Mohanji and my Mother

On the auspicious day of Guru Poornima, Jyoti Bahl offers her gratitude for Mohanji by narrating this heart touching story of how Mohanji had fulfilled her mother’s each and every wish before she took her last breath.

Mohanji and my Mother

By Jyoti Bahl, India

A Guru is comparable to the Sun; he spreads the light of liberation. Anyone who comes into his presence can benefit from it. A Guru is the face of God. Your real Guru is always God Himself. He is the power who guides your spiritual efforts. He is always with you as your true self and your inner witness.  To have Mohanji as our Sathguru is definitely because of good karma from previous lives. He does so much for all of us and we selfish humans forget everything. My life is full of Baba Sai’s and Mohanji’s experiences. It’s all because of Baba Sai that I have Mohanji as my Guru. Since Mohanji entered my life, I don’t feel lonely as I feel Him every moment. It’s not only a feeling, He actually proves His presence to me whenever I feel helpless, or when I’m in a bad situation. In my previous blogs, I have already mentioned how Mohanji saved the lives of my father, son, and even me! How can I define the glory of my Gurudev, who is like the vast ocean?

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This year, i.e. 2019, Mohanji gave me many indications personally and through dreams about the problem which was coming up in my life. In March 2019, I was able to meet Mohanji. That meeting was truly blissful as I got the chance to listen to Bhaja Govindam by Sri Jagatguru Adi Shankaracharya, in Mohanji’s powerful voice. Bhaja Govindam contains the essence of Vedanta, and implores man to think, why am I here in this life? Why am I gathering wealth and family, but have no peace? What is the truth? What is the purpose of life? The person who is awakened gets set on a path back to the God Principle. While listening to this bhajan in Mohanji’s voice, I was in tears. I didn’t want to come out of that blissful moment. The translation of every verse given by Mohanji was going into each cell of mine.

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I later realised the reason why I was singing these verses. Actually, Mohanji told me about detachment through Bhaja Govindam. At the end of March, my mother was detected with fourth stage cancer, which was no less than a nightmare for all of us. Before this, I used to have dreams about Mohanji very often, in which He used to call Mother near Him to bless her.  These dreams started in Jan 2019. For the last few months, Mother had wanted to meet Mohanji, but it hadn’t been possible due to some reason or the other.

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I used to tell my Mother about my astral meeting with Him. I met Mohanji at the end of March and in the same month, got a chance to visit Shirdi as well. After I came back from Shirdi, I got to know about my Mother’s condition. And then I felt the power of Sathguru Mohanji, as He gave me so much strength to deal with a problem which was next to impossible for an ordinary person like me. With His motivation, I was prepared to give my Mother quality time as all the doctors told us that her fourth stage cancer was not curable.

Mohanji asked me to contact a particular doctor and also gave me Lord Dattatreya‘s healing mantra for my mother. From the very first day Mohanji sent Dr Harpreet Wasir into our lives, he guided us at every step related to my Mother’s health. Many doctors were suggesting chemo. But I didn’t want my Mother to go through it as she had always been a very lively person. One day in my prayers, I surrendered to Baba Sai and Mohanji completely and within a few minutes, I got a call from Dr Wasir saying that Mother need not go for chemo and he also added that let the doctors say anything. I was in such peace after listening to him. Just as I was praying to Mohanji for the same thing, Baba gave a message to one of my friends that my Mother’s life expectancy was very short, and we just have to give maximum love to the soul.

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My Mother’s first amazing experience was when she went for a PET scan. She was a little scared during the test so she closed her eyes and called to Mohanji. Within seconds, Mohanji was standing in front of her along with Baba, and in the same blessing position which I used to see often in my dreams. After her PET scan, my Mother told me about her experience and asked me if Mohanji wears kurta and dhoti. She gave me the description of His footwear also. I was amazed to hear that as she had never met Mohanji personally, yet gave me His full description. When Mohanji physically came to give her His darshan, she told Him that He was wearing the same costume as when He gave her darshan astrally. Mohanji told her that He was going to wear a T-shirt with jeans, but just to make her realize that He actually came to bless her, He wore that.  He told her that she has a heart to heart connection with Him. As her call for Him was so strong, He had to come to her to fulfil her main desire. When she told Him about Baba Sai and Mohanji coming together during her PET scan, Mohanji mentioned that a son can’t be separated from his father. All masters are one and it was actually proved to me when so many divine souls, Baba Sai, Mohanji and Mohanji’s family came to visit Mother.

Mohanji actually took very good care of my Mother and she didn’t even get to know that she had fourth stage cancer. It was a continuous prayer to Baba Sai and Mohanji and due to that, she was full of life till her last breath. To have a living Guru in our lives is the biggest asset and without letting us know even a bit, He does so much for us. And I started feeling Him more in my Mother as she had become complete love. I was seeing Divine Mother in her and more of Mohanji in her. In such a state, she was blessing and giving love to everyone, and Mohanji’s family was witness to it, as they often used to come to meet her. When my Mother started getting blood in her stools, it became a cause of worry, as she was feeling very weak. The doctor told us that she had a life expectancy of 6 to 12 weeks. But the most surprising thing was that she didn’t have any kind of pain. The people who used to visit her were surprised as she was always smiling, full of love and life without any pains.

When I saw her in this state, suddenly Mohanji’s voice started echoing in my ears.

“I’m doing what I can.”

One day I was shocked when I received a personal message from Neelu that Mohanji had taken on my Mother’s pain. It was shared in the global group by Preeti Di. But during that time, I was not checking my WhatsApp messages due to my busy schedule. As soon as I read about Mohanji’s condition, I was in tears as He was having problems in His lungs the same as my Mother. I couldn’t control myself and called up Preeti Di to know about Mohanji’s condition.  The first thing she told me was about the blood in the stools, and I was speechless. My Mother had blood in her stools three times, and the exact same thing had happened with Mohanji too. I couldn’t stop crying. I hadn’t said anything to Mohanji and just by connecting to His consciousness, He got to know and took everything on Himself.

There is a big misconception that whosoever gets a chance to be with Mohanji physically is very fortunate. Indeed, they are very fortunate. But I really want to tell those souls that Mohanji actually works more in consciousness. From the beginning, He’s trying to tell each one of us to get connected to His consciousness, as we internalize through that process. As a true Guru, He always guides us to go within and become independent in every aspect.

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Mohanj always stresses on doing our dharma properly. And I’m really grateful to Him that He gave me enough strength to serve my Mother until 20th May. Mohanji was supposed to come that morning to meet my Mother. And on the same day at 9 am, my Father fell in the market and my husband immediately took him to the doctor to get an X-ray done.

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As Mohanji knows everything, He arrived at my place at 11:30 to meet my Mother. She did His aarati and sang bhajans for Him. And they had such a beautiful conversation related to Lord Krishna and Radha. Mohanji told her that death is not ugly, it’s beautiful. He made her laugh and consoled her as she was really worried about my Father, who was with the doctor for his X-ray. He gave us so much strength.  There were so many things going on, but with His presence, we were feeling extremely light and were in a thoughtless state. My Mother was in an ultimate state of bliss as her last desire of meeting Mohanji was fulfilled.

My Father was also fortunate to meet Mohanji. Mohanji blessed him and told him in advance that it was a thigh bone fracture. My Father was admitted on the same day for surgery. The same evening, my Mother’s health started deteriorating and she was admitted in ICU for breathlessness on 22nd. My Father also had surgery on the same day. I told Mohanji about my Mother’s condition, which He already knew. He said He’s aware of my Mother’s condition. This is why He came and met her as a priority and told me not to worry as He’s with her. It was a very tough situation for us. Mohanji told me that He’s with both of them and He’s reducing the intensity as much as possible. If not for Mohanji’s grace, I would have collapsed in such a situation where I was feeling exhausted in every way.

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In ICU, my Mother was pouring unconditional love and blessings on everyone around her. My friends were meeting her on a daily basis as they wanted to take blessings from her. They felt Mohanji’s immense energies in her. Her wish to meet Dr Wasir also got fulfilled when he came to meet her in ICU. During her last breath, she got a chance to listen to Mohanji Gayatri on the phone in Preeti Di’s blissful voice. That was the last thing she heard. Mohanji didn’t leave even a single desire of her’s unfulfilled. When Mother left her body, I was at peace as I knew that my Baba Sai and Mohanji were standing beside her. Mohanji told me that I only concentrate on the rituals and to not forget to feed the sick, children, old women, animals and birds in her name. Rest He’s taking care and she’s fine. So I need not worry.

Immediately after this message, I started thinking about feeding the sick, old women and children. To my surprise, I found a number of a lady in my phone list who runs an NGO and she guided me to go to cancer patients at AIIMS. When I went there, I found children, women and old people altogether. How masters help us can’t be defined in words. I didn’t know anything and Mohanji guided me at every step for a smooth transition for my mother, as that was my biggest concern, and which Mohanji was already doing. Whatever I’m writing is not even an inch of praise for my Gurudev. What countless merits of previous births have given us this wonderful opportunity to be in the shadow of such an Avadhoota.

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There was another amazing experience which I want to mention here. Before my Mother’s body arrived at the cremation ground, my son took the ambulance to a Gurdwara which is near to our house. As he reached there, he saw Sri Guru Nanak standing at the gate and he saw a big light coming from him and merging into my Mother’s body! My Mother used to follow the Sikh religion completely and was a great follower of Sri Guru Nanak. In the end, just by connecting to Mohanji, she reached the ultimate.

On the 13th day after her death, which is the time for the soul’s transition, my Sister organized Mohanji’s satsang at my place. When the playing list was on, Mohanji’s Nirvana Shatakam also started playing automatically side by side. As before, through this obvious episode, I first strongly felt Mohanji’s presence. We were surprised as Nirvana Shatakam is one of the rare verses written by Sri Adi Sankara Bhagavatpada, identifying himself as Lord Shiva and clearly explaining his theory of non-dualism. I was at peace to know that my Mother was with Mohanji forever through this amazing experience. By chanting His name in her last days, my Mother’s soul merged into Guru’s consciousness forever. The Guru does become the linking factor, a channel for putting the wandering lost soul back into contact with its source.

Mohanji, you were the light for me in the dark. You were always an inspiration and an aspiration. You made me come out of my ignorance. I learned to deal with the issue, all due to you. Please keep me at Your lotus feet always. I am nothing but the dust of your feet, my Gurudev. Guru is like Shiva, without the Trisul in his hand. Guru is like Vishnu without the Chakra in His hand. Guru is like Brahma without the four heads. So now you can conclude that Guru is the Supreme Power on the Earth.

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|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||

Compiled, Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 16th July 2019

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Grace of Mohanji – Beyond Science

Author: Dr. Nikita Naredi, Pune, India

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A flickering flame ignited five years back has now expanded into a crackling fire, creating a warm and wholesome hearth in my soul, that illuminates the path to my destination – my Guru, Mohanji. As you must have guessed, the duration of my association with Mohanji is nearing 5 years. The transformation He has brought in me, my life and my overall persona is beyond words. This is the change I perceive in myself and my nearest family (my daughter, my husband, my parents and siblings) can overtly see in me. I don’t need not to put this testimony in words to prove their veracity as everyone connected to Mohanji (I call him lovingly as “Father”) can vouch for the truth of their experiences. If He says, “I am with you”, then He is always with us walking by our side, helping us in our day to day dharma, removing all our impediments and facilitating our growth both spiritually and as human beings.

All of us who are positively connected to Mohanji have had super experiences of Him touching our lives. It behooves us to pen them down these experiences so that, during our moments of darkness, they serve as a guiding light for us to dispel negativity and reaffirm faith by showing us the immense grace that has been showered by the Master in our lives. It also helps show the beacon of light to other people including our M family members to repose trust in the Divine that is always earnestly working for our well being.

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I am a gynaecologist specialising in IVF (in vitro-fertilisation) – medical speak for what is commonly known as making test tube babies for couples who are unable to conceive. The success rate of this procedure is low with the best of centres across the globe hovering around 45-50% i.e. in the best of the best, 1 in 2 couples succeed in conceiving. The results in my clinic are very good with Mohanji’s grace. Mostly, it is 45% and in certain months, it goes up to 55%. I take no credit for that because I know He is facilitating every procedure that I am doing. Earlier, I used to feel sad for couples getting negative reports. During one of my meetings with Him, He said, “Surrender it to me, irrespective of whether good or bad, and believe Mohanji is performing it.” Since, I have stopped taking ownership for anything that happens in my clinic and react neutrally.

I want to share one of my experiences which is beyond the realms of science and will be difficult to comprehend for a normal person who is working only with the narrow domains of mind and reasoning. This particular couple, married for 8 years with no children, reported to my clinic for fulfilling their dreams of parenthood. They were very anxious as they had two failed attempts of IVF performed earlier elsewhere. We started their evaluation and, after counselling and explaining the existing problem, I recommended IVF treatment for them. Soon we commenced the IVF treatment for the couple. IVF treatment, in short the eggs of the women are taken out of the body under anaesthesia and fused with husband’s sperms outside the body and once the embryo (baby) is formed, it is put into the woman’s uterus. For this, the lady has to take lots of injections for almost a month which can be both physically and psychologically very challenging. The worst is the uncertainty of the outcome.

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When we started the procedure for the couple, I told them to get connected to Mohanji and they started attending the Power of Purity meditations regularly. The husband started feeling at peace and he started participating in all our service activities too.  Soon, he became an ardent devotee of Mohanji. After the first failed cycle, we started the third cycle with complete surrender to Mohanji. The husband was teaching the kids from slums at ‘Mohanji Kaa Aangan’ in Pune with full sincerity, love and devotion. I knew Mohanji was taking care. I started the third cycle of IVF and after a tumultuous month of injections and procedures, the final procedure was done and the time for results approached. I had no expectations this time. Lo and behold! The result was positive and she had conceived twins. It might seem very obvious this time but this is not what I wanted to share. The journey of Mohanji’s blessings in their lives had just begun with pregnancy.

After around 4½ months of pregnancy, the lady started having very high blood pressure. High blood pressure during pregnancy is a very severe disorder, especially if it happens during early months. High blood pressure during pregnancy can be fatal for the mother if not treated in a timely manner. If the blood pressure can’t be controlled and the pregnancy is very early, the only cure is to remove the pregnancy to save the life of the mother. For this particular lady, her first blood pressure recording was very high at 180/120 (normal is 120/80). We admitted her and started her on medication to control the blood pressure. I was anxious and apprehensive. An uncomfortable  thought had come to consider the possibility of aborting her pregnancy if the blood pressure could not be controlled. Then again, who was I to decide the course when Mohanji was taking care?

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It was a happy moment for us when her pressure was controlled soon enough but we knew we would have to monitor her very closely. Such cases would require high doses of drugs or, in some cases, a combination of two or more medicines to control the blood pressure. I called the couple and told them that we have a long way to go to finally reach the stage of having a successful pregnancy outcome without any harm to the mother and the babies. Only one thing was required: complete surrender to Mohanji. They started chanting daily and continued the POP meditation daily, while I and my team were looking after the lady’s medical condition. It is a miracle that, till 8½ months of pregnancy, her blood pressure remained under control with a minuscule dose of medicines. The babies were growing adequately with no complications.

Blood pressure during pregnancy is associated with many complications – fits and liver failure being some of them. This lady had no such problems as well as no increase in number and dosage of drugs. It was only in the end (about 8½ months of pregnancy) when the babies were mature enough that the blood pressure started increasing again despite the medicines. At that point, we decided to carry out her delivery for the safety of the mother and the babies. She underwent a Caesarean section and delivered two beautiful, cute daughters who they subsequently named Nitya (Eternal) and Niyati (Destiny).

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It’s beyond our scientific knowledge to explain this miraculous protection throughout the pregnancy. In cases of high blood pressure in early parts of pregnancy, we have generally had to sacrifice the babies for the safety of the mother. In this couple’s case, not only did we avoid abortion, but the healthy babies were also delivered against all odds. Surely, this lady and her beautiful daughters were completely under the protection of Mohanji! Their surrender, utmost faith and Mohanji’s blessings gave us a successful and fruitful outcome. Lucky are the two angels who were blessed by Mohanji in person when He visited Pune. Divinity, grace, compassion and unconditional love was exuding when they were in His arms.

Another lady who is also a Mohanji devotee as well as my patient had a failed first IVF cycle. She was very composed when she heard the report. When she met Mohanji subsequently, He said “It was not meant to happen this time”. He suggested her to visit Kukke Subrahmanya temple in Karnataka before going through the next cycle. She expressed her desire to have twins and Mohanji smiled as if to say Tathasthu (So be it). Subsequently, when we carried out her second cycle, the Divine was with her. Guess what! She had twins – a boy and a girl!

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This is just a drop of the ocean of blessings from Mohanji in my patients lives and mine. I feel His presence in my clinic which is officially called the Assisted Reproductive Technology (ART) Centre. For me, it’s my temple since He remarked, “I stay here” on one of His visits to the centre. Since the month, He visited and blessed the place the success rates have just boomeranged to 63% from the usual 45-50%. We are only a channel for the Divine to carry out it’s work. The grace and blessings of the Master help us sail through.

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Science and technology have definitely helped us progress and help these anxious couples but the role of the Divine and the grace always reigns more supreme. During one of my conversations with Mohanji, He had mentioned “The devotee’s surrender forces Me to cut down their karmas to such a great extent that it is unfathomable”. Every moment, I thank Mohanji for guiding me, blessing me and spreading His love and grace so that I am able to bring happiness in people’s lives.

Jai Mohanji

Dr. Nikita Naredi

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The Boy who Walked with Sai Baba – Shadows of Grace – Part II

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By Rajesh Kamath

This is the second part on Baba Ganeshananda Giri Maharaj (respectfully and lovingly addressed as Babaji). For those who came in late, please read the first part here.

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Moving on from where we left. We proceeded with Mohanji on our year-end road trip through the south of India. Babaji, as planned, concluded his Shirdi trip and moved back to Chennai in the first week of January. In between, Babaji called Mohanji and invited him to Chennai in the last week of January. Mohanji chose to be in Chennai on January 30th. We proceeded to Chennai from Palakkad via Coimbatore.

When we arrived, we found that Babaji had personally come to receive Mohanji along with members of the Shri Dattatreya Siva Sai Trust (the trust He founded to build the Sai Baba temple on the outskirts of Chennai in Sriperumbudur). Babaji honored Mohanji with garlands and a shawl at the airport and embraced him lovingly. The picture of them hugging each other is one of Mohanji’s favorite pictures. The mutual all-encompassing love and respect that the Masters had for each other were there for all to see.

Babaji first took us to the Shri Dattatreya Siva Sai trust office where we were introduced to all the members of the trust where they  (along with Babaji) shared the details of the temple construction project. After this Babaji took us to the altar within the trust office and performed Shirdi Sai Baba’s aarti.

Babaji had ensured that Mohanji was booked into five-star hotel. While Mohanji gently pointed out that the extra expense was unnecessary, and that he would have loved to stay with Babaji, and that there was no need to be honoured like this, Babaji insisted that  Mohanji had no say in this matter and insisted that it had to be done like this since this was the specific instruction he received fromSai Baba, including Mohanji’s stay at  the Grand Hyatt.

At the hotel, Babaji came all the way up to inspect Mohanji’s room and the bathroom. He smilingly told Mohanji that this was the first time he had set foot in a five star hotel! He was showering us with a lot of love, grace, and blessings. After he blessed Mohanji in the hotel room, he took both of Mohanji’s hands and placed it on his third eye. He asked Mohanji to rest a while to alleviate the fatigue from the travel, saying he would meet Mohanji in the evening at his temporary residence in Chennai and that he had arranged for Mohanji to be picked up and dropped there. Mohanji later mentioned, “Meeting Babaji was always overwhelming and the way He honoured me was also totally unexpected. Perhaps you can also see how much weight I have lost”. Someone commented that the love showered by Babaji on Mohanji was similar to that showered on Mohanji by Sri Vittalananda Saraswati (Vittal Babaji) a couple of years back in Kuruvapuram. While I wasn’t there to witness Vittal Babaji and Mohanji together, I have been witness to the immense love and affection showered on Mohanji by Masters like Swamy Vasudevanji of Ganeshpuri, Devi Amma from Bangalore, Vanamala Mataji from Rishikesh, Avadhoota Nadanandaji from Kurnool, etc.

In the evening, some of the trust members dropped us at Babaji’s temporary residence in Chennai. The Masters had a long discussion where Babaji shared his detailed plans for the Sai Baba temple that he was constructing in Sriperumbudur on the outskirts of Chennai. The trust members also discussed the current progress of the construction. In the course of the discussion, Babaji honoured Mohanji by requesting him to preside over and lay the foundation stone of the temple. Mohanji readily agreed, saying that he was a loyal servant of Sai Baba and that he considered it his duty to obey any command coming from Sai Baba. Babaji asked Mohanji to provide him with 10 tons of steel, 500 bags of cement and 4-5 truckloads of gravel. That was Babaji’s way. He hardly made any requests. You were just told what he was to be done and your acceptance of the chosen task was implicitly assumed. Mohanji immediately told Babaji that it would be provided before the foundation laying ceremony.

This was followed by an informal satsang where Babaji shared some of his insights on the Guru disciple relationship. He said, “Always follow the Guru no matter what. He may love you, beat you, scold you, hurt you – no matter what never leave the protection of a real Guru. If a Guru tells you to jump into a well and die, do it without thinking. The Guru will never let you get hurt. He will pick you out as gently as one would a flower. He who understands that the Guru’s scolding and hurting takes away lifetimes of karma will never leave the Guru. The one who leaves a true Guru is most unfortunate. He is forever in darkness – neither here nor there. That is why Baba always recommended shraddha (faith) and saboori (patience) as the essential qualities of in a disciple. Remember His name, live His teachings, follow His word – nothing will ever touch you. Anything or anyone that tries to harm you will be destroyed.” He also mentioned that the rudraksha is alive. It’s food is til (sesame) oil. You are supposed to soak the rudraksha in til oil a day before Amavasya (the new moon) and remove it the day after. Subsequently, Mohanji soaked the rudraksha given to him by Babaji as per his instructions and half the oil in the container disappeared. So his observation was indeed true.

Interestingly, most photos taken while the Masters were chatting showed light bodies hovering over them. In one photograph Shirdi Sai Baba and Lord Hanuman could be clearly seen. IMG_20160130_194749_HDR.jpgIt was very overwhelming to be in the loving presence of both the Masters. Both Masters spoke in languages alien to me – Babaji spoke in Tamil while Mohanji spoke in Malayalam. I was curious how they understood each other. Mohanji answered my unspoken question saying that he spoke Malayalam with a Tamil accent and Babaji spoke Tamil in a Malayalam accent. That’s how they understood each other. 🙂

Soon it was time for us to leave. Babaji literally showered Mohanji and all of us with lots of love and blessings as we departed for the hotel. He insisted that he wanted to come to drop us to the airport. However, as we had an early morning flight,  we entreated Babaji not to do so since he needed proper rest especially considering his punishing work schedule.

One of the concerns I had as I left the meeting was getting the material required by Babaji. There was a considerable cost involved and it wasn’t like we were rolling in cash. Mohanji just said, “The material has been requested by Sai Baba (since Babaji was not any different from Shirdi Sai Baba). Hence, Shirdi Sai Baba will provide for it Himself and there is nothing to worry.” Madhusudan Rajagopalan (aka Madhu), the person tasked with delivering Babaji’s request, has separately documented the amazing way in which the funds, resources, and people materialized to fulfill Babaji’s request in the book on Babaji, The Boy who Walked with Sai Baba. (People who are interested in buying a copy of the book  can email the publisher, Gurulight, at info@gurulight.com)

Mohanji subsequently left on his overseas tours while I returned to Dharamshala. It was wonderful to receive Babaji’s New Year packet of blessings which contained Sai Baba’s udi (holy ash), neem (margosa) leaves from Gurusthan and a picture of Babaji/Sai Baba with Babaji’s favorite mantra ‘Om Shri Sai Sharanam mama‘ (I seek refuge in Sai). Of course, it was filled with his wonderful heartfelt blessings. Babaji also sent the invitation cards for the foundation stone laying ceremony that prominently featured Mohanji as one of the luminaries attending the function. Mohanji had instructed a few of us in the group like Madhu, to stay in regular touch with Babaji. If we didn’t call him regularly, he would get chide us saying that we guys had become so busy that we didn’t call anymore! He would then excitedly update us on the progress of the temple construction and his plans for the near future. He would always enquire, “Where is my Mohanji these days?” and get a detailed update on Mohanji’s whereabouts, health, programs, travel plans, etc. He was always interested in knowing when Mohanji was coming back to India. If we called him with the slightest issue, he would tell us, “Why do you worry? I am standing behind Mohanji. My Guru is standing behind Mohanji. What more do you want? Nothing can affect you people.”

He also chided me to do more sadhana. He would say that you should do 10-15min of sadhana first thing in the morning as soon as you wake up straight out of bed. The same before going to bed. As you get accustomed to the practice, you can increase the duration gradually. When you end the call, he would have a long extended blessing that would last a minute or more. So much love and kindness poured out of him for us that it was truly moving. He was such a sweet and loving kindred soul to us which was very unlike the fierce imposing exterior that he projected for others. We felt that it was our association with Mohanji that afforded us this outlook from Babaji. For Babaji, we were Mohanji’s children. Hence, he extended his blanket of love and protection over us as well.

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Babaji was working at breakneck speed preparing for the foundation stone laying ceremony. He was planning the function to the minutest detail. This was also taking a toll on his health but that did not stop him from continuing with his backbreaking schedule. It was his all-consuming passion to deliver on the promise he made to his Guru. He was involved in every aspect of the temple project – planning, fundraising, marketing, construction, etc. Leading from the front and rallying the troops to deliver it with the perfection that was expected by his Guru, Shirdi Sai Baba. It was all he thought about in his waking hours and possibly also while he was sleeping.

Soon it was time for the foundation stone laying ceremony. Mohanji and our group arrived in Chennai the evening before the ceremony and headed straight to Sriperumbudur. Once we reached the temple land, we headed straight to Babaji’s kutir (cottage) on the land. It was a standalone house with one room and an attached bathroom. This was the command center from where Babaji directed all the efforts for the temple construction. As you enter the house, there is a giant Shivling in the space between the gate and the door of the house. Babaji would perform an abhishekam of the Shivling daily. We were told that the construction folks had advised Babaji that the soft land would not be able to take the weight of the Shivling and it would start sinking very soon. Hence, it was inadvisable to install the Shivling there. Babaji purportedly told them to do as directed and he would take care of any eventualities. [Almost a year on, the Shivling continues to stand on solid ground and nothing has happened to it or the ground below.]

As we entered, Babaji greeted us. Mohanji prostrated at Babaji’s feet and then Babaji embraced Mohanji. Since it was late in the night, he checked to see if we had our dinner. All the hard work for the ceremony was showing on him – he looked shaken but not stirred. He gave Mohanji an update on what he had planned for the ceremony. He then asked Mohanji and our group to accompany him so he could show us all the arrangements. He took Mohanji’s hand and started walking out the door to the place where the ceremony was to be conducted. He was suddenly like a young teenager sprinting out of the door with us in hot pursuit.

They were expecting a few thousand people in attendance. At the venue itself, arrangements had been made to accommodate several thousand visitors, including their seating, food and sanitation. A big stage had been erected with different areas – some had the different idols that were to be eventually housed in the temple, one had all the Sai Baba statues, there was a place where intricately decorated pots were kept, and so on. The entire place was abuzz with activity – priests were getting the place and ingredients ready for the ceremonial rites, huge garlands were being woven, workers were busy putting the final touches, etc. The preparations for the pooja were in full swing – the statues for the various deities were arranged on the stage (including Sai Baba, Ganesha, Dattatreya, Rama, Hanuman, Shaneeswara, Kala Bhairava, Shiva, Maha Vishnu, Mahalakshmi among others), the ceremonial kalashes (urns) were being readied and the homa kund (fire ceremony pit) was being prepared. The center of the stage was where the dignitaries were to be seated. In front of that was an open area where artists would perform. Towards the right of that place was the area where the ceremonies were to be conducted. Babaji enthusiastically updated us with all the details of the preparations so far, the flow of the program and ceremonies that were to be held tomorrow. He then walked us back to his house.

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Our photographer Palak who was in Babaji’s face all the while trying to get the right expressions asked Babaji if he was bothered by her constant clicking. Babaji laughed and said, “My dear child, only Sai Baba bothers me. He doesn’t let me eat, drink, rest, sleep, bathe and keeps me on my toes. Only He bothers me and no one else.” Babaji then briefly discussed our stay arrangements, meeting times for tomorrow and asked a couple of trustees to ensure that everything was taken care of in terms of our stay. We then headed back to the accommodation.

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The next day we reached early for the ceremony. It was a truly elaborate affair. Once Babaji, along with Mohanji, reached the venue, the ceremony started with the team of priests invoking Lord Ganesha for his blessings. The ceremony started with an elaborate yagna (sacred fire ritual) where different kinds of offerings were made to the various deities to the chanting of vedic mantras. Several priests sat around the sacrificial fire chanting mantras in unison as other priests prepared and placed the offerings into the fire. The poojas and homas included Sri Ganapathy Homa, Sri Mahalakshmi pooja, Sri Maha Mrityunjaya Homa, Sri Maha Sudarshana Homa, Sri Jayadurga pooja, and Sri Navagraha Shanthi Homa. While these homas were conducted, a leading singer also performed bhajans for the audience and raised the feeling of devotion among all present.This went on for a few hours.

This was followed by worshipping the cow as a representation of the Eternal Mother. Most human beings are brought up by being breastfed by their mother followed by cow’s milk. Hence, the cow takes up the role in most of our lives. Moreover, the cow is probably the only animal that releases no toxins. Its urine is used in a host of preparations in Ayurveda and it’s dung serves as a disinfectant and insect repellant. In most villages in India, the floor of the house and the porch is smeared with cow dung. Further, Mohanji mentioned that the cow was kept in most traditional Indian houses in the past because it kept negative elements at bay and prevented them from entering the house. Hence, the cow is worshiped as an embodiment of the Eternal Mother in most rituals. A cow and its calf were brought over for the occasion. Mohanji and Babaji fed the cow and its calf with their own hands. They first fed it bananas and then the food that was cooked for the occasion. The Masters then performed kanya puja – worshipping nine girls representing Navadurga (the nine forms of Goddess Durga). This pooja is symbolic of worshipping the Divine Mother, the pure basic creative force of nature. The young girls symbolize purity and innocence, the overriding characteristics of the Divine Mother. The Masters symbolically washed their feet, garlanded them, gave them gifts and adornments and took their blessings.

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After these ceremonies were completed, Swamiji and Mohanji then proceeded to perform the stone laying ceremony. The place where the foundation stone was supposed to be laid was a short distance away from where the stage was setup. Babaji and Mohanji and some of the trustees went in a golf cart, with us surrounding them to prevent devotees from approaching them for blessings, requests, etc. At a chosen spot, a deep pit had been dug for this purpose. Once we reached there, Babaji himself stepped into the pit that was set up and the foundation stone laying ceremony began. Swamiji  sanctified it with the offerings from the kalashes (urns), and then placed bricks which had been purified from the homas and poojas done earlier. Babaji placed the yantras and all the sacred objects in the pit in the right locations and facing the right directions. The foundation stone was placed on the exact spot. It was covered by all the sacrificial offerings and ingredients. Finally, it was to be covered with udi (sacred ash) from Shirdi. Babaji had got a huge amount of udi from Shirdi but due to some mixup, the organizers misplaced the udi and it did not make it to the site. Babaji was furious and berated them angrily. There was a mad scramble to locate udi among the people that had congregated around the pit. Surprisingly, not one person had a single packet. Just at that moment, there was a person who suddenly appeared behind Mohanji and immediately offered us a packet of udi. We handed it to Mohanji and he handed it to Babaji. Babaji placed it on the stone and then covered it up with other sacred ash. The bricks were then placed over the foundation stone and the pit was covered.

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Babaji got out of the pit and got into the golf cart with Mohanji. He was livid at the turn of events. He had planned this event to excruciating detail. Hence, a glaring mistake causing the most important thing to be missed out really enraged him. The single packet of udi had averted it but Babaji was still not satisfied. He expected everything to go like clockwork. As we were headed back, one of the attendees tried to get clever and snuck in around the golf cart in the guise of protecting Babaji and quickly moved in to touch his feet and get his blessings. Babaji swung his arm and with his open palm nicely whacked him square on back of the head with a resounding thud and pushed him out. Like they show in the Batman comics. Bam! Pow! The poor guy was spinning around for a while after receiving this heavy prasad (consecrated offering). Must have definitely knocked some of his latent hard-to-erase karma and some sense into him that you can’t force your way with someone like Babaji.

This was followed by the program where the dignitaries were brought on stage and felicitated one by one by Babaji. Through the entire proceedings, Babaji sat next to Mohanji and held his hand most of the time. The dignitaries had quite a few heavyweights – a central cabinet minister, a state cabinet minister, other local political heavyweights, people from the film fraternity and other leading personalities. The trust had done a wonderful job of spreading awareness of the function, with press coverage in leading magazines, and posters and billboards on the route to the venue. There were letters from the governor of the state, the chief minister of the state and the president of the country that conveyed their inability to attend and their best wishes for the event. There were speeches from the main dignitaries. This was followed by an artistic and captivating Bharatanatyam dance program by a noted dancer and his troupe. The dance troupe was felicitated by the dignitaries. There was a detailed talk about the temple project by the trust chairman. Finally, the program concluded with a vote of thanks by the trust chairman and the other trustees followed by a delectable lunch which was consumed as prasad (consecrated offering). The function had over 7000 visitors on the day. All the visitors received blessings from Swamiji and all the other saints on stage. Every visitor partook of food as prasad and returned home, nourished from every perspective. Throughout the function, Swamiji held Mohanji close to him holding his hand wherever possible, a clear sign of his deep love and affection for Mohanji.

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The following day we met at Babaji’s house on the temple land. Barring minor issues, the foundation ceremony went really well. With that out of the way, Babaji looked a lot more relieved. The weight of conducting this ceremony was off his shoulders. He had been tirelessly working nonstop for a long time to plan every little detail to ensure its smooth functioning and execution. Babaji told Mohanji that he was revising and expanding the trust and he had asked Sai Baba to decide on his behalf. He had placed chits with the names of all the people INCLUDING himself in front of Sai Baba. The first chit that came up had his own name. The second one had Mohanji’s name. And then the others. So he said that Mohanji had to be one of the trustees along with him. Mohanji told Babaji that he would not be able to perform his duties properly since he was out of the country most of the time. Since these were Sai Baba’s wishes, Babaji insisted that Mohanji be part of the trust and, keeping in mind the issues, asked him to be the chief advisor of the trust. To honor Sai Baba and Babaji’s wishes, Mohanji agreed without further discussion.

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As per Sai Baba’s instructions, Babaji’s Samadhi place was to be in Sriperumbudur in the same complex as the temple. Mohanji told Babaji and the trust people that the details of Babaji’s samadhi plans must be recorded at the earliest. He even requested Babaji to ensure that it is done without delay.  Out of their love for Babaji, the trustees were emotional about Mohanji’s request and even complained to Babaji that Mohanji had requested them to do it but they knew that Babaji would be with them for a long time, and definitely until the temple was completed. Babaji, at that time, chided them that if Mohanji is asking them to do something, then there must be some significance. They should always keep that in mind and do as he says rather than getting emotional. These words were to soon prove prophetic indeed. Mohanji had also reminded Babaji several times of the need to ensure that his Samadhi instructions had to be recorded by him in the presence of witnesses and recorded on paper so that there was no confusion regarding his preferences. It was a very interesting and objective discussion between the Masters, the morbid nature of the discussion notwithstanding.

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After all the discussions, we took Babaji’s leave and his blessings and then headed to Chennai. One interesting scenario we would face in Chennai or Sriperumbudur was the lion and lamb aspect of Babaji. He was fire when it came to getting Sai Baba’s work done. Yet, anyone coming from Mohanji would be pampered with a lot of love, kindness and respect. Hence, when we would come down to meet him in Chennai or Sriperumbudur, he would enquire very kindly of our travels and if we managed to get there safely. Then he would turn and scream the head off someone standing there for not doing something properly. Then he would turn and ask if we had our food and ask someone to get us something to eat or just coffee. Then again he would turn and scream the crap out of someone else who turned up with some other issue. It would almost happen in lockstep and was very hilarious and unsettling. It did drill unto us the fact that Babaji’s loving treatment of us was extremely special and a blessing that we received only due to our Guru Mohanji’s grace.

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I settled back in Dharamshala after the ceremony and Mohanji was back on his overseas tour. I was in regular touch with Babaji every other week in the beginning and that started to reduce as I got busy with work. One day, I got a call from Madhu early in the morning that Babaji had taken samadhi (Verb – a saint’s conscious exit from the body). Babaji was going through a lot of friction in the temple project and that was causing him much consternation. But, as the temple trust folks said, we thought he would be with us till he built the temple. We just couldn’t believe it. Out of the blue. Just like that. It was a day when I had woken up very late and was feeling lost and listless. I also did not feel like doing any sadhana. Probably a subconscious cognizance of Babaji’s samadhi!

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Mohanji had asked Madhu to head over immediately to help out with the Samadhi preparation. And the obvious issue was what Mohanji had been dreading all along from the earliest – a lack of clear direction from Babaji regarding his Samadhi preferences. Madhu mentioned that there was hardly any clarity on how the Samadhi place would be done. He had been asked by Mohanji to call a few established masters on how to setup the Samadhi in such a situation – the rules, rituals, etc. But he was not able to make much headway and proceeded for Chennai without a clue on how to get this done. Just think about it! You are tasked by your Guru to handle the Samadhi of a Master without having a clue. You do it wrong and you have to contend with an upset Babaji who was no longer constrained in the body and His omnipresent Guru Sai Baba. Without a body, he had innumerable ways to get to you and even more ways to kick your butt. Literally up shit creek on a hope and prayer! And then you have to contend with your own Guru who sent you there. Anyways, all kudos to Madhu for handling and tiding over the situation perfectly. By nightfall, things had fallen in place and with the Guru Mandala’s grace, the right people showed up to ensure that Babaji’s Samadhi place would be well prepared for his dispensation ahead. You can read about it in Madhu’s experience sharing in the book on Babaji, The Boy who Walked with Sai Baba. (People who are interested in buying a copy of the book please email the publisher Gurulight at info@gurulight.com)

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Mohanji asked me to head over to Chennai to help Madhu. By the time I figured out that I was supposed to go to Chennai, it was too late to catch the last flight (which was leaving early afternoon) out of Dharamshala. The only option I had was to wait till the evening to take an overnight bus ride to Delhi, catch the morning flight the next day to reach Chennai and then drive down from Chennai to Sriperumbudur. As the evening progressed, things started falling into place and it turned out that the function would start on time early in the morning. And I realized that there was every chance that the Samadhi function would be well over by the time I reached! I am not an outwardly emotional person by nature ( I hide my emotions quite well), yet the tinge of sadness I felt couldn’t be washed it away.

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To add to it, the fact that I would not be able to see Babaji before it was over made it worse. I was praying that through some major quirk of fate, things would get delayed and I would get a chance to be part of the proceedings. I was praying for obstacles to delay the Master’s Samadhi function propelled by the desire to see the body of a Master who had dropped it to be present everywhere in Consciousness. How egotistically weird can that thought be? The ego attempts to feel self-important even in circumstances like these. I have been sent to help over so I must be important and I have an important role to play. Then you realize there is no role to play, which can be emasculating. And then the ego feels I must be important since I got to be part of the proceedings. And even that is not to be. So even more emasculating. The ego attempts its flights of fancy in the oddest of places and circumstances.

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The whole ride was punctuated by moments of sadness, the hope against hope to get there on time to get a glimpse of Babaji and more sadness on realizing the logistical improbability of that occurrence. When I finally reached the temple premises, I saw everyone standing at the Babaji’s Samadhi doing the final aarati to the Samadhi. I rushed to the spot just in the nick of time as they were chanting the final verses. It went down to the wire and I got to register my token presence to the event. Just before the curtain drew to a close. The same way Babaji entered our lives – just before his final bell was being rung.

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It finally dawned on me that Mohanji in his compassionate grace allowed me to be present on the occasion given my connection with Babaji. There was neither any role for me to play nor any higher purpose for me to serve. Mohanji graced us to connect to a Master like Babaji and the resulting grace flowing from Babaji to us was, in reality, the outpouring of grace from Mohanji himself. It is the leela of the one light of Consciousness that shows the illusion of being diffracted to many different hues to suit the temperaments of the duality stricken mind.

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Interestingly, as I am finishing this piece, I realize that it’s been exactly a year to date when Babaji took samadhi. Babaji may have left the body but his indomitable spirit is still ever present in this world (and beyond). We had a vivid experience of this fact when we paid a visit to his Samadhi December last year, a day before his birthday (December 19th). Out of his love for Babaji and his commitment for Babaji’s temple project, Mohanji had given a week out of his extremely busy schedule to the Shri Dattatreya Siva Sai Trust to use for fundraising/promotion, meeting luminaries, garnering attention for the temple project, etc. In short, for the trust to use it as they saw fit to help with the temple project. It was decided to coincide it with his birthday. An elaborate function had been planned on the eve of his birthday that included the release of the book, The Boy who Walked with Sai Baba. The book is a compilation of experiences by people who were acquainted with Babaji through his more than a century of existence on earth.

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There were a bunch of people from various parts of the world who congregated in Chennai to be part of Mohanji’s travelling ‘circus’! Amongst them were the saintly kirtanwallahs – the Ramsells (Natesh and Monnie). Mohanji had asked Natesh to record a ditty for the occasion based on Babaji’s favorite mantra “Om Shri Sai Sharanam mama” (I seek refuge in Sai) and sing it at the birthday function. A day before the function, Mohanji and our group went to Babaji’s Samadhi to seek his blessings and to dedicate the book at his feet before the function. There was a peculiar tiny bird that hovered around us the whole time we were there, following us from Babaji’s kutir to the samadhi. Mohanji placed the offerings and the book on Babaji’s Samadhi and asked Natesh to sing his newly composed number to Babaji at the Samadhi. As Natesh and Monnie sang the beautiful number, a herd of cows grazing in the field came very close to us and stopped at the ditch that separated us and ‘listened’ to the chant. Indeed, as soon as they stopped chanting, the herd went back from whence they had come, going single file like a procession. It was as if they came just to listen to the song.

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When the song ended, Madhu noticed that a strong scent of roses was emanating from the Samadhi. He remembered that they had put in a lot of rose water in the Samadhi when they interred Babaji’s body. However, bear in mind that the Samadhi structure was completely encased in concrete and there is no chance that the smell of rose could come from within the Samadhi. It was Babaji’s way of indicating his acceptance of the offerings, the book and the song. It is similar to the smell of vibhuti that signifies the presence of Sai Baba or the smell of chandan that signifies the presence of Mohanji. For some, the smell lingered all the way to within his kutir as well (which is a good 200-300 meters away from the Samadhi). Maybe an eye opener for those who ever doubted Babaji’s living presence beyond death and for the rest an indication that he is ever present with us even in the beyond – even more so after his samadhi than while living.

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The temple project that Babaji started is also a living indication of his guiding presence from the beyond. It is also moving ahead at a steady clip with his grace and that of his Guru, the great Master Shirdi Sai Baba. The Shri Dattatreya Siva Sai Trust has been slowly but steadily moving to accomplish Babaji’s vision. Annadaan (food donation) that was so dear to Shirdi Sai Baba is happening on a regular basis in the premises. Babaji’s samadhi mandir and the meditation hall have been built and the Sai Baba idol will soon be consecrated and installed in the temple premises. Babaji is working through the trustees to construct the temple premises and through gracious devotees to support the noble cause with their contributions.

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Mohanji had sent across a beautiful idol of Lord Hanumanji for the temple project. It came in a day before Babaji’s samadhi day. He had also arranged for a life size idol of Shirdi Sai Baba to be delivered to the temple. That arrived a couple of days before Babaji’s samadhi day. The trustees welcomed Shirdi Sai Baba to the temple by doing a mahabhishekham (a ritual bathing of the idol) followed by clothing and accessorizing him and decorating the idol followed by a puja (worship) of the idol. The Lord Hanumanji was similarly welcomed. It is an amazing coincidence that both idols came just in time right before Babaji’s samadhi day and were worshipped on that day. It was like Babaji’sa acceptance of Mohanji’s gifts with love.

Finally, Babaji lives within us by being a living example of the teachings of Sai Baba – shraddha (trust) and saboori (patience). In reality, Babaji never existed or existed just as an outer form – inside there was only Shirdi Sai Baba. Every thought was Sai Baba, every word spoken was for Sai Baba, every action done was for Sai Baba. He taught us absolute devotion to the Guru through his total self-effacement by always dedicating every success as a showcase of the prowess of his Guru. There was never a word about himself. Through his nothingness, he showed that he was all-powerful since his Guru had limitless power. Time and time again, he demonstrated his unshakeable trust in the power of his Guru to overcome all odds. There was never an iota of doubt or ego. He completely accepted all circumstances as the gift from the Guru without any complaints – not by preaching but by precept. He had a single-minded focus on his purpose – to spread more awareness about his Guru and to further the teachings of his Guru.

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On the eve of his birthday, I wish Babaji a wonderful birthday 🙂 and prostrate humbly at his feet seeking his blessings that we may one day become like him in this very lifetime. Also, my infinite prostrations to Bramarishi Mohanji for the wonderful gift of his divine presence in our lives and for kicking our butts on the ultimate path of liberation.

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P.S: Those who would like to experience a slice of Babaji can visit his Samadhi in Sriperumbudur. You can also make a pilgrimage to the Room #3 on the first floor of the Sai Balaji Guest House in Shirdi where Babaji mostly stayed when he was in Shirdi.

P.P.S: People who are interested in buying a copy of the book on Babaji, “The Boy who walked with Sai Baba” can email the publisher Gurulight at info@gurulight.com

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