visit to pay His respects to Baba. He also added that there were a few Masters there, which would explain the strong energy felt by all of us at that door. So now I knew first hand that Masters can sometimes be felt through their fragrance, and that Mohanji’s trademark fragrance was chandan and/or vibhuthi!
In December 2016, a group of us folks was with Mohanji in Chennai to mark the Jayanthi (birthday) of Baba Ganeshananda Giri – a great saint and disciple of Sai Baba. Babaji had attained mahasamadhi (a saint’s conscious exit from the body) earlier in the year after initiating a grand Sai Baba temple project in Sriperumbudur. He and Mohanji shared a special bond though their first meeting happened only in December 2015 – a mere 4-5 months before Babaji attained mahasamadhi. Babaji’s birthday fell on December 19th. To mark the occasion, a special book – The Boy who walked with Sai Baba – was being released. This book commemorated Babaji’s life with testimonials from various devotees across India.
Mohanji was visiting Chennai to release this book and to spend time guiding the trust up by Babaji. On December 18th, once the books arrived in Chennai, we visited Babaji’s samadhi in Sriperumbudur (located at the same site as the temple) to offer our respects and offer the first book to Babaji at his samadhi. We reached the site and first visited Babaji’s kutir (cottage) where he stayed. Then we walked over to his samadhi (final resting spot) and Mohanji offered the book and prayed there. Earlier, Mohanji had asked Natesh Ramsell (a gifted singer from the US who specialises in kirtans) to compose a chant using Babaji’s favourite mantra “Om Sri Sai Sharanam Mama”. Mohanji asked Natesh to offer the chant at Baba’s samadhi.
Natesh began singing this chant at the samadhi as all of us stood and absorbed the moment. A group of cows walked over to our location, watched the show and proceeded to walk away in a single line once Natesh finished his song. After this, we performed aarati there and began to leave. On our way out, I decided to do one more pradakshina (circumambulation) of the samadhi. As I was walking near the samadhi, I felt an overpowering fragrance of roses. When the Samadhi for Babaji was being laid out following his mahasamadhi, the procedures required a copper wire to be brought from inside the Samadhi to the top – this was to preserve a direct energetic connection with the saint inhabiting the Samadhi now. This fragrance was felt at the precise spot where the copper wire was protruding out from the Samadhi. Whats more, I could recognise this specific fragrance.
During Babaji’s samadhi ceremony, as part of the ritual preparations before lowering his physical body into the samadhi, I had been blessed to be part of a group that mixed rose essence with special herbs and vibhuti – this was then used to sanctify and fill up the space around Babaji in the “container”. The “container” was then encased in concrete and there is no way that the fragrance could emanate from within the samadhi. Yet, eight months later, the exact same fragrance was being felt by our group at Babaji’s samadhi! Soon, each member of the group came there and felt the intense fragrance at the same spot. As a mark of respect to Babaji, I had done a pradakshina (circumambulation) on our way into the place, and I was sure that the fragrance didn’t exist then. Further, this lasted only for a few minutes and then began to fade away. This could only mean that Babaji was acknowledging the gift of his book and the chant and was blessing us in approval. So here was another confirmation that fragrances appear as signals and markers, if only one is open to recognizing the possibility.
This year, Mahashivratri fell on Feb 24, 2017. This was a day after Mohanji’s birthday and also when the Advanced retreat in Serbia was due to start. I had contemplated going to this retreat but had to drop the idea due to schedule conflicts. Mahashivratri is considered to be an extremely auspicious day for spiritual progress and staying awake through the night with the spine upright is extremely valuable. I was determined to follow this for as long as I could. After a full day’s work, I finally sat down to meditate at around 11pm, starting with listening to Mohanji’s recitation of the Shiva Kavacham.
Earlier that day, I had this urge to begin reading the Sai Satcharitra, so I proceeded to do that soon after the Shiva Kavacham, and then moved onto chanting. Somewhere through this phase, I began to feel the familiar fragrance of sandalwood all around our pooja room. I looked around to see if any incense sticks had been lit but didn’t spot anything; besides it was well past 1am. I continued chanting now aware of the strong fragrance that stayed all through that period. I was up till about 2am, and possibly drifted in to sleep a few times in the middle. I remember looking at the picture of Mohanji in our altar and asking “Are you really here?” and thinking “Is He really smiling? Or am I just dreaming?”
I was convinced that Mohanji had visited our pooja room on Mahashivratri – I couldn’t go to the retreat, so He decided to visit us. How cool (and amazing) is that? I was also more willing to trust the experience of fragrance since I had been through this before just a couple of months ago in Chennai. Yet, just to be extra extra sure, I wrote to Mohanji a week or so later about this and He said “I am sandalwood, though I am sometimes celestial floral fragrance. I use options :-)” He also said that several people had experienced this but many dismissed it as imagination to their own loss.
I am sharing this experience more to tell my own self that these experiences were all real. As Mohanji always advises us, the primary audience for one’s experience sharing is our own self – a reminder to the mind that we didn’t imagine it all. Besides, when we share this with a wider group, it may help several others connect their own experiences and strengthen their faith.
As Mohanji once explained in his typical eloquence, grace is like sunshine – always available to all with no differentiation for any being. Whereas doubts are like clouds – they obscure this sunshine; the presence of clouds doesn’t make the sunshine go away neither can it call the sunshine into question, it only makes it harder for us to feel it. Our job as seekers is to just go past the doubts and focus on the sunshine. Our experiences are just a means for us to realize this critical difference and understand that the Guru’s grace is always shining on us, whether we recognise it or not!
I humbly offer this write up at Brahmarishi Mohanji’s lotus feet and pray that my faith and resolve is strengthened by each passing day.
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Experiences of Participants at Andrevlje, 13-18th May 2016
Recorded and transcribed by Biljana Vozarevic
“Whatever is real is never lost
Various participants asked Mohanji questions and related their experiences during the retreat at Andrevlje in May 2016. These have been recorded and transcribed faithfully by Biljana. They provide a glimpse of the tremendous depth and intensity of the experiences that participants underwent as well as the clarity, wisdom and patience with which Mohanji answered each question. We trust you will read and be inspired.
Note: Some participants’ names have been kept anonymous as per their wishes.
I’m simply stunned by this meditation we have just had. I don’t know if I can properly explain it, but when my mind is turned outward by default, I would just connect to you, visualize you and go inwards. What I tried to do it this time I just tried to Be (just let it be as a witness of mind) instead of always trying to chase after something and I had a much better result during the meditation. What I have and sometimes what I get is that I am aware of my body; I get sensations which are sometimes unpleasant, in contact with people or with my thoughts. I talked to some people and they suggested that I give love to them, nurture them and today, during the meditation, when you said to hug, I tried to caress parts of my body. This time it wasn’t like a washing machine, it was more like a turbo lift.
(laughter in the audience)
Because my head kind of exploded…
I think “I” was finished 🙂
P: My experience is that I am so much aware when I see anything, a personal thing, etc. I have a thought such as, “Oh, she is cute… I like her shirt. He is getting on my nerves. He is fake”… And I am thinking, “Well, I would like to experience when people don’t have those thoughts, when you just meet someone and experience, well, I sometimes have it. However, now I am aware how much I am constantly judgmental. First I think something not very nice and then I find something nice, but that doesn’t count. I know that doesn’t count…”
I would like to work on myself so that like that I have different experience that I don’t have constant comments in my brain and would like to know if there are people on this earth who have different experiences. For example, oh, what a nice white shirt, ha ha.
M: Appreciation is different. Appreciation is good, “She is nice, she is fine” However, when we are judgmental, that’s a different thing.
P: So it isn’t a judgement when we say, “Oh, he looks good in green”
M: No. It is appreciation, It is good.
P: And if he is wearing a shirt that he likes but I don’t like it, it is not good?
M: You are not wearing it, right? As a matter of fact, you have nothing to do with it. If you want to comment in a non-judgmental way, with love, it should pass without a problem. Being intrusive will cause friction and eventual alienation.
P: For example, that is judgement, right?
M: Yes, that is judgement. See, everybody has their choices. All the people wear what they like to wear, they have preferences. So, it isn’t actually our job to say anything about that. Someone may have a similar opinion about our dress style as well.
P: I know that. That is the reason why I am asking myself why I am having comments like that.
M: That’s a program. The mind is programmed to judge.
P: It is not a nice experience. So you are telling me when we think nicely, it isn’t judgement. Do you ever have those thoughts, “I don’t ever like what this person is saying?“
M: It is prejudice. These are all different things.
P: I would like not to be prejudiced.
M: We have quite a lot of prejudices in our system and a lot of judgmental attitudes. These two are detrimental to our progress. When you judge somebody, the world will judge you too. It’s a vicious cycle which we have created. So it is good to appreciate, “Oh you have done well,” and in a positive way, you can nudge someone to do better.
P: How to stop being judgmental? What is the practice that we should do?
M: Just be aware of what you are talking. When you are aware of yourself being judgemental, immediately the words will stop. Most of all, talk only when essential. Embrace the beauty of inner silence as much as you could.
P: Now I am aware that I am on a good path. Thank you.
When I am breathing deeply, especially during Consciousness Kriya, I have noticed that I am quite aware of the right side of my aura or whatever it is. It took me some time to realize that the left part is somehow dark or that I am not quite aware of this. Then, during breathing, I … started to lighten this part. That is my experience, and every time I meditate with deep breathing, especially in Consciousness Kriya, I have this experience. That is why I wanted to share it. I also wanted to ask what to do or not to do…?
M: Each person has their experience; there is nothing to do or not to do. Just follow that and flow with it and it will go by itself. As long as you are doing it right, it goes on. Don’t expect the same result to happen twice and also do not expect anything to happen always. Do not analyse it, left side, right side is mind’s game. Mind wants to have answers. Just flow with it.
P: This is my first retreat and I didn’t have any expectation. Actually I have been crying for the last two days and I cannot stop it… but that’s ok.
M: That’s the way it should be. You need to shed all your stored up baggages.
P: I want to say that it is an amazing experience for me and that I am very happy that I met all these people and that I met you. That’s it.
M: I am also happy that you are here. As long as your mind is here, I am happy. 🙂
P: It is my first retreat as well and it was really intense for me so far, especially the first day, I even felt sick, but I understood it is a good thing. I was really enjoying the meditations, yet only the part when we were in peace and gratitude, soaking within, my body had some weird agitation, and it just tended to move for no reason. I don’t understand why that happened.
M: That’s because when mind has to be still, it will do everything possible to shake you up. There is a story where a guru told his disciples, “You can think about everything except a black monkey”
So you will only think about the black monkey. There’s no other thought.
P: I only want to say to you I love you.
M: I love you more.
P: During the initial days Mohanji always asked whether anybody has aches or pains, noises, etc. I must say that I did not have any such manifestations, though I have come for the second time to the retreat, not the first time. So I asked someone,“Should I have any aches or not? “They said, “We don’t know either. “ So I would like to know whether we who did not have any physical suffering, vomiting, pains, headaches… is it still all right?
M: It is working, you are seasoned. When the effects are of subtler nature, as I worked on a subtler level, it takes time to manifest. For some people it manifests fast, for some slow. It depends on your orientation. It does not mean that you did not experience anything.
P: I wanted to say to her, just wait…
I am not here for the first time, and…
M: Nor it will be the last time
P: … For two days I thought it was nice and beautiful, I had just a little headache and that is it, two days more and hurray. I though Mohanji did his job at my previous retreat. However,
today, I am in a washing machine.
P: I did not expect that, but I know that this is a part of the process. Today I feel tired and I just feel like sleeping. Before lunch I thought for me this day is over, and I will see you all tomorrow.
P: I would like to continue after this ’however,’ that she mentioned. I had hundreds of this ’howevers and buts’. Regarding the fact that I have been in spiritual practices for 15 years, I have been cleansing myself, I changed a few gurus. I thought I have cleansed myself pretty much and there is no more. However now I felt deep experience. Today I was “three in one – with crying, laughing, dancing and madness“I felt now that I had been stuck, I had stopped exercising, walking, and all kinds of good activities I used to do. Attendance of some programs does not mean one works on themseles if I do not apply it in life. I’ve started in the nick of time now and I am grateful from the bottom of my heart as this has brought me back to life.
P: This is my fourth retreat. During a retreat I feel great, but after the retreat finishes…eh, then the show starts…
(laughter and applause)
So with this cleansing I do not know, but it seems that I am dirtier than the dirtiest XXX
I have been cleansing for years, but since He touched me last year, everything collapsed. Until I came here, He had removed each and every support in life which I thought I had and could rely on.
However, I feel that peace and serenity, and I do not understand – as if I have settled my life. How is it possible? Settled life, and literally everything fell into the water. That is interesting to me.
M: You lost track and I put you back in the track.
P: During this year I felt all kinds of things. I cannot find an expression, but do not take me wrong, I did not know what to do and I was completely disoriented. Everything fell apart and then the mind says I don’t know. I have lived with that mind for years and experienced all kinds of things, and suddenly I need to throw it away, so it started rebelling in various ways: first that I have fear of Mohanji, then I communicated with Him and the fear disappeared. Then I had doubts, as if somebody was telling me, “Don’t you see what he is doing to you!
He is taking everything from you, destroying you….“ Then even that went away. In my occupation, I closed a drugstore. Instead of closing it for 40 days, I cannot close it for six months. Everything fell apart, only my family stayed. He managed to remove all my friends from me
… and after all that I have come here again.
M: After all that isn’t there a way of earning for a living that remained? I took away only the fake stuff. They were supposed to go anyway.
P: Well, now everything is clear to me, but it wasn’t clear while I was going through it. I was going through hurricane, and immediately afterwards through an earthquake, tsunami, everything!
M: It has to be because you have been handling these fake stuff for long. Even though you know it is fake you tend to like it and you hold on to it, but it will not take you anywhere. Whatever is real is never lost.
P: Yes, yes, it is clear to me now.
M: Even though there is an expiry of rent and you must move out, how do you still survive with this drugstore? It is still with you. No landlord allows a tenant to stay after the expiry of a contract.
P: Here and there some patient comes.
M: They have thrown you out of it and you survived.
M: I have given you everything you deserve. I just took away only the fake stuff. You don’t need the fakes. We tend to live with them and we stagnate. Good.
This is my first retreat and I feel that I cannot say thank you enough. I was deeply connected to you months and months ago and I felt that I should come. The moment I saw on Facebook that Mohanji is coming to Serbia “I said, I am going – I know I should be there.” That was a clear intuition that I should come and it’s absolutely brilliant experience and I feel like staying ten days more, ha, ha.
… but ok.
M: Then people from other locations will kill me if I stay here more.
P: Everything was so wonderful. I didn’t have any sensations at the beginning. I didn’t have any aches or pains and was wondering, “Is everything ok?” Is it something that I didn’t let go? Is it ok if I do not have any sensations?
I still didn’t have any bad experience, let’s say. I just feel I don’t need food. I eat because I know I should eat and it is good to be in that restaurant with other people, but I don’t need food. However, I need more sleep.
M: That’s a change at subtler level. Each body will respond as per its orientation. It’s natural.
P: Also, in meditation I constantly feel vibrations in the third eye and root chakra, and I am still struggling with my mind – I cannot keep quiet.
M: All of us are.
P: Thank you.
I would like to share one interesting detail from the last day of the retreat. Personally, I believe it is a message – a message of love. On my tissue, after I had a little nosebleed, I really had what to see:
P: When I came here, I had very strange feelings. I could not sleep until 2am… everything was telling me it is not right place for you – you should go from this place. I cannot explain with words that kind of feeling. However, day by day, I started to be myself. Today was really amazing experience. I feel as if I put down 3 tonnes off my shoulders and I feel light like a feather. I don’t know how to thank you.
(to audience) I had a problem with addiction i.e. gambling and drugs and was obsessed with it every night, along with having a family and job. I could not focus on anything else except my obsession. From the moment I met Mohanji, he did something to my lower stomach, only he knows what, I feel as if I have never been addicted to anything in my life. I feel very pure, clean. It’s an amazing experience for me! I don’t know how he does it, but he just does it.
P: I am not here for the first time. I was happy because I did dot have any pain until this morning. I had such a contraction in my stomach region. Today during the shaktipat, it stopped. Thank you so much. However, before I came here, I could vouch for myself that I loved myself always saying, “You love yourself.” Today, after meditation and practices we did, chanting, etc. for the first time I felt pure love for myself. It stayed for about a few second, never mind, but for the first time I know WHERE I should go and what feeling to achieve. Thank you so much! There are no words to express this, but we are lucky that you can see our heart on top of everything.
I’ve been with Mohanji for two years and I attended many retreats, each of which was very special for me. This is the first one where I came with full faith and surrender and of course, without any expectations. I can say that for the first time I really felt emptiness which is very, very powerful and whoever felt it knows what I am talking about and while the music was on and while we were all dancing, I simply needed to remain in that peace so I just stood and enjoyed it. Because my mind tortures me, like everybody’s does, e.g. my past which is not so important, but there were a lot of stress and ugly scenes, etc. It is not important now, it has all catapulted me where I am today, and that’s why I am here. However I just wanted to enjoy it. It is a fantastic feeling and I am more than grateful to our Master and we are all really blessed as he came into our lives.
Yesterday I told him privately and now I want to share with you all, I simply cannot describe how happy I am to serve him, he trusts me and gives me a chance, together with some people of course, to organize retreats and various programs in the future. As I am happy, I am sad as well, because I cannot show him how humble I am in front of him, and how much I love him. Because he gave me an opportunity to be with him, talk to him, share ideas with him and simply… that is that speechless side that I cannot express… I am so humble before our Father and I love him so much, I’ll do everything for him, and that is it.
And it is so sweet to me when Mohanji speaks Serbian, it reminds me of myself when I speak English.
P: To me, it is maybe most interesting to see, as we are deeply connected, how it will work in your physical presence, we have never physically interacted, and I thought there may be a big gap. So now it is interesting to me to see how it will be working.
Thank you for everything, I cannot express enough love I feel and how much you deserve.
Mohanji’s recent visit to the Balkans was a truly memorable one for many people. This time those who have known Mohanji for some years clearly felt a difference, a kind of intensity, in his overall presence.
Devi Mohan said, “I’ve had the privilege of knowing Mohanji and being in his close proximity as a spiritual devotee and a wife since January 2007, I must say that I’ve not witnessed this kind of intensity in Mohanji ever before. Intense activity was usually coupled with short periods of some rest.
But this time, there was ceaseless activity throughout – an intense schedule of back-to-back programs during the day with no rest whatsoever and intense activity in the higher planes during his sleep. (I used to observe him sleep. He had his distinct style. His breath pattern used to tell me where he worked – a mix of sleep and ‘work’ on subtler planes, the latter being distinguishable by a different pattern of breathing, softer and hardly audible. His breath was often not even audible and chest would become so quiet as if he was not on earth. This time, his whole sleep was like this and would last just a few hours. As soon as he was on bed, he would leave and the body and breath were totally silent until he woke up). In other words, it didn’t take much time to notice that Mohanji had ‘shifted gears or shifted planes of existence from earth and beyond’.”
The Blissful 5 Days with Mohanji at the Bosnian Pyramids
Following the retreat at Andrevlje (Serbia), we continued on to Bosnia to visit the Bosnian Pyramids, the world’s oldest step pyramids and a spiritual powerhouse. Interestingly enough, the weather in Bosnia before we arrived was 15 days of non-stop rain. It was sunshine while we were there. Rain started again after we left. Sunshine happened only for us! Mohanji took care of everything… The first day after arriving at Bosnia, we were sitting together with the tour guide Ajdin who spoke about the heavy downpour of the previous 15 days and the forecast of similar weather for another week which threatened a total washout of our programs.
Mohanji casually stated “Weather will not be a problem. Don’t worry.” All of us present looked at him in disbelief. What is he saying? How can he overrule the official weather forecast? But, exactly that happened. Bright sunshine greeted us the following morning and the rain never bothered us until we left. While we were leaving the rain came back. It was nothing short of a miracle and all of us witnessed the power of this casual statement of his.
The bliss of the experiences that we had in the energies of the pyramids and Mohanji is indescribable.
We were also blessed by the presence of Jan Esmann from Denmark, a Master of his own right, who wanted to join us ‘incognito’ and participate in Mohanji’s program. It was pure Grace to witness the love and mutual respect that Jan and Mohanji shared. For the first time ever we experienced a Shaktipat from Jan and Shaktipat from Mohanji one after the other. It was like a powerful blessing of Devi and Shiva one right after the other – an unforgettable experience.
There were many new people who had never even heard of Mohanji before and he thus had to work even more hard to first make them receptive and then help them release deeply stored pent up emotions and traumas. It all worked out so beautifully in the end of the program and the transformation in people was more than evident.
One could write a book about our experiences in the underground tunnel Ravne, pyramid of Moon and pyramid of Sun, which were especially intense. Sudeshna gave a beautiful description of many of our experiences in Bosnia in her blog: The Bosnian Retreat
Huge transformations happened to many people on top of the pyramid of Moon when Mohanji took us through an impromptu pranayam plus chant and it all hit straight at the heart, throat and stomach chakras which immediately started releasing the stored blockages. It was an amazing day on top of the feminine, motherly pyramid of the Moon. Mohanji’s intensity and the participants’ willingness worked miracles.
Dr. Osmanagic also came to spend time with Mohanji. He talked at length with all of us as the founder and the visionary of this project. Mohanji also explained his understanding about some of the new findings and artifacts and explained their relevance.
We went up the pyramids of Sun and Moon and experienced various energies which worked as powerful healing to most of us. We spent a lot of time each day inside the healing chambers of tunnel Ravne as well. The vegan food (which definitely is not common in Bosnia) was another experience.
Five blissful days in Macedonia
After Bosnia, Mohanji and Devi continued their journey to Macedonia. A Kriya initiation followed by a two-day program in Stip and two Satsangs on the last two days, interspersed with many private consultations and a visit to a beautiful monastery Lesnovo, marked the trip to Macedonia.
Ana organised a radio interview with Mohanji with Zoran being the translator. After the program Zoran told Mohanji: “Mohanji, you are a teenager. Your energy is unbelievable.”
Mohanji gave new names to Zoran and Ana as per their request. They are Mohana Hanumatananda and Mohana Shanti Priya respectively.
Two interesting moments from Macedonia deserve to be highlighted.
One was the unique flavor of Shaktipat that Mohanji gave at the very end of the program in Stip. It was much more soft and loving than usual and he looked very different.
It did not take us much to figure out that it was the energy presence of Jesus Christ that we experienced through Mohanji’s Shaktipat. The experience is too sacred to be expressed in words.
The Satsang in Skopje after the program in Stip was another memorable experience. Mohanji was extra jovial that day with some of the participants asking complex questions rooted in the deep knowledge of the scriptures. As Mohanji always says, he likes to be challenged. At one point he started talking about various subjects such as higher civilizations, history of human kind in view of the soul connection with the higher civilizations, the technologies with which pyramids like the ones in Bosnia were made, the nature of the waves and how they gain propulsion once in touch with ether etc.
Djole from Belgrade who joined us in Macedonia commented that he studied Tesla waves and was surprised to hear Mohanji talk about this profoundly complex topic with such unbelievable clarity.
Devi said, “While translating, I was amazed by Mohanji’s knowledge of all these intricate details. I have never heard him speak about this before. I felt so blessed to witness the obvious ‘downloading’ of the higher knowledge which was shared with all of us in such a relaxed manner. Mohanji came up with answers that awed the entire audience. I remembered a moment from my postgraduate studies in USA when I read a sentence from Yogananda’s “Autobiography of a Yogi” in which he said that showing off one’s book knowledge is the height of human stupidity. True achievement is in becoming able to tune in and download universal knowledge from the Akashic records, which are like a huge universal library accessible to all. That’s when my studies kind of lost their charm and the ability to tune in and connect with the universal knowledge became one of my secret goals. I hope to achieve that in this life, but being in a position to witness Mohanji doing exactly that at present is a great inspiration and a very big blessing in itself.”
Nobody really understands his ways – how much he works, where and how he works unless they look within themselves, beyond the obvious and feel the changes that have happened to them before and after meeting Mohanji. Working tirelessly, he always gives to everyone much more than they expect, unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. He always melts at the devotion of people. He is always keen to give anything and everything they pray to him for. He has often been misunderstood and victimized by many but he continues to serve with his evergreen smile and care in his eyes.
You can read the first part of this series “In The Eye Of The Storm: Balkans (2016) – Part 1 here
Written by Devi Mohan and the Mohanji (Serbia) team
The intensity and power that Mohanji displayed during his recent visit to the Balkans this year was something we had not seen before. It was as if a storm hit us, a powerful wave that stirred so deep within all those who were open for transformation – it changed our lives forever in the most positive way.
Many people came and waited for Mohanji to arrive. The love, commitment and compassion to themselves, Mohanji and the golden path of liberation were very clear. Every moment of Mohanji’s time in the Balkans was utilized one way or the other. We hardly saw him take rest but he never appeared tired. Mohanji attended to all of us with deep warmth and unconditional love without any expectations. He gave himself to us completely.
Mohanji began his Balkans tour as he landed in Belgrade on May 9th, 2016 close to midnight after a very intense travel schedule in South Africa and UK with hardly any sleep. On May 10th 2016, he conducted two superb Satsangs in Pozarevac and Belgrade, which pretty much set the tone for this trip. Two days later he conducted another Satsang in the city of Vrsac, which was received amazingly well even though the city had never seen any Spiritual Master conducting such a program. In the midst of the super tight schedule, the organizers (Andrija and Marija) managed to arrange a TV interview as well:
Devi Mohan added: “It all flowed so beautifully. The feeling was ‘just walk and the ground before your feet will form.’ I am deeply humbled by this experience and am still ‘digesting’ all that I witnessed and experienced during Mohanji’s programs in Serbia, Bosnia and Macedonia…”
In the following paragraphs Mohanji Serbia team is happy to share with you certain highlights from this visit of Mohanji, i.e. moments that stood out in their beauty and divine intensity.
A Skeptic Finds Her True Calling
One lady (who wishes to remain anonymous) sent us the following testimonial after the mega Satsang in Belgrade: “I had heard and read the name Mohanji many times with curiosity. However, my mind was not yet ready for any master in my life and it kept saying, “What can any teacher do for me?” It was a heavy day in the office and Mohanji’s program was at 7pm. We were told that he may come late because he was coming after a long program from the town of Pozarevac, which is two hours away. So, I was reluctant to go. Mind kept saying ‘go home.’ But, I wanted to see this man. I wanted to know what he had got to offer.
Somehow, my feet took me to the hall. By the time I arrived, the hall was almost full. I was ushered in and soon I heard that there was no more space and people were being sent away. It intrigued me. Why were so many people coming to see Mohanji? He is a married man with a child and how is he different from us? I asked this question to an elder lady sitting next to me. She said, “His very presence is powerful and transformative. He heals. He is honest and unconventional. He is real.” Again my mind told me I am chasing rainbows and wasting my time. I was becoming impatient. Then, suddenly, he arrived!
He walked in quickly and I felt he was gliding as if he had no feet. I was meeting him for the first time, yet I felt as if I had known him forever. His arrival made such an impact in the hall as if 1000 people had entered the room together. I had never felt something equal or even comparable to such force or energy ever in my life! He is indeed very powerful. A strange and curious fragrance filled the room. A kind of sandalwood smell! Was this his body fragrance or the perfume that he was wearing? He stood there on stage, looked at all of us, did Namaste and sat down. He started talking. His wife was with him – a beautiful Serbian woman called Devi who translated effortlessly whatever he spoke. He was energetic and humorous. My body started changing in his presence. First, I felt I had no legs. My whole body felt like melting. The lady next to me said, “His presence will melt us from inside. Do you feel it?”
I could not speak and just nodded. I was feeling as if Mohanji was talking inside me. He was not outside.
Mohanji answered many questions that evening. He displayed only energy and presence with no fatigue or jet lag. I felt as if I could spend my whole life with such a powerhouse. He hardly felt to me as a human being. He made the whole room burst with laughter. Even I laughed. But, I never felt myself. I was gone.
A deep urge rose in me to hug him. “I must hug him and hold him in my arms at least for a moment.” It seemed impossible. Just then, one woman in the front row who was crying out of joy asked Mohanji, “May I hug you?” Mohanji replied with a smile “No problem. After the talk…” WOW, I thought. “This must be magic if not a miracle.” How all our deepest desires get fulfilled in the presence of Mohanji! He cannot be human. I understood the reason for my soul bringing me here against my mind’s objections.
The talk ended and I saw a queue getting formed in front of Mohanji in no time. He got up and came down the stage. He started hugging people. I thought it was already very late. When will he complete hugging all of us? And I felt that those who were hugging him did not want to leave him and were clinging on to him. The queue was slowly moving. Mohanji was also moving towards the door.
Finally, he came to me. The moment I saw him up close and personal, tears flowed from my eyes. He hugged me as gently as a flower. So soft and motherly! A strange thing happened to me. My whole body melted except where his arms touched me. It felt as if there were no other parts of the body, everything else had vanished. Only that small part of the body remained where his hands held me, just to remind me that I was alive on earth! A million dollars cannot buy that experience. I felt overwhelming joy and freedom sprouting from inside i.e. A fountain of happiness. This man is extraordinary. I am willing to give my life to him. I told him, “I am willing to die for you and your mission on earth, oh GOD.” He said, “Why die? Live. Live for the world. Live to spread love. The universe is me. Serve the universe unconditionally.” He left me and I still felt him the whole night and the following day. I realized that I had found my “Home.” The effect was that I gave up on animal products and embraced unconditional love. Now I only see, feel and live Mohanji. I am Mohanji. Only He exists. He hugged everyone who waited for him that evening, and then sat down to sign the books, photos and bless the pendants. He had no fatigue. He is something else… What more can I say?”
Surreal Moments From Andrevlje, Fruska Gora, Serbia
The merry group at the Retreat in Andrevlje, Fruška Gora, Serbia in May 2016
Fruška Gora is a beautiful mountain in north Srem, Serbia with a small part of its western side overlapping the territory of Croatia.
The Retreat in Andrevlje, a famous hiking area, on the slopes of Fruška Gora, had a special flavor this year. The beginning looked like a slow and calm opening as Mohanji kind of slow-pedaled perhaps due to many new participants. He displayed silence and calm. By the second day, he started to intensify. Many people could be seen struggling, but shedding their emotional weight rapidly. We could not find a pattern and there was absolute unpredictability. However, the highlight was spontaneity. Everything flowed smoothly and even the hardest and most difficult rocks of blockages melted. The processes that Mohanji used had the effect of opening the chakras and releasing a big load of stored emotions which made people experience causeless joy and relief, as well as grief leaving their system. By the third day, it was sheer fire and felt like a huge internal software change had been done.
The Satsang on Sunday, the third day of the Retreat, was open to all and attracted so many people from across Serbia that they were barely able to fit into the hall. People sat wherever possible and also outside the hall in the corridor. Mohanji spoke with a lot of clarity and love which transformed people before our very eyes.
In the midst of the Retreat, a TV crew from Serbia’s main TV channel (Prva TV) interviewed Mohanji and Devi and conveyed a beautiful atmosphere of Andrevlje during Conscious Walking, Yoga and meditation. The video can be viewed here:
The processes within people who attended the Retreat were intensifying. On the 4th day something amazing happened…
The Three Eyes of Shiva – Cleansing Through the Agni (Fire)
Since ancient times in India, Shiva’s eyes and third eye have been described as “Surya Soma Agni Lochana” – Surya is Sun, Soma is Moon, Agni is the fire from Shiva’s third eye. We have been blessed to experience this effect from Mohanji during the Retreat in Andrevlje…
While Mohanji was busy with his standard ‘one-on-one’ sessions (brief private consultations with the Master during the Retreat), he asked Devi to conduct a spontaneous experience sharing session in another room. All the program participants gathered and the atmosphere of spiritual intimacy and love was palpable. Many opened up for the first time and spoke about their innermost experiences held deep within as a heavy weight for many years. We saw clear signs of melting and cleansing from age-old hidden impressions, emotions, trauma and fears. Mohanji had done his job of triggering a release of the baggage of hidden blockages. Tears of cleansing, release and gratitude kept coming. One lady confessed before her son that she intended to commit suicide at one point in her life but didn’t do it. That was something she never told anyone before and felt this was the time to share it. Similarly, other people agreed to come forward, stand before the group and share… This took more time than planned. After completing the quota of ‘one-on-one’ for the day, Mohanji walked in with quick steps and the usual intensity and determination on his face. He requested that we continue even though the sharing was in Serbian. He sat in his chair and observed everybody in silence while we immersed ourselves in the experience sharing. He was happy to sit among us and do his ‘invisible’ work.
We therefore continued and at one point heard him saying in a very stern and loud manner: “Move, move!” We didn’t quite understand who was supposed to move and where, but could only notice that he was looking in the direction of Natasa Haska. She used to sit in the back row and stay away from Mohanji. This time, she chose to sit in the second row. Mohanji saw something hidden in her (which was something that happened to her during challenging times of her life when she had to deal with the loss of her daughter, cancer, and many other severe tests of life) and as Mohanji revealed to us later, these negativities were challenging and provoking him while she was looking at him with anger in her eyes. This was Natasa’s second Retreat with Mohanji and this was the moment when she was finally ready to release them. At one point he looked at her with such intensity that fire came through his third eye straight into the negativities, forcing them to leave Natasa’s energy field and go into the White Light.
Mohanji did not move from his chair. He just kept staring at her. He asked the people in the front row to move aside and also Dusan who sat behind her to move off the line of his eyes. The people in the front moved. Dusan said he could not.
This is how Natasa described her experience:
“After my daughter’s death in 2009 and cancer in 2013 I knew it was time to change everything in my life.
I started attending Yoga classes and observing everything in life from a different perspective. As I continued practicing Yoga I noticed that different, more positive people came into my life. Through them I came to know about Mohanji’s Retreat. I attended the first Retreat in May 2015 with an expectation that I will be practicing Yoga, possibly change my sleeping pattern and with it my lifestyle, change my diet and hopefully stop smoking.
After first two days of the Retreat I felt unseen anger and frustration coming out from within. I thought that I entered some sort of a sect or a group of lunatics. When I saw Devi Mohan with her flower in the hair, I felt like ripping it from her hair – the anger within me just exploded. I did not express anything verbally but my eyes would have expressed it. Still, I somehow pulled on and stayed till the end of the Retreat. I felt some sort of relief and went for the weekend trip to Bosnian pyramids as well.
Don’t ask me how and why I applied for the Retreat this year. I came with a hope of gaining some clarity about what was going on within me, but overall I was in a bad mental condition. With each day of the Retreat my condition was getting worse. A part of me wanted to run away from there but my intuition was saying that I should stay. After the one-on-one with Mohanji I sank completely. Among other things, he told me that I kept playing a victim, that I closed myself into a shell and that I was being repulsive towards people. That hit me hard. However, he ended with: “You take one step and I will take 10 steps for you.” That stayed with me. On the 4th day of the Retreat something indescribable happened, something that destroyed all my doubts in Mohanji, his powers and this entire story.
During experience sharing that day I shared the pain of my life with other people and thought that I would be able to speak about it in a cool, emotion-free way that is typical of me. However, when I started talking the tears started gushing from my eyes, I was suffocating in my snot and for the first time in four days I started feeling hot. I kept sweating. When I finished talking I could not understand why this was happening and what I even said. After my speech Mohanji appeared in the room, sat on his little stage and as we continued with experience sharing he started looking in my direction. He fixated his eyes on me and I fixated mine on him. Something like fire was coming from his eyes towards me. It was then that I suddenly started to cough and felt as if I was about to vomit. I felt that something was coming out through my mouth. Some energy invisible to me moved out from my body, the time stopped completely and I could see nothing and no one, only my eyes and His eyes. When all of that ended, all I felt was a pleasant emptiness and relief. The pain that I always had in my chest was gone. At that moment I did not know what He had done (I came to know about the removal of the entities within me later on), but in that moment I knew that he had destroyed all my doubts and indeed made those 10 steps for me… The next day I woke up totally relaxed and happy, something that I haven’t felt in many years. I was weight-free and no longer had any doubts in Mohanji’s powers. What can I say…? All that remains is deep gratitude.“
While Mohanji was staring at Natasa, we continued sharing experiences since Mohanji had asked us to continue. But those people who were seated near Mohanji and near Natasa could feel sudden rise in temperature as if there is fire in the room. Since Mohanji operates silently and subtly, we never knew what exactly he was doing. He did such heavy cleansing to all the participants, rapidly and quietly. He was working hard when with us and also when alone. Many people felt his presence in the room, either delivering energy to ward off their headaches due to cleansing or other sensations of the body when stored negativities leave the body. Every individual was attended to.
All Retreat participants were so happy for Natasa. Devi took the flower from her hair and put it on Natasa, as a symbolical crown of her transformation. Natasa indeed looked so different and her inner beauty was shining forth.
During this intense experience, the person who sat behind Natasa and was supposed to move (but didn’t) was Dusan S., who happened to be sitting right behind Natasa and the “flame” of Shiva’s third eye hit him head on. He could witness it completely and he did not know that Mohanji was focusing on Natasa and not him. He could not bear the heat. While Natasa was rather quiet and hardly released any sound except the cough, it was Dusan who started releasing the strangest of sounds very loudly. He could not withstand the energy and was about to collapse. Mohanji signaled that we continue with experience sharing but at one point we couldn’t ignore Dusan – he was breathing heavily, crying profusely, he fell down from his chair and to the ground, then stuttering somehow came to the stage where Mohanji sat, bowing down in a sort of delirium, holding his feet and crying profusely. It was as dramatic as it could be. Once he gathered himself we asked him to explain what happened. All that he could tell us at that moment was that he suddenly saw nothing but Mohanji’s eyes and his third eye with utmost intensity, while everything else simply disappeared.
He thought his heart would explode and that he would just disappear in this intense energy. He could not feel his feet and when he got up from the chair he fell on the floor. He also felt immensely cleansed from tons of backlog. Here’s how Dusan described the experience: Mohanji’s Eyes Changed My Life
On a lighter side, we also sang, danced and celebrated a birthday as well during this hectic one week. It had everything we could possibly ask for.
All the people who came transformed for good. They went home lighter and grateful.
Mohanji always tells us how the Higher purpose drives him and that the same has been the case with all the Masters in the past. We saw that clearly this time – this kind of tempo could not have been maintained by anyone who functions within typical human boundaries. It is so beautiful to have Mohanji around us as a living proof that this kind of purity, intensity, selflessness and dedication is indeed possible and achievable to all of us.
The storm passed us and left expanded hearts and inner transformation. Mohanji Serbia team is forever indebted to Mohanji for all the blessings that he bestowed upon us. We eagerly await his return to Serbia, for which the new Mohanji Foundation Serbia team is already preparing.
The pyramid of the Sun – view from the hotel “Piramida Sunca”
At the top of the pyramid of the Sun
With our guide Ajdin
How did Mohanji happen to me?
Please bear with the foreground.
The year 2015 was a very restless year to start with, as I had to shift from one city in India to another for the fifth time in 10 years since marriage, which meant packing and unpacking, finding a rented house, locate a good school, sell some old stuff, buy new, bid farewell, find the right packers and movers etc. etc. Although I was now a seasoned player in the art of shifting, but hated the rigor/gruel of settling and unsettling in a city. Finding a seat in a good school in a metropolis like Chennai has always been a nightmare for parents as it means paying huge donations or finding a jack to get you a seat. And I needed TWO seats for my two angels! By God’s grace everything went well and my elder daughter managed to get a seat through a written entrance test in a very reputed school without donations and my second daughter too got through in the sibling quota. But all this at the cost of 6 months of restless nights and anxiety of various hues.
Life seemed perfect to me till I shifted to Chennai, in May 2015. That was the beginning of things to come. I do not know how and why, I was getting sucked by a whirlpool of negative thoughts with aversion to everything around me and most of it was coming out as anger and frustration towards the school, the system of education and performance of my child. Everybody explained to me that she is only in Grade 3 and that it was not so important to score high at this stage of life. But slowly and steadily I was heading towards something more drastic. I could not eat, sleep or even put my thoughts in place. I had not had a wink of sleep for about 2 months, I had even given up food, doing my daily chores, interacting with people, taking phone calls, to the extent that I was a kind of pushed into uttering these words to my husband, ‘I wish to die’. I was thrashed against the wall for having said that and was termed an ‘escapist’. Frantically, my husband, who is otherwise a very caring person, was now angry, nervous, shaken and dilapidated, decided to fly me to my friend in Mumbai, a healer, who tried all her means to bring me back from the state I was in.
I was aware that, what I was saying and doing was not me but an external entity which had docked inside me and was uttering and making me do things to tarnish the good image people had of me. My soul would cry helplessly but this foreign entity would tell me that I am of no use to my family and that I must cross-over. I was in a living stinking body with some unknown force guiding my movements, thoughts and actions, which made me look like an idiot, who cannot even wash her own body, let alone cook, feed the kids, teach, drive or shop, which I would do so easily and naturally. My body started to stink so much that I would be pushed away by my kids and my husband would ask me to sleep in a different room. I could not feel my children, my husband and no emotions would bother me. My friend would take me to temples where I would be completely restless and would want to run away. Music, Bhajans and any sound was an irritant to me. While my real soul would want to cry but was stifled and no tears would spill out, till one day when I actually tried to kill this physical body and be relieved of all this. But I fortunately failed in doing that too. It was now the turn of medical practitioners to try their hands on me. All they could do was to put me to sleep. I was now given sleeping pills and antidepressants and within two months I was addicted to it. This was a phase wherein I started to cry for every little thing. Without medicines I would be reckless with a shooting pain in my head and I would frantically pop in the pills and go to sleep.
My next door neighbour, Rekha Murali, was a witness to all of this and I would often tell her, “Please help me, I feel somebody is sucking out my happiness”.
Having seen my state of affairs, she had written to Mohanji about me and he had instructed her to give me the “two eyes”. She had pleaded me to keep it in my Puja room and look into them for at least 5 mins a day. I would try, but could not manage more than 30 sec or maximally 60.
Rekha would always mention about POP (Power of Purity ) meditation, a guided 45-minute meditation in Mohanji’s voice, but for some reason or the other, we could not do it. We somehow made it a point to start the new year, Jan 1, 2016 with good vibes by doing the POP. We were successful!!! Though I could not concentrate or hear the instructions properly, it gave me a direction. I followed it up with another 3 sessions alone at home, with headphones and by Jan 10, 2016, a span of 10 days, bridged the gap from addiction to medicine free state. I was relieved of all pain and each POP guided me to show my gratitude to different sets of people, which I generously did. Miracles do happen and Mohanji’s POP did it all!!!
Furthermore, I have been a hypothyroid patient for the past 23 years, but clinically my doctors were unable to relate my situation to it as I currently have much higher levels of TSH (Thyroid stimulating hormones) than what I had at the time when I was insane. Everybody, including me could never imagine such a sudden coming back, to the extent that I, who has never been a confident driver, decides to participate in a Car Rally, supposedly the longest one called “Times Women’s Drive”, an all Women rally, organized by Times of India.
I was definitely giving credit to POP but not the man himself. I had not connected to the physical form of this person, neither did I have any intention to know or see him, given my aversion to the clan of so called “babas”, due to my childhood experiences of them, which my parents had connected to.
As an ode to what POP meditation had done to me, I enrolled for “A day in Mohanji’s consciousness” in Chennai on March 8, 2016, just the next day after I had come back from the car rally. I never spoke to him, although the volunteers asked me if I wanted to talk to him in person. I never took the opportunity which was easily thrown to me. I was just okay being in his presence and absorb, as I really had no words and I knew I could only cry and actually howled throughout the day long session. They asked me to share my experiences which I couldn’t. After receiving my first ever Shaktipat that day, I am TRANSFORMED. I have never, ever felt so confident about myself and each passing day I see people with only LOVE and I am receiving only LOVE!
After this one experience, I am drawn to an unknown land and I who have never travelled out of the country alone, is pulled into this beautiful land of Bosnia and Herzegovina, just to be in the presence of this enigma called –MOHANJI.
Words are too binding to describe the experience, and the feelings too overwhelming to be put across as I am limited by my vocabulary.
Mohanji is ‘humility’ personified – a spiritual leader with a difference. He is first a friend who knows to remove the shackles that inhibit the person from being their true selves. He becomes one among us when it’s fun and play, he is the strict director when it comes to work, a meticulous organizer in terms of implementing the schedules and an intense spiritual guide who just simplifies the whole serious gamut of it, with talks which are so easily digestible and understandable. The best part is, he will make you feel all of it with self-realization through his divine presence while you sleep, eat, talk and do your daily chores. He grows into our conscious and sub-conscious state and tingles every cell of our body into a renewed, rejuvenated being.
About the Bosnian Retreat
When I told friends and relatives that I was going to Bosnia to see the Pyramids, the first reaction was invariably, “Of all places Bosnia!? We did not know there were pyramids in Bosnia at all!!!” I also had not known until Mohanji mentioned it in the Chennai satsang.
A period of four and a half days, was time bound with well-scheduled programmes. Absolutely, “no time wasted”. Food and stay was at its best. The day we reached, it was raining and the weather was gloomy and chill. I did not know what to expect from such retreats, and was somewhat reserved and withdrawn knowing that I was the only Indian from India other than Mohanji. But each member of Team Serbia made things so easy and comfortable, and the first welcome hug from Mohanji made me feel so much at home.
I am not going to say anything about the Pyramids in this testimony, as it is an experience to savour in person. Our guide Ajdin (pronounced as “Audeen”), explained to us about the 38000-year-old architectural phenomenon with great passion, threading in the spiritual aspect so beautifully and explicitly. Mohanji made us experience this phenomenon carrying us to higher realms.
Miracles on the Pyramid of Sun
Our guide was surprised to see bright sunshine the first day we started with our trek. He said, “It has been raining since the last 15 days and we could hardly believe when Mohanji said that the weather will not be a problem”. We remained blessed with bright sunshine all the days. It drizzled on the last day when we climbed the Pyramid of Sun, but all along we never got wet!!! We could see downpour, with thunder and lightning on hills on either side of the pyramid, while sunshine prevailed on us. Miraculous! We would have frozen had we got wet.
Here is a picture showing Mohanji trying to ward off the clouds.
I am lucky to have captured a picture of Biljana Vozerevic (at her request), the Trishul which appeared on her forehead while meditating on top of Pyramid of Sun. This was actually a red tilak ( holy vermilion which Indians put on forhead – on third eye) which was put on her by Jayashree, an Indian girl from London at the hotel in the morning. This picture was clicked around 3pm in the afternoon, after we had come down from the pyramid and Jayashree happened to notice this on the bus. As a reconfirmation, Biljana asked me to notice if it actually looked like a Trishul. And to me it did. Biljana kept the whole thing to herself, as she was laughed at by the people at home, who simply put it down to frowning. But I decided to ask Mohanji and he confirmed it was!!! It means presence or connection with Shiva.
This is what she shared with me in her own words, “This was after I meditated on top of the pyramid of the Sun. I melted and disappeared in love and tears. I did not hear anything around. When I came out of meditation, everybody had left. I ran and ran down to the bus and after a few kilometres, I met a few people on the way, so luckily, I managed to rejoin the group.”
At the Pyramid of Moon
On the way to the Pyramid of Moon on May 23, 2016, we halted at a base which was so green and beautiful. A girl from London, Agnieszka, sat beside me while I was basking in the natural beauty around and see the mesmerizing beauty ‘Devi’ posing for snaps. She asked me if I wanted to have a photo clicked with Mohanji, to which I agreed quite reluctantly. She asked for my phone and said, “Come, all are clicking, I shall click for you”. I followed in her direction, without much interest. I am happy and grateful to her for this precious click. Observe these pictures closely.
The Halo moves from the Centre to left, up and to the top of Mohanji’s head.
I had shared this with my Chennai group of Mohanji’s disciples and here are some of their reactions, without their names:
“Is it a Shiva Linga …. appeared on Mohanji’s throat? This is really a blessing.”
“What is this bluish aura near Mohanji’s chest?”
“Amazing Sudeshna! You are blessed! Is it Shiva’s eye?”
“I see a peacock feather.”
“Such an amazing capture. I see the Shiva Linga and also a subtle rainbow necklace and a semicircular halo on the linga…thank u so very much for sharing your experiences and these amazing photos.”
To me it is Mohanji’s blessing and I can see a halo with some face in the centre which I cannot identify. Also a stream of rainbow running across.
After we reached the top of the Pyramid of Moon, Devi taught us a new breathing technique and Mohanji guided us at each level and at the end of it, there was a huge outburst of emotions in all participants. What a cleansing phenomenon! I could feel the breeze stand still while we breathed and a gush of one directional wind sweeping out all negative emotions and thoughts which were immediately followed by Mohanji’s intermittent instructions “Relaaaaax”.
At the Tumulus
It’s supposedly a spiral energy vortex. When we were climbing we could hear this loud gnawing sound of excavation which was quite annoying and definitely a disturbance for meditation. Surprisingly the sound stopped abruptly when we commenced meditation and they resumed soon after we completed the meditation process. Our guide pointed out the miracle and I blurted, “Did anyone ask them to stop?” Mohanji just smiled and I knew what he meant.
The Power of Shaktipat
The Bosnian retreat was different, as for the first time, we were blessed with two simultaneous Shaktipats by Jan Esmann from Denmark and Mohanji.
Jan interestingly had met Mohanji for the first time, who was, regardless of his intention to be a silent participant, thrown into the limelight by Mohanji. I was given this piece of information by Jan himself as we happened to travel to the airport together.
I also believe that the atmosphere during the Shaktipat turned electrifying with the musical renditions of Natesh Ramsell. What followed was even amazing with strong vibrations of love and faith being passed through intense hugging sessions with all participants.
Blessed are the people who get Shaktipat. Brings in a complete transformation.
Blessed are we to have Mohanji in our lives, who can distantly read our thoughts, feelings and does what needs to be done. All I know is, have faith and the rest is taken care of.
Vote of thanks
I wish to extend my heartfelt thanks to Team Serbia for their prompt replies and meticulous arrangements. Though Mohanji felt more needs to be done to improvise, but at the receiver’s end, I saw no flaws. Thanks to Devi and Biljana for their wonderful Yoga lessons; Natesh, for his soulful music at every Yoga Nidra session and at the hour long Shaktipat session.
Thanks to all the participants who were all so cooperative and in tune with each other to make this the most harmonious trip. Each face oozed divinity and true to Mohanji’s preaching that God resides in each one of us, we just need to recognize HIM.
Special thanks to Hana, Mila and Dragan who healed me in different ways. Nikolina who responded to my calls and emails. Agnieszka, for gifting me this wonderful click! Ajdin, our guide for his knowledgeable and spiritual explanations.
We were lucky to have Dr. Semir Osmanagich, the man who discovered and named the Pyramids, explain to us about the history and the power of the pyramids. He seemed to me extremely spiritually evolved by his talks.
Experience during the first Power of Purity Meditation
in Ladysmith, KwaZulu-Natal, South Africa
Written by Sholane & Salona Pillay
Baba Mohanji made our wishes come true yet again
A few months ago while I was meditating I envisioned my family doing the Power of Purity meditation in the family temple at my grandparents’ home. I felt Mohanji was guiding me through this. I just didn’t know how it would come together as my family didn’t know Mohanji then. I wanted Ladysmith, my hometown to know Mohanji, too. Soon my parents came to the Durban retreat and were very happy meeting the Mohanji family and Mohanji Himself. My sister Salona went to spend some time at home after the retreat and Mohanji blessed her to start the meditations. Yesterday, Salona, my grandparents & parents started the Power of Purity meditation at the temple in Ladysmith.
It was such a beautiful experience which we all thoroughly enjoyed. We began by reciting the Shree Ganesha mantra as we always pray to Ganesha first, followed by Mohanji’s Gayathri mantra. Thereafter we humbly invited Him to come and guide us during the meditation. We connected with His eye card for 3 minutes, followed by the Aum & Mmmm meditation and five-speed breathing. I am grateful to Mitesh Bhai for his guidance on this. Thereafter we did the Power of Purity meditation.
During the meditation, I saw Mohanji dressed in white, coming from the lamp. He walked and helped all of us to sit correctly and comfortably. He then took a seat near a meditating Shiva murthi. Again during the meditation He walked between everyone spreading light and came to sit in the front, between His photo and the big Shiva Lingam. Mohanji then put His hands out and blessed us. White light appeared pouring from them. I also saw the Devas and Devis in the frames and murthis come to life, blessing everyone. At one point I saw Shree Hanuman’s (Kul Deva) massive and strong feet as He walked into the temple. I also saw Mohanji as Shiva.
After the meditation, I opened a page in the Power of Purity book and my mum read the question and answer which was very apt for the day and created waves of change in us. We then played “Govinda Damodar Madhaveti” with our eyes closed. We concluded by doing Mohanji’s Aarti.
My grandfather Nana who is 75 years old and has health issues managed to sit without pain the entire duration, he had so much energy and enjoyed the experience. Nana’s hands were shaking as he felt Mohanji’s light and heat energy healing him. My grandmother Nani saw a light in the shape of Mohanji and Mum saw white light during the meditation. My dad also enjoyed the meditation and breathing although he has the flu.
I am very grateful for this experience and Mohanji’s love, blessings and guidance. Today we have done the meditation within the family but next week we are looking forward to open the meditation to others and officially start the Power of Purity Meditations and Conscious walking in Ladysmith. I had a feeling that Mohanji wanted me to do this, hence He sent me to Ladysmith for a while. I also felt a little scared as to how would I, being a bit of an introvert, do this. But after seeing Mohanji present at the meditation guiding all of us, I have no fears. I am really looking forward to next week.
Reading this from Salona made me feel emotional to know that Mohanji, my Babaji walked through the temple which I grew up in and blessed everyone and will continue to bless more people. He is always with us all.