By Mohana BhaktiPriya
My humble pranaams at his lotus feet.
To write anything about Shri BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI will be just like lighting a matchstick before the mighty Sun. All the grace and the love he showers on us so silently cannot be put into mere words. However, I will make a small effort to do that with his grace. In this context, the use of the word “I” is just a grammatical necessity. Otherwise, it’s all HIM. My Praana (life force), my Shakti (energy), and my Aatma(soul). Before narrating the blissful experiences with Baba (as I affectionately call Mohanji) I would like to talk about some of my experiences from my childhood till date that have paved the way for a beautiful and divine connection with Mohanji.
Advent of Masters in My Life
When I was a mere 13-year-old, I was graced with the opportunity of reading the world famous Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramahansa Yogananda in my mother tongue Telugu. I enjoyed the book very much except for the technicalities of Kriya Yoga which were nonunderstandable at that age. I could understand the longing of Shri Yogananda for the Lord Supreme and his Guru. It was like I was present there with him in all his experiences. And the truth that God or Sadguru is the only permanent companion who loves you unconditionally and stays with you forever even after many lifetimes, was etched deep in my mind. I read and re-read the book many times all through these years. Every time I read it, I felt immense bliss.
Years passed by, and when I was doing my postgraduation, I got deeply connected to Shri Shirdi Sai Baba through one of my friends. When I first visited Shirdi and had the divine darshan of Shri Sai Baba, I felt I had reached home at last. Tears were flowing incessantly by just looking at the statue of Shri Sai Baba. It became very painful for me to leave Shirdi and Baba. After that, I read the Sai Satcharitra and it made my connection with Shri Sai more deeper.
After my marriage, I experienced Sai’s grace at every step, though it was a big cleansing process. My parents are very spiritually inclined, non-orthodox and easy going and it was my father who introduced me to the Autobiography of a Yogi. It was a sea change for me after marriage, as the family I married into was very orthodox, ritualistic and didn’t believe in Sadgurus. But Shri Sai Baba was always with me, taking care of me. I had to go through many trials and tribulations, but he was there all the time, whether be it my very painful abortion at six months of pregnancy, and the depression following it or the more tension-filled pregnancy delivery of my first child and many other problems.
When my older son was three, we were transferred to Omkareshwar (in Madhya Pradesh) where the famous Omkareshwar Jyotirling is located.
After a couple of months, we went to visit Shree Mahakaleshwar Jyotirling in Ujjain. I had just a brief darshan of Lord Shiva. Till then I didn’t know much about Lord Shiva. But after his darshan in Ujjain, an intense longing to know more developed. On the internet, I read the real meaning of the Mrityunjaya mantra and then I just chanted and chanted it unknowingly all the time. I experienced a deep peace while chanting. I was with the mantra all the time I was doing my household chores. After some days I had the opportunity to listen to the audio of Shiva Mahapuran by Shri Chaganti Koteswara Rao. He very lovingly explained how Shiva melts for the bhakti of his devotees and I melted into Shiva Bhakti completely after listening to all 108 episodes. Tears of joy were drenching me fully. All these divine moments I experienced, could only share everything with my parents and my brother, who were very happy for me. My second son was born with Lord Shiva’s blessings after a year and we named my little one Sri Omkaar.
At this time I also got connected to Shri Paada Shri Vallabha, the first avatar of Lord Dattatreya. I read about him in the Guru Charitra many years ago, but the real connection started when I read his biography, Sri Paada Vallabha Charitaamrutam.
The book revealed so many things and I got to know later, that he arrived to hold my hand to lead me to my beloved Master. (This I understood after I got connected to MOHANJI).
My Connection with Sri Mohanji
We moved to Faridabad (near Delhi) after spending four years in Omkareshwar. And after a mere six months, I got to know about my beloved master Shri Mohanji. I always read the abridged version of Shri Paada Vallabha Charitamrutam online before going to bed. It had been a practice for the past two years. While I was reading in October 2015, the mention of Shri Mahaavtar Babaji caught my eye. I had read about Babaji in the book Autobiography of a Yogi” and was always fascinated by his mystic divine persona. But this time I wanted to know more about him. I searched online and I came across Mohanji’s blog on Mahaavtar Babaji titled ‘Babaji Beyond Definitions’. After a couple of days, I dreamt (it was an astral experience, as later explained by Mohanji) that I was undergoing a self -realisation experience: I could see everything in me, the whole universe. I knew Babaji was there, but couldn’t see him in his physical form. After the dream ended, I was wide awake and was overwhelmed and filled with gratitude and bliss for the whole experience. I prayed to Babaji that he comes to me in his physical form and guides me through my life. He was listening. He sent Mohanji.
I was just totally drawn towards Mohanji after this. I continually read his blogs and the devotees’ experiences. And was filled with so much joy that at last, I found my Sadguru in a physical form. I never expected that so much grace will be bestowed upon me. Again, I shared all these things only to my brother and parents as they could understand what I was experiencing. Love and devotion for Mohanji were increasing day by day.
I wanted to meet him at least once in my lifetime. I got to know from an experience of a devotee from the blog, that he is on Facebook and I messaged him. He responded after a few days and blessed me. That was a boon to me. I couldn’t believe it was all happening. In December it was my birthday and the best birthday I ever had. I got his divine blessings when I informed him on Messenger. I was just connected to him almost the whole time. I could see his image even after I closed my eyes. When I watched one of his videos for the first time, tears flowed incessantly. I felt like I met a lost parent after many lifetimes. Slowly his grace was showing in my day-to-day life too. I felt very happy and blissful. I was so eager to meet him in person. In February 2016, I tried to meet him but wasn’t able to attend the Satsang. My heart bled that day. That night he (his energy in the form of vibrations in my body) consoled me and I had my first astral Shaktipath from him. I was so blessed that when I couldn’t reach him, he himself came to me. From then onwards his energy started speaking to me occasionally. He was taking care of me like a mother does with a small baby. My gratitude towards him took the form of a verse and I wrote my first poem for his birthday. My initial experiences with him and the poem are posted on the experience blog ‘Mohansuniverse’ named ‘Guru Saakshaat Parabrahma’ in Feb 2016.
By his grace, my connection grew deeper and I started writing poems in Hindi and in Telugu continuously and shared them with him. To my surprise, he liked them and asked me to share them Facebook. First I was reluctant but agreed to do so as Baba himself asked me to. A couple of months later Baba shared a video on Facebook made by a devotee. I was just fascinated by this new mode of expressing love for him. I thought I should try it once. And I made a video that was much appreciated and can be seen on https://youtu.be/ybLu4ljzpuM Making videos looked more interesting to me than writing poems and I was graced with many opportunities to make simple, devotional videos on Baba.
I missed another opportunity to meet him in the March of 2016 and I wondered if I could ever meet him. But through consciousness, I was getting connected to him more deeply, almost 24*7. He patiently and lovingly replied to my messages and then in August 2016, when he returned from Kailash he stopped using Facebook. It was a big blow for me because I felt I couldn’t talk to him now. I couldn’t share my poems and videos with him directly. I was sad and a bit depressed when his energy started speaking to me and consoled me. This was more beautiful than speaking to him via Facebook – he was always online. After this experience, I made one more video on him which is my favorite and Baba loved it too. This can be found at https://youtu.be/lwP9X67OnsM
Soon I longed for the company of people who were connected to Baba. And though the Mohanji Whatsapp group I met Jyoti Bahl. Baba gave me what I needed. A dear friend and an accomplice in making future videos. Baba has very grand plans for everyone and they get revealed in their own time. I got also connected to Palak Mehta, another more loving soul and I soon made two videos on Mohanji’s 18 lessons and Mohanji’s quotes on animals. Baba knows that I was not a professional but he chose me to do this beautiful work. He encouraged me always even though I didn’t have the requisite acumen.
The Transformation after Baba’s Arrival
I am not an ambitious or career oriented person. (even though I am a postgraduate in Statistics and was a very bright student). I am content with my household chores and my kids, and I have been often (subtly) criticised by my family for this which led to low self-esteem. But now, Baba has given me fresh life with many ways to be involved in his work.
I do all Baba’s work after my household chores are complete and after taking care of my family. I always work at night after my little one is asleep. Baba gives me the energy to do all my day jobs and also for his work. So, in short, it’s him doing all the work through me. He has removed Tamas from my system altogether. Now I always look forward to doing any form of service to him whenever I am free from my family chores (actually it’s a big service to myself as I enjoy a lot doing Mohanji’s work).
I was always a loner with a few good friends who are in touch with me still. After Baba came into my life, I felt I must also have people connected to him as my friends. It took almost a year for that wish to fructify. He gave me a wonderful, supportive and loving family, the Mohanji family. I know only a few of them but I value them and their friendship a lot. Palak Mehta, Jyoti Bahl, DB ji, Sanjay Bhaiya, Rajesh Bhaiya, Taayiji and ShubhaAmma. All of them are very supportive, loving, caring and sharing. I thank Baba from the bottom of my heart for gracing me with such friends.
I am not a happy-go-lucky person, I don’t talk much, am very sensitive, very emotional, short-tempered and have lots of other drawbacks. In spite of all this, Baba loved me unconditionally, cared for me and supported me every moment. He let me be myself. He let me enjoy myself with all these drawbacks. He made me laugh at my mistakes, enjoy fully my small accomplishments like a child. He was slowly transforming me to accept myself as I am, which I could never do my whole life. Now, I enjoy myself, am happy being alone, am happy being emotional, am happy being sensitive. In fact, he transformed all these drawbacks into intense devotion for him. I cherished being in his consciousness always. That needs a person to be silent. I longed for his presence only, for that I should be alone. And I felt his overwhelming and unconditional love every moment, for that one has to be sensitive. And my intensely emotional nature was transformed to an unfailing faith and devotion for him. By his grace, and only by his grace, I connect to him so deeply. I’ve never longed for anything or shed so many tears of gratitude and love for any other person.
He is always with me. And he makes me feel his presence always. Whether I am working in my kitchen, taking care of my kids and family, or doing his work. He even watches movies with me ( a very rare thing that I do) and enjoys them too. He enjoys the peppy dance numbers that are played on the TV or when I get to listen to them. He listens to the devotional songs with me (which I always do) and likes them a lot. I sing a lot of bhajans whenever I am alone and I know that loves them, despite me being a very bad singer. He even accompanies me to my children’s school functions. He enjoys their performances and he likes the National Anthem a lot when it is played at the end. He accompanies me to the grocery store too and suggests a better product to buy. His presence is always felt by me by the intense and sweet vibrations usually on my head or hands and feet. Even he scolds me using this procedure. Whenever I am doing something nonsensical or something that he doesn’t want me to do he warns me with a sharp piercing pain in my toe. My third eye is vibrating almost all the time and this also indicates his presence. Whenever I am making any videos for him or just trying to chant one of his mantras at night sometimes I fall asleep as I feel tired. The next moment he gives a sharp nudge on my elbow and wakes me up or either lifts my hand up and drops it down gently. At first, I thought I was imagining, but later I understood it was his doing. He always makes sure that I complete my work before going to sleep.
Gratitude for what I have already and for what Baba’s grace showers on me has grown tremendously. The moments when I do my daily prayers and offer food to all the five deities thrice a day are the most gratitude-filled moments of my life. My prayers are always without any rituals, except for lighting a lamp before him and an incense stick. Apart from that, I sing some of my favorite bhajans with so much bhaav, that it becomes difficult for me to come out of that bliss and continue with my other daily chores. I always feel that I am at his lotus feet and offering my prayers before him. It doesn’t require any effort to connect with him blissfully but it requires great effort to concentrate on other mundane things of life. He let me taste the celestial nectar of devotion. Now that I have tasted it, my whole being always craves for the moments of stillness and bliss. It’s only his grace that I am able to experience such effortless and intense devotion towards him.
Meal times are another favorite of mine. I normally eat alone as, by the time I have finished feeding Omakar, the family has finished their meal. In the initial stages of my connection with Baba, I offered food to all five deities as suggested by him. With time I could experience Baba actually accepting my offering through the subtle sensations in my body. And when I say thank you for all that he has blessed me with, my eyes fill with tears. It still amazes me. Since I eat alone no one else has noticed it till now.
Baba always makes sure that I have ample space and time to connect with him blissfully. Being in his consciousness all the time has reduced the need to express myself, and to come out of the silence requires a lot of effort. This has made me more aloof and I have had to face some negativity from others due to this. They don’t affect me much as Baba takes care of everything. And he sometimes subtly suggests that I need not be alone to experience this connection. These days he converses with me even though people are present around me and when I am speaking to someone else. I am very grateful to Baba, for his grace.
Baba takes care of my family too. Omkar is also very connected to Mohanji. He loves him a lot and always kisses Baba’s pictures. Once when he was very ill I just assured him that Sai Baba and MOHANJI will take care of him and make him healthy again. He believed it. And he said that in his sleep he met Sai Baba and Mohanji and when he woke up he was smiling with joy and the illness was gone. I was speechless with gratitude. After this incident, Omkar meets Baba occasionally in his sleep. Omkar likes the Mohanji aarti a lot and often drifts to sleep only after listening to it. I can definitely say that Omkaar is a blessed soul.
My Astral Experiences
From the first day that I connected with Baba, I have had very beautiful and amazing astral experiences. Two days after I read his blog on Mahaavtar Babaji, I got the self-realization experience as the first astral experience. After two days I experienced, that my Ajna chakra was rotating and my whole body was experiencing a kind of energy rush. At that time I didn’t know anything about Chakras.Within a week I experienced it again. And the most blissful experience after that was, I met Shri SaiBaba at Shirdi and he very lovingly sat near me and spoke to me for a long time, but I can’t remember a word of what he spoke.
As days passed, Mohanji regularly met me astrally. I could actually sense very clearly my subtle body leaving me (I felt some energy inside me being pulled from my head and I am out of this body), and traveling (sometimes flying like a bird) along with Baba to so many places. I always had a chance to see him work in many places other than this earth. As an intergalactic Master, he has so many beings to take care of who are suffering terribly because of the negative forces and many of the poor beings love him a lot. My most favorite astral experience is the one below.
Just like a sci-fi movie, I was in a some highly advanced type of metro train with Baba which could travel in thin air. The view from the train was very beautiful with colonies illuminated with colorful lights just suspended in space and we were going past enjoying the scenic panorama. Just then Baba had to attend to someone and I was alone. There came one person(looked somewhat like a human) and started chatting with me. He was a very troubled soul and was discussing with me all the negativity of their world. By what I could understand, there is conceit, deceit, all the negativities (which we experience) in other worlds too. The experience ended there. Or, I could remember only that much. I always wonder why he takes me (who doesn’t even know how to efficiently handle my own life) to places, where I do also get involved in the circumstances and try to help. And many of them are very tense situations like the one, where a group of people was being chased by extremely dangerous negative forces and Baba was protecting them. While I couldn’t witness the real fight as Baba sent me back home saying, bedtime enough of adventures. While I was about to come into my body, a very beautiful divine face (he looked almost like Lord Shiva) with a white light in the background, was looking at me with so much love and concern. I can still remember his expression very clearly even though it’s almost two years since I had this experience.
My most recent experience was one where Baba was traveling in a train with so many people. I was waiting for him at the station. I don’t know how, but I sensed that an accident was about to occur to the train in which Baba was traveling. I panicked and somehow changed the direction of the track and the train was safe. After seeing Baba alighting from the train, I rushed to him and fell at his feet with an overwhelming feeling of relief and joy at him being safe. He smiled at me and said, “So everything was going on LIVE to you”. That’s where it ended. My koti koti pranaams at his Lotus feet.
Almost all of my above experiences were graced upon me before I met Baba in person. I was just anxiously waiting to meet my GOD in human form. It took almost more than a year of waiting and an intense tapas for this to happen. As far as my limited understanding goes, he tested my patience and the depth of my devotion. In December 2016, I was planning to go to meet my parents after a gap of almost 18 months. But I had to meet Baba too. I knew he comes and stays in Delhi for some days. When I enquired, DB ji told me that Baba may come to Delhi. I didn’t want to miss this chance of meeting Baba. He encouraged me to go to my parents when I asked for his advice through consciousness. But I decided to wait for him and I canceled going home.
Baba melts as easily just as Bholenath. On Jan23rd 2017, I got to meet him at Taayiji s house. One week before this he graced my parents with a wonderful darshan at Bangalore. My parents even had lunch with him sitting on the same table with him, which according to me is a blessing beyond my imagination.
My first meeting with him was very wonderful. I had a chance to show him the Ashtottari video done by me. He never forgets our wishes and fulfills them all, however petty they might be.
After this meeting, I met him thrice and when I went to meet my parents I also had an opportunity to meet another great master Avadhoota Naadanandaji in Kurnool which was also a dream come true.
Sadguru is Lord of Lords
“If you think of God or Guru, it’s only by his grace.”
It’s only because of the grace of all the masters in my life that I could understand the fact the Sadguru is more than God. And my endless gratitude to the creator that, I could experience this beautiful truth through Mohanji who is for me the Lord of lords.
All the blissful experiences I ve had of Baba was just because of a sincere connection to his consciousness. Connection to his consciousness gives you everything. I never meditated the divine meditations (PoP, 360degrees, Bliss of Silence, etc) he had given to this world (Till now I feel I can’t sit in meditation for long). I never even chanted his mantra a whole 108 times, I never did any other Sadhana. By his divine grace I just connected to him just as a baby always longs for it’s mother. I did nothing else. In fact I can’t do any other Sadhana. There might be a lot of past life connection with him, otherwise I couldn’t feel such a beautiful feeling of devotion towards him. Whatever it may be, just connecting to Mohanji’s consciousness gives everything. I experienced it by his grace. The whole point of writing down these experiences was to relive them myself (and I did it, and was in tears with gratitude towards Baba) and also to let Others know, how unconditionally he gives to everyone, and how he showers grace silently on every being (however insignificant it might be) he is connected to. There might be so many other things he must be doing to me which are beyond my comprehension such as clearing the mountains and mountains of my past lives Karma. And some which had to be gone through, he might be taking on himself silently and there by suffering so much physically. Not even Gods go through so much pain to elevate their devotees. It’s just a Sadguru’s unconditional love. Every second of their life is lived for others, ignoring all the sufferings in the noble path.
I would like to end this beautiful journey with a couple of stanzas from the Guru Sotram which I love to recite daily. And the translation is as per my understanding.
Na Guro radhikam tatwam,
(There is no other great philosophy , other than getting to know about your Guru)
Na Guro radhikam tapaha
(There is no other penance higher than connecting to your Guru)
Tattwa gnanaam Param naasti
(There is no other knowledge which is higher than the Guru)
Tasmayi Sree Gurave Namaha..
(I bow to thee, my Master)
Guru raadi anaadishcha,
(Guru in the form of guruprinciple has been there since time immemorial)
Guru Parama daivatam,
(Guru is Lord of Lords)
Guro para taram naasti,
(There is no other one as noble as a Guru)
Tasmyi Sree Gurave Namaha.
(I bow to thee… My Gurudev)
Everything at your lotus feet… My Gurudev…
Endless love and Gratitude…
Thank you for everything.
Jai Brahmarishi Mohanji!