On 20th November 2020 – I had penned down thoughts on Facebook – ‘When you are on the path of truth and light, people trying to silence you is only a test. Naturally, the universe provides another avenue. The universe always listens. Power of pure intention! Stay positive and hold on to hope. Naïve, I had no idea the gravity of this statement and the possibility of my life changing.
How did this statement arise? Let me take you back to 2019 when I started to find that I was detaching from the Foundation I was associated with. I was starting to understand the unity of the Guru Mandala. I felt like all Masters are One. I found myself letting go of the Outer Guru and started focusing on the Inner Guru. As this occurred, I started to let go of seva roles associated with the Foundation. And when the living Master came to my doorstep, I was physically unable to attend his program.
On an occasion in 2020, I found myself in a situation where I was being silenced by members of that Foundation. I was disgruntled. I was already looking inward, and this was the final push to cut ties. Hindsight shows that I wasn’t being silenced, but I was, in fact, guided towards silence, and I was taught to stand by my truth. Standing up for my truth didn’t mean that I had to argue with anyone. It just meant trusting myself.
However, with everything that happened, I was deeply hurt, and I started to believe that the Master’s teachings were separate from the Foundation (disciple-led). I didn’t want to ever belong to any Foundation again. Truth be told, my time was up there, and I was no longer aligned with that frequency.
During that time in 2020, NellyAnne directed me towards Devi’s podcast. Devi gave me hope. She gave me a glimpse into her life, empowering me to ask more from my life. I was tired of my mundane life. I deserved better. Somehow, I thought that I could do this with my own practices. The presence of various Kaliyug Datta Avatars was coming to my awareness, and in particular, I started connecting to Sripada SriVallabha.
It was May 2022, and my friend Jumri excitedly told me about Mohanji’s upcoming visit. When she asked me to come with her, I couldn’t say no. There was no hesitation. There was no doubt. I just had to go. I met Mohanji on 15th June 2022 in the beautiful Skanda Vale Ashram in Wales. He acknowledged my presence from the very first meeting. And this wasn’t just my experience; everyone I know had the same experience. He takes the time for each and every person. It’s his sheer kindness acknowledging every person who comes to him who wants to be in his presence.
During this trip, while conducting a Satsang, Mohanji mentioned Sripada and having recorded the Siddha Mangal Stotra. I was gobsmacked. Mohanji was talking about the Stotra I had grown to love. I was fervently asking around for this chant in Mohanji’s voice, but no one knew what I was talking about, and no one heard Mohanji talking about Sripada in the Satsang. Mohanji was, of course, up to his usual mischief, drawing me in.
Attending the June 2022 Retreat in St Albans, UK, I couldn’t help but be impressed by the sincerity, solidarity and transparency of the UK team. Shyama became my go-to person; she patiently helped me answer many questions, always with a smile on her face. Her gentle nature glows with the epitome of selflessness. Inevitably, I found myself engaging and participating in activities every so often.
In January 2023, I signed up to go to the Divine Trails of Puri. I was dissatisfied with the accommodation; I felt I was being cheated and messaged Subhasree regarding this. I was ready to cancel my trip even if it cost me. I felt I had to stand up for myself and speak my truth. Subhasree called me up and spoke to me. She cleared every single doubt for me with kindness and compassion. I was not being silenced. I was given a choice to reconsider my planned trip.
She is a pure, selfless being who wanted to give the participants the best possible experience as per Mohanji’s direction. I was witnessing Mohanji’s teachings being followed in their entirety! The impression inside me of the Foundation being separate from the Master was firmly wiped clean. For completion, Mohanji ensured the dissolution of this impression as I was invited to join the UK team actively a short while later.
Honestly, I was sceptical of the trip, but I trusted Mohanji, and I walked with his hands onto the divine abode of Jagannath Puri in February 2023. The trip was beyond special. The care, love, and kindness the Mohanji volunteers showed blew me away. This was my introduction to the Mohanji Global Family.
The memory that I must share about this trip involves the visit to Shri Jagannath Temple. Only Hindus are allowed to go into the famous Temple, but as I was menstruating, I couldn’t go. Most participants left to eat dinner or go to the Temple. Somehow, I could do neither, so I went back into the Satsang hall and surprisingly saw Mohanji giving Shaktipat to some people leaving the program early. I sat down and watched him and suddenly started crying in complete admiration, inwardly begging for liberation. I cried to my heart’s content.
When Mohanji was leaving the hall, he was looking the other way as he passed close by me. I didn’t attempt to stand up; I was glued to my chair. Before I knew it, boom, I felt a hand land on my head, blessing me! It was Mohanji’s hand. I couldn’t believe it. I was so surprised. I was in awe. In awe of Mohanji. In awe of the Tradition. What divine, perfect orchestration! I’m so grateful!
Two evenings later, there was no Satsang. And the opportunity to go to Shri Jagannath Temple arose. Miraculously, there was no sign of my period that day, even though it was my third day. Temples don’t normally interest me, but being so famous, I thought it was best not to miss the golden opportunity. Boy, was I glad because, 1km perimeter away from the Temple, my heart started to expand multifold, full of light beaming within, and I became acutely aware of the energy of the Temple.
I didn’t feel this before when I did the parikrama from the outside with non-Hindus a couple of days before. I was amazed at this Leela. It was close to 10 pm when we got to the Temple, and the energy was simply ginormous. It was amazing. It was incredible to sit and meditate inside the Temple. I was beaming with an energy unknown to me in this lifetime, yet so familiar, feeling so bright and alive. I am so grateful to Mohanji and the Tradition for giving me such an experience.
There were no signs of my period the next morning, but later that night, I found my period returned. It’s still mind-boggling and scientifically unexplainable. Mohanji took care of everything intricately. What did I do to receive so much love? I’m just so grateful for each and every experience. Only writing it all out has shown me how interconnected these moments were.
It’s funny; for several years, I’ve had all these wishes of being in close proximity to a living Master; I can barely muster the courage to say anything to Mohanji in his physical presence. Embracing his teaching of ‘Be You’, perhaps it will happen soon.
As I looked back on the quote of 20th November 2020, the universe did indeed open new doors for me, so benevolently, if I may say so. I have found my home. I offer my complete gratitude and obeisance to both Mohanji and Devi, who represent Lord Datta and Anagha Laxmi to me. They have changed my life. Thank you to each of the beautiful Mohanji family I have connected with – you have changed my life. May we all merge into the consciousness of whom we love so dearly.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 21st December 2023
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With this blog, I want to share my experience about how Mohanji’s grace through the Mai-Tri Method and volunteering for Mohanji Foundation helped me get a job.
I already had a job in which I was not happy at all. At some point, I even felt like a prisoner there. By the end of my working experience in that place, I had already applied to many places and had some unsuccessful interviews. After one year and a few months of struggling, I decided to resign, and before leaving, close people around me said to wait and not to make hasty decisions without first having another job and not staying jobless. Okay, I said to myself. I would give it a few more days or some time and see how it would go, but I had decided I would resign soon.
After a few days, I got an interview with a company which I really liked. When I got a chance for an interview through the email, I was crying with happiness. Before attending the interview, I called my friend, who is a Mai-Tri practitioner, and told her about the situation and the interview I got. We agreed to do a Mai-Tri Method session before I went to the interview.
In the morning, I got ready to go, and she did a Mai-Tri session for me exactly before I went to the interview. Before I entered there, my heart was beating fast, and I didn’t know what to expect. Before the interview, I had an exam to complete, which I wasn’t prepared for. I didn’t know I would have a physical exam with pen and paper. At that moment, I thought nothing would happen now; my chance was gone because I didn’t answer all the questions.
When they called me for the interview after the exam, I was already disappointed because I thought I had missed my chance, but as the interview started, I saw that they gave me a chance by asking me questions, and I got one more interview on the same day. Usually, the second interview is a few days later. But I got the two interviews on the same day. As the person was interviewing me, he was reading my resume, and I had put on the resume that I did volunteer work for a charity, etc. I had also written that my volunteering work was for Mohanji Foundation.
He kept asking about the volunteer work. The interviewer remained on that part of my resume, and he kept asking more details about it and questions as to why I did it. As I was a young person, they didn’t expect something like that, why, how long, what the feeling of volunteering was, who it was for, and similar questions. While talking, he had a printed paper of the resume and underlined the part where it was written volunteer and charity.
At the end of the interview, he called the other manager and said if you agree, I would like to hire her. They hired me on the spot! I didn’t even wait for some days to pass or wait for an answer. He said one more time before I left, you have some experience but not enough years of experience for us, but still, because of the volunteer and charity work you did, you will get the job.
When the interviewer kept asking me about the part where I wrote about Mohanji Foundation volunteering, it was a clear sign to me that it was Mohanji’s grace that helped me get a better job. When I left there, I was crying from happiness, and I reminded myself to be grateful every day, to spend time in a day just to feel gratitude for everything. This difficult time reminded me to increase my faith and also to have unwavering faith. I have to add here that this job is in another country, not where I am from, and it is very difficult to get into this company and position. It was made possible because of Mohanji’s grace.
When I left the company, I returned to my accommodation and waited for the contract letter. They told me it would take some time for the documentation to come through. Even though I knew that it would take two weeks for the official email, I became anxious. I began to worry that they might change their minds about hiring me, and I became increasingly stressed.
During that time, this thought came to my mind: okay, Mai-Tri healing happened, an obvious sign at the interview happened; at this moment, I need to have faith; I should stop stressing and relax. As I took a breath of faith again, I let my worry go. I can’t worry about something that I can’t control anyway. I relaxed and focused more on faith and trust. After a few days, I got the contract. I felt bad I lost faith at some point, but I took it as a lesson to never lose faith again.
When I finally resigned from my existing job, the company wanted to slow down the resignation process. But the circumstances worked out in my favour. My roommate knew someone from the company, and she assisted in speeding up the resignation process. I was also to pay some amount to the company as I would have been unable to complete my notice period. But miraculously, that was also waived off, which usually is unheard of and never happens in this country.
Also, once I resigned, I had to return to my country – Macedonia, to renew my passport and get a new visa for the country where I would be working. Again, there was a massive hurdle as there are some new rules in Macedonia, which makes it difficult to get a date to renew the passport before the visa process. But again, the whole process happened surprisingly fast, and I got my new passport in a remarkably short time. I learned that some passports of other girls were lost, and the visa process took many months. Apart from all these, I happily attended my sister’s wedding, which was next to impossible. Could all these things happen without grace? There were too many synchronicities.
Amidst this chaos of documentation and renewal of my passport in Macedonia and attending my sister’s wedding, I even got to participate in Mohanji’s programmes in Serbia and spend time with Mohanji, which I never dreamt of at this time of the year! Mohanji’s grace just flowed, removing all obstacles.
Soon, when I reached the new country, during my training, the company offered me accommodation, which is normally shared with someone. I met the person with whom I was likely to share the accommodation. Both of us went through the resumes of others and felt that we would not be able to adjust to others. We realised that we suited each other, which was taken care of without much effort.
I am still amazed they verbally gave me the job opportunity, which is difficult to get only because I volunteered for Mohanji Foundation. Mohanji, Mai-Tri Method and volunteering for Mohanji Foundation helped me get this job. I was surprised the key part of acceptance for the company was volunteering, that itself was a clear sign it was grace and that Mohanji stood behind it.
This does not end here! I also learned from others working in a similar field that it took them two years to get an interview, not even another job in this country, when they resigned. But again, I applied, waited two, three months for an interview and got accepted into a new company. This was unheard of and had never happened before as I had only about a year’s experience while others had more than five years of experience.
As the blog was published, the very next day, I met the interviewer in person, and he told me the main reason was not just volunteering, but he felt incredible positive energy when I walked into the room. He said we want such positive people in our company. We all know who’s that energy is, Mohanji!
One of the tasks during the training was writing a letter to myself on what I would like to achieve and how I would like to be in a year. I had written about things that were important to me, such as being stable, being in a good space and so on. I also added that in a year, my goal was to help others with my salary and engage in volunteer work. The interviewer was surprised when he read that someone as young as me wanted to share my salary with others! Others in my situation had written that they wanted material goods such as a car. This was yet another revelation that the interviewer shared with me!
Yet another interesting thing happened, which the interviewer shared with me three weeks after the initial meeting. I couldn’t believe my ears! There was a HR person who had all the files of all those interviewed. He suddenly asked the manager about the girl who had gone to India to do charity work. He wanted to speed up the hiring process as he wanted people like me in his company. The manager also told me that he wanted people like me who would spread the light and help others. He was using phrases that I have heard Mohanji use! I was shell-shocked and had to pinch myself to believe this. It felt as though Mohanji was speaking through the manager. It was a language that I was familiar with but never used in the corporate world. The icing on the cake was that the manager told me, “Be yourself!”
I could see and feel how Mohanji worked through these people, from the visa and the passport renewal to the interview process! It was a miracle that the entire process happened so quickly, and getting accepted on the spot for the job, which never happens again! All these were huge miracles happening one after the other. The way the people spoke and the language used (Mohanji’s speaking style) confirmed that Mohanji was with me and helped me through the process and each situation.
My gratitude to the Mai-Tri practitioner for the timely Mai-Tri session. My deep love and gratitude to Mohanji for being there for me, not just in my time of need, but always!
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 19th December 2023
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It was the beginning of the first Covid wave in March 2020. I was to battle a crisis in my family during the same period. Shirdi Sai Baba assured me all the time that he was with me and he had never left my hand in any of the crises. I had been a devotee of Shirdi Sai Baba for many years. All that came into my life after he made me aware of his presence – call it mundane or spiritual, always bore his stamp. There was nothing that was really wanted. Yet, in those times of crisis, I needed some clarity on whatever that was happening in my life.
While browsing the internet, I chanced upon a YouTube channel, ‘Sai Baba Devotee Speaks,’ through which a person named Mohanji appeared. The video, though it did not make any particular impression on me, aroused my curiosity in him, which led me to the official website, Mohanji.org. My mind, in its ignorance, took him to be one of those feel-good Gurus who catered, particularly to the Western seekers. You can find many these days.
My mind began creating one barrier after another until I started to read his blogs. Mohanji from the blogs was different from the one in the videos. When I began going through his blogs, one after another, the amazing clarity and the stunning conviction took me over. I was feeling a gut-churning kind of sensation, and a shift was happening in me. One of the blogs was about the sense of ownership and doership.
I could not hold myself any longer and felt that I might get into sobs uncontrollably anytime soon. I just rushed to the bathroom in the house so as not to cause any misunderstanding with the relatives at home and went into uncontrollable sobs. Then, it dawned on me that Shirdi Sai Baba and Mohanji were no different. It has been my experience that whenever I visited Shirdi and came back home, more often than not, I used to get into such uncontrollable sobs. I was converted.
I wanted to explore more and more about Mohanji. As I had less work to do because of the Covid pandemic, this gave me ample time to explore about him. Strangely, in those days, while reading the blogs, the name ‘Mohan’ would crop up in unexpected ways. On the first day of reading, a relative was muttering to himself about a wrong call that he had received and that the name of the person on the phone was ‘Mohan.’
On the second day of reading, another relative was telling someone that a person from the medical lab had come to collect her blood for tests, and she added, even though it was not necessary, that his name was ‘Mohan.’ On the third day, my little daughter came to me and asked me in all her innocence, “Isn’t the name of Gandhiji, Mohandas?”
I had to go for a long trip, 9 hours of driving in those days of the pandemic, and I still remember, throughout the journey, his words that I had heard from the YouTube channels kept hitting me, where they were supposed to hit. I was enamoured of him. Then, as I was getting to know more about him, I began practising the ‘Power of Purity’ meditation that was available online, which affected me strongly.
Initiation into Consciousness Kriya
“Autobiography of a Yogi” was a book which I was aware of but was never curious to read until then. One fine day, when I began reading the book, my interest in Kriya was aroused. I also happened to come across the testimonials of Kriya Yogis – “Journals of Liberation” by Gurulight, at the same time. I was not sure whether I was really meant to receive it in this life or otherwise.
I applied, and I submitted this dilemma to Shirdi Sai Baba. I prayed to him that if it was meant for me, then let the application be accepted; otherwise, let it get rejected. I would be okay with whatever was given. The application was accepted, and I undertook the Kriya training online in April 2020 and then made it a regular practice.
One fine evening, I had done the Kriya and listened to Shiva Kavacham, which was quite powerful. It was then that I heard a bird chirping in the silence of that evening. Strangely, I felt that the bird was within me, and everything around me was within me. At that moment, when I looked at the portrait of Mohanji, something within me strongly felt that he was indeed Shiva.
Then I burst into sobs, and the floodgates were open. I kept telling him and pleading with him that if he allowed me to stay near his feet like a particle of dust, I would be indebted to him forever. It was at that moment that I heard the voice, “I have always loved you, Mahantesh.” That was so overwhelming that it took a while for me to grasp what had happened. All his grace! On the one hand, it was an emphatic reassurance of the past connection, and on the other, it was a reminder that I might have strayed away from the path in my past lives.
In Shirdi
It was destined for me to have Mohanji’s first physical darshan at the Shirdi retreat in December 2021. That was a dream come true, as it was in the same retreat that the Kriya initiation was supposed to be held. The initiation turned out to be a surreal experience in his physical presence. When I sat with closed eyes, I almost lost myself in that magical atmosphere. While waiting for my turn, a volunteer patted my back gently to remind me that it was my turn.
When I went to him, I found him to be in an expanded state. While I kept looking into his eyes, he uttered some words that escaped my attention. The eyes, I felt, were like deep caves and that I could be lost forever if I entered them. The whole atmosphere was charged with gentle energy, and tears kept flowing down my cheeks while a beautiful bhajan sung by Natesh kept playing in the background.
The next day or so, everyone at the retreat was allowed to have individual interaction with him. With that gentle smile of his, he beckoned me to come when it was my turn, and that smile appeared to be something special – a smile of recognition. During the course of the conversation, he looked away for a while, and then his gaze turned towards me. All of a sudden, I felt as though my mind was put in a grinder, and my thoughts were running helter-skelter like popcorn. And it took a few seconds for everything to start settling down peacefully.
I can never forget that first retreat when I was welcomed to be a member of the M-family and allowed to flock with the birds of the same feather. I felt I belonged. I am grateful to Mohanji and the M-family.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 14th December 2023
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The views, opinions, and positions expressed by the authors and those providing comments on these blogs are theirs alone and do not necessarily reflect the views, opinions or positions of Mohanji, Mohanji Foundation, it’s members, employees or any other individual or entity associated with Mohanji or Mohanji Foundation. We make no representations as to accuracy, completeness, timeliness, suitability or validity of any information presented by individual authors and/or commenters on our blogs and will not be liable for any errors, omissions, or delays in this information or any losses, injuries or damages arising from its display or use.
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This is the continuation of my earlier blog, “A dream that transformed me with many messages”, under the title “Guidance through dreams”. I felt like there was no need to write this blog, but while TV news channels were hurling the war scenes at viewers, I felt the urge to write this. I also asked for signs from Mohanji before writing this blog. A couple of days after putting in my sincere intention, I got the signs from Mohanji in the form of recent videos where he talked about the same and highlighted global harmony and peace.
3 years ago, when I read the Power of Purity book’s first chapter, “Signs of time”, I felt its hard-hitting facts and also felt the Master’s power behind the clarity of those words. In the beginning, it felt far-fetched for me to practice non-violence in my thoughts, words and actions, but when I look at myself now, I see great changes in my conscience and constitution. Not to mention, this chapter has become my most favorite chapter in the entire book.
While I was studying for my competitive exams, I had to read a lot of general knowledge (both about national and world affairs). Hence, I had to watch TV news debates. The power of the media is such that it spreads half-truths with conviction through endless debates without reaching any solution, ridiculing other countries’ GDP and taking all kinds of sadistic pleasure in watching people suffer, leaving the minds of the viewers contaminated.
I did not even realize how I ended up developing an appetite for negativity, such as competition and comparison between countries, etc. This was not so early on. I also developed fear and hate towards other countries and took pride in my country’s arsenal as well. I also felt my thoughts and feelings were in alignment with the truth. I was totally unaware of it, and without me even asking or meeting Mohanji in person, he made me go through a powerful astral experience that shook me and transformed me at the same time, leaving my heart and soul pure. The blog is here. https://mohanjichronicles.com/2021/01/03/guidance-through-dreams/
Since that astral experience, 3 wars happened, and this time, I did not even feel like looking at the visuals. Rather, I only reminded myself of Mohanji’s miracle on me and only prayed for healing, global peace and harmony. Since that experience, I have conscientiously chosen what to feed my mind. Choosing to feed only those things that expand my heart.
Mohanji says, “Constant feeding of violence to our eyes and to our mind makes both of these faculties insensitive. We have become indifferent to other people’s sorrows. We are not used to accepting positive things without questions and doubting. We are used to accepting and storing negative emotions effortlessly. We even crave for it. We even develop a sadistic outlook towards it. An unsettled mind unsettles society. Collective unsettlement creates calamities. So, the birth of the war happens in the mind. Sadistic thoughts must be replaced with higher awareness of our existence”.
With my personal transformation & experience, I can feel that people in power and the media people can fool innocent minds, but they cannot fool Masters. Masters know every person inside out and their intentions as well. Recently, I also got to know a lot about Shambala and its beings, how this place is unaffected by all 4 yugas, and how they silently carry out the work for the welfare of humanity and the beings of the whole earth. When people choose light and peace, the supreme light stands behind such people, protecting and guiding them.
Mohanji says even for information to reach us, we need eligibility. And by his grace, I was exposed to higher truths through various books, which again and again reinforced my faith in supreme light and its powers. Such information from Mohanji increased my awareness level and reinforced my faith in peace & truth. I also understood how not to fall prey to such negativity.
I also came across Mohanji’s quote, which says, “Remember, if you talk about your problem once to someone who you think can help you, you are genuinely seeking help. If you are telling many, you are seeking attention, not help or solution. Be aware”. This helped me a lot in discerning right from wrong and gave me enough understanding of how the media is seeking attention from people and not finding genuine solutions for problems.
They endorse low-frequency emotions like fear and insecurity in people’s minds rather than peace, positivity, and healing. If a person comes forth to promote peace, positivity and healing, they are even labelled as anti-national or traitors, leaving no room for peace to flourish.
On the other hand, when I read many testimonials by Mai-Tri practitioners and the recipients of this technique, I realized how traumas like wars or any such negative experiences leave impressions like extreme fear and anger on the souls of victims, which drag them life after life manifesting disease, lack of abundance, lack of peace and positivity unless powerful Masters like Mohanji step in to purge all wounds from such people’s causal layer. It is gut-wrenching to listen to such stories.
For me, learnings are: Practicing peace and positivity not only beautifies our life but makes our astral body and soul purer, making the whole being lighter and lighter, for Mohanji says lightness is our nature. I have also seen people who love to promote and contribute to positivity, but they lack courage and faith because they do not have strong recourse like Mohanji in their lives. Since I have him, on behalf of such peace-loving people, I can speak my truth and spread hope.
Mohanji also says, “If we are passive and not responding, we are participating in it. We can talk because many cannot”. Let’s only add value to the world beyond all man-made barriers since this is the dream and mission of every Master that incarnates on planet Earth. Let all of us become peace-loving global citizens and contribute to moving the wheels of the Master’s mission.
I would like to end this blog by sharing Mohanji’s quote, which is close to my heart, “My morality is helping the helpless and, if possible, wiping out helplessness. My morality is a happy world. My morality is ahimsa. I do not believe in any other morality. My religion is humanity. This is my highest morality.”
By Lakshmi Kotagiri, USA
I am so blessed that Jyoti Lal introduced me to the ‘Power of Purity’ meditation. For 15 years, I have been trying to forgive a few people with whom I have been very angry. Theoretically, I knew I had to do this to heal inside out and for my well-being, but I didn’t know how. I read a few books on this topic and tried techniques that were taught. They didn’t help me. I think the correct time had to come. The time came when I met Jyoti, and she introduced me to the ‘Power of Purity’ meditation.
I started this meditation on the same night. I was sleeping during this meditation, and Jyoti assured me it happens to some people and is fine. After 1-2 weeks, I started listening to it consciously and was stuck again at a point where Mohanji mentioned I needed to get blessings from my parents/relatives/friends, etc. But I could not even accept some of them were worthy of blessing me.
Again, I went back to Jyoti, and she clarified that I have to get blessings and forgiveness and also receive forgiveness from my parents/relatives/friends. She mentioned I should not see them as human beings of just this life. I accepted that and was able to move on. That’s when the magic started to happen. During the next several weeks, not just the people I wanted to forgive but several other people whom I hadn’t thought of in the past 20-30-40 years started surfacing, and I kept on asking their blessings/forgiveness, and I, in turn, forgave them and gave blessings.
This process took several weeks and kept on lifting weight from my heart. It’s been 2 months since I completed this process, and I am not angry with anyone right now. In fact, when people around me bother me about something, I feel it’s not worth it to be bothered about. This is such a blessed thing that happened to me. Thank you so much to Jyoti and Mohanji for this wonderful tool.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 11th December 2023
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My initial inclination to embark on the Kailash pilgrimage alongside Mohanji began as a modest aspiration. The desire prospered significantly as I delved into accounts of past Kailash with Mohanji journeys and absorbed various testimonials recounting profound experiences. It became apparent that a pilgrimage to Kailash was inevitable for me; otherwise, it would linger persistently. In 2019, I resolved to undertake the journey. However, due to the onset of the COVID-19 pandemic, the Kailash Yatra was put on hold. The next opportunity arose in 2023 when the program resumed. Without hesitation, I promptly applied.
During this period, a few individuals also mentioned Dev Kumbh. Completing a parikrama during Dev Kumbh is equivalent to doing it 12 times, rendering one eligible for the Inner Kora. The next Dev Kumbh was scheduled for 2026. The suggestion to wait until then crossed my mind, but uncertainties about the future compelled me to seize the present opportunity.
The program was meticulously organised, providing details about essential items to purchase, their purpose, and the situations in which they would be used. The organising committee of the Mohanji Foundation offered clear explanations during Zoom sessions, addressing doubts and questions about the program. Equipped with this information, I felt prepared for the Kailash Yatra. Interestingly, I did not undertake any specific fitness preparations for the program.
We had 27 individuals expressing their desire to embark on the pilgrimage, hailing from diverse locations such as the UK, USA, South Africa, Australia, Serbia, Bosnia, Croatia, and more. When all the participants gathered, it was remarkable how we instantly felt like a cohesive family – a unified group with a beautiful sense of togetherness. The atmosphere consistently radiated positivity, contributing to a fantastic experience.
Our time in Kathmandu was delightful as we explored local temples like Pashupatinath and the Vishnu temple. Mohanji’s presence was a constant guiding force, answering our queries through satsang. He shared meals with us, including breakfast, lunch, and sometimes dinner. Even when he skipped dinner, he would sit with us for a chat, creating a terrific sense of camaraderie. This marked the first program where Mohanji spent extensive time with participants, ensuring everyone was mentally prepared for the journey and addressing all inquiries.
Several key points from Mohanji are worth highlighting:
● Completing the pilgrimage involves visiting Mansarovar, taking a dip (if possible), and gazing at Kailash. Anything beyond completing the parikrama is considered a bonus. Participants were reassured not to worry if they couldn’t go beyond Mansarovar.
● Considering the higher altitude and reduced oxygen levels, Mohanji advised a cautious approach. From walking to other activities, everything should be done slowly to conserve energy and prevent over-exertion.
● Mohanji emphasised the group’s participation in a Homa at Mansarovar, selecting Kannaiah for the ritual and ensuring he was well-prepared.
Participants had numerous questions, and Mohanji patiently addressed them with clarity. He also underscored that while individuals had varying fitness levels, mental stability and willpower were the crucial factors for the Kailash Yatra and completing the parikrama. This sentiment resonated with my own experience.
After completing the visa formalities required to enter Tibet, our Yatra commenced from Kathmandu. The bus journey to the Tibetan border at the Friendship Bridge spanned nearly eight hours, beginning in the morning with Mohanji’s blessings. By evening, we arrived at the border after a challenging 10-hour drive. Some of us, including myself, experienced motion sickness during the journey, but we were given Mai-Tri by our fellow traveller, Moushumi, which definitely had a healing effect on me as I felt better once we settled into the hotel.
The following morning, after a restful sleep, our task was to proceed to the border and complete the necessary formalities, which took some time with the Chinese authorities but was accomplished relatively smoothly without any complications. We all took a sigh of relief, with a silent thanks to Mohanji. Subsequently, we crossed the border, and a Chinese guide joined our group, accompanying us full-time in Tibet. Our journey continued by bus to Gyirong (3000 m), where we aimed to acclimate to higher altitudes daily. Gyirong provided a picturesque setting with abundant vegetation and good oxygen levels. We kept active by going for walks and maintained high energy levels through nightly sessions of Mohanji aarati and bhajans.
As we progressed, the journey to Saga presented a significant challenge due to its higher altitude of around 4660 meters and the absence of vegetation, resulting in lower oxygen levels. Several participants, including myself, fell ill, grappling with symptoms of altitude sickness. Following Mohanji’s advice to conserve energy, I navigated the challenges at a slower pace, combating doubts that surfaced about my ability to continue the Yatra. This phase marked my first moment of uncertainty, but timely support from the group, particularly from Bhavani and Zoran, reinstated my faith and determination to complete my journey. I realised that it was Mohanji who was speaking through them. He wasn’t giving up on me yet!
The subsequent day proved even more challenging as we embarked on the journey to Mansarovar, enduring a nine-hour bus ride. The journey had additional challenges, including a breakdown that required hours of waiting for repairs. While stuck inside the bus in my frail condition, the chanting and bhajans by our group maintained the spirit high, never missing Mohanji’s presence with us, even for a moment. Despite worsening physical conditions, reaching Mansarovar brought a sense of satisfaction as Kailash became visible.
The majestic Kailash was in front of us! The first sight brought the feeling of being at the abode of Lord Shiva. Basic accommodation near the lake meant shared rooms with minimal heating, but resting was prioritised. As attending the aarati and chanting in a tent proved challenging, my mind grappled with whether I could complete the parikrama. I could feel the onset of fear despite my faith in my Guru. I was slowly bending under the physical weakness.
Medical assessments revealed my oxygen level at a borderline figure of 60. Now, the decision was left to me – to proceed with the parikrama or not. I faced two options: either stay at the hotel and refrain from continuing the journey or undertake the parikrama with uncertainty. The realisation struck that my sole anchor point was faith in my Guru, Mohanji, and his grace. It was his grace that helped me to make the right decision! Despite physical challenges, I trusted that his protection and support would enable me to complete the parikrama.
I recalled Mohanji’s analogy of Kailash parikrama as a software upgrade, a transformative experience that requires the right conditions and awareness, all of which Kailash provides. The upcoming day held immense significance as it entailed participating in the sacred rituals at Mansarovar, including a powerful Homa ceremony. Mohanji had emphasised the importance of rituals in Mansarovar, gazing at Kailash and setting one’s intentions – a pivotal aspect of the parikrama.
Despite my worsening condition when I woke up the next morning, I held onto the faith that Mohanji was with me and that he would take care of me. While struggling to consume some breakfast, the importance of nourishment was evident. Our plan was to walk south along the shore of Mansarovar to conduct the Homa in an open space and, if possible, engage in sacred rituals. A 10-15 minute walk along the lake was on the agenda. However, at that time, even 10-15 steps seemed almost impossible to me. I brushed aside my fears, remembered Mohanji and was about to set out on the journey.
Just then, the Sherpas noticed my condition and expressed concern, suggesting that I join them in the car that was transporting the necessary items for the Homa and the tent. Seated in the car, I thanked Mohanji for taking care of me and also contemplated the challenges ahead. Upon reaching the site, situated next to the lake, doubts lingered about how this would unfold. The freezing lake and my compromised physical state posed considerable challenges. The fatigue was extreme, including fever and severe headache; every bone in my body was shivering with the cold. I was barely able even to stand straight.
Nevertheless, I was determined to do my sacred rituals, trusting in Mohanji’s care. Positioned at the shore, I observed fellow participants slowly gather and engage in their rituals. I struggled to stand and engage in the ritual. This was my second point of uncertainty. Almost giving up on the ritual, I was considered a quick retreat from where I was to a comfortable space. Just then, I heard my name being called out! I felt as if Mohanji was calling me! I turned around and saw Moushumi, who encouraged me to endure and even offered to support me if I struggled. I recognised this was Mohanji’s command, his direct support.
I gathered my strength and decided to proceed. Surprisingly, within a minute, my pain disappeared. Encouraged by this shift, I ventured further into my rituals and completed them; I expressed gratitude to Mohanji for allowing me to complete these crucial rituals. I also carried a Shivlinga, small murtis, and a Rudraksha mala, along with larger malas for the Mohanji Centre of Benevolence Scotland. I dipped them in the lake to energise them. It was later confirmed that upon reaching MCB Scotland, the malas emitted immense energy, as felt by our MCB Priest Jack Barratt.
Soon enough, I realised I was free from pain and fatigue, and I wondered why. The revelation dawned – it all transpired after the transformative ritual. Surely, it was none other than Mohanji who kept his promise, “I am always with you. I am taking care of you.” My heart was filled with gratitude; fear was receding, heaviness from my head was disappearing, and the brightness outside was appearing inside, too – light and bright.
As Kannaiah and the team arranged for the Homa setup, I took a chair near the Homa kund, grateful to be part of this unique ritual. The Homa was extraordinary, and the feeling of participating in it beside Mansarovar was unearthly. Each participant received a small wooden log to symbolise letting go of aspects of themselves, burning it as part of the Homa. After the Homa, someone urged us to look up at the sky, revealing a remarkable sight – a big circle around the sun and a triangle within the sun, a divine blessing.
Returning to our accommodation by car, I later boarded the bus for a parikrama around Lake Mansarovar. We collected clear water from the lake and marvelled at Kailash. Moving to a hotel at the base camp, we stayed overnight, continuing our rituals with aarati and bhajans. The next day marked the beginning of our parikrama and preparations, including booking porters and ponies as advised by Mohanji. He always emphasised taking a pony, even if intending to walk, as acquiring one halfway through the parikrama could be challenging.
The next day’s dawn brought a mix of excitement and contemplation on the uniqueness of our pilgrimage. Despite being in my weakest physical state, the parikrama had yet to begin – an ultimate test of willpower and faith. We packed our backpacks with essentials for the next three days, and the entire team gathered for breakfast. My health condition showed no improvement, and doubts about completing the parikrama loomed in my mind. Following breakfast, as we stood in a circle to receive instructions for the journey, I recalled Mohanji’s teachings on the power of pure intentions.
Seizing the moment, I suggested that the team join hands, connecting to Mohanji’s consciousness and collectively expressing our intention for everyone to complete the parikrama successfully. A minute of silence ensued, during which some participants reported experiencing a surge of energy and goosebumps, fostering a positive attitude within the team. Mohanji’s presence was felt by all, which brought this sudden surge of energy.
We took the bus to the starting point, where we acquired our porter and pony – symbolic allies on this journey, akin to Shiva’s Ganas, aiding us in completing the parikrama. The parikrama commenced at Yamdwar, a point signifying the shedding of aspects of ourselves that we wish to let go, marking the start of a new life. Setting my intention on what I wanted to release, I began the journey, alternating between walking and riding the pony. The day was strenuous, with intermittent glimpses of Kailash, accompanied by the chanting of “Om Namah Shivaya.”
I successfully completed day one with the assistance of the pony and porter. The location offered the closest view of Kailash, an awe-inspiring experience that captivated the team. At an elevation of around 5000 meters, breathlessness became palpable, requiring me to consciously extend my breath for more oxygen. I was weak but far from giving up.
The Sherpas provided hot soup and delicious food, though altitude sickness made eating a challenge. As day two loomed, acknowledged as the most challenging part of the parikrama, I focused on preparing myself for the physical demands. Despite struggles with breathlessness during the night, I prioritised rest and welcomed the Sherpas’ checks to ensure my well-being.
Later that night, I woke up with severe breathlessness and called out with despair, in a feeble tone, “Is anyone around?” in the pitch-dark room, maybe 4 or 5 of us in that room, I heard a voice,” Harish, get up. Sit up. And breathe.” I felt the command was from Mohanji. I simply followed, and soon enough, I was able to regain my breathing and realised it was from a fellow roommate. Mohanji, once again, was right there with me at the point when I was giving up! The rest of the night was uneventful, and I was able to take some rest.
The second day commenced with Sherpas waking us up with hot tea, followed by breakfast. Prepared and determined, we embarked on what is considered the most challenging leg of the parikrama – day two. This segment involved ascending to Dolmala Pass at an elevation of 5800 meters, followed by a descent and a subsequent walk of approximately 12 km, totalling over 23 km.
Opting for the assistance of a pony, I began the journey, and upon reaching Dolmala Pass, fatigue set in. Despite being drained, the sight of Gauri Kund was breathtaking. Unfortunately, I couldn’t linger due to altitude sickness. Descending on foot, I rested whenever exhaustion set in, accompanied by the ever-present porter. Reaching a plateau, we encountered a few Chinese cafes, although they were dimly lit and cold, lacking power. As we approached the end of the long walk, it was lunchtime. The porter suggested I take my lunch, leaving me momentarily alone and fatigued, unsure of what to do next.
This was my third point of uncertainty. In that moment of need, divine intervention manifested. A voice called out to me from the darkened cafe on my right. Mohanji? Struggling with my bag, I made my way inside, discovering that the voice belonged to Thirushka from South Africa. She and Moushumi were having lunch, and an available seat was next to them. I gratefully joined them, sharing a bit of my packed lunch. Seated with them, I found solace, allowing myself to recover and rest.
The remaining stretch of the journey mostly unfolded on flat terrain, covering approximately 12 km. While I walked for a portion, I predominantly relied on my pony. Upon reaching the base, the team and I felt immense satisfaction, having successfully completed the challenging phase of the parikrama. However, that night brought another struggle with sleep, attributed to breathlessness. I recognised but also knew the M power with me; hence, I felt unhindered by the physical setbacks.
The last day of the parikrama was comparatively shorter, requiring 3-4 hours to complete. Starting early, I primarily walked this segment. Upon reaching the endpoint on day three, a profound sense of satisfaction and gratitude to Mohanji washed over me for enabling me to accomplish the parikrama. The team shared hugs, celebrating the collective achievement. Recognising my Shiva Ganas – my porter, pony, and its handler – I reached out to Tashi, one of the Sherpas, to translate and convey my heartfelt gratitude, acknowledging their significant role in my journey.
Subsequently, we embarked on our journey to Saga, with lingering altitude sickness until we reached Gyirong the following day. This entire expedition served as a touching reminder of the importance of living in the present moment and the power of faith. Kailash, in essence, symbolises dissolution. The experience underscored the imperative of embracing the current moment without undue concern for the future – why worry?
Reflecting on the entire journey, I attribute the completion of my parikrama to one crucial element: faith in the divine, in my case, in Mohanji. Kailash imparted a profound realisation about the significance of being connected to a Guru through unwavering faith. My sincere gratitude to Mohanji for making me realise that when I am alone, I am actually not alone!
Thank you, Mohanji, for being with me in every moment of this once-in-a-lifetime journey of Kailash. Thank you, my dear Kailash family, for being the instrument of Mohanji and making this journey such a memorable one. Thank you, Lord Shiva, for welcoming me to your abode and allowing me to accomplish my desire and intention.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 7th December 2023
Disclaimer:
The views, opinions, and positions expressed by the authors and those providing comments on these blogs are theirs alone and do not necessarily reflect the views, opinions or positions of Mohanji, Mohanji Foundation, it’s members, employees or any other individual or entity associated with Mohanji or Mohanji Foundation. We make no representations as to accuracy, completeness, timeliness, suitability or validity of any information presented by individual authors and/or commenters on our blogs and will not be liable for any errors, omissions, or delays in this information or any losses, injuries or damages arising from its display or use.
We reserve the right to delete, edit, or alter in any manner we see fit blog entries or comments that we, in our sole discretion, deem to be obscene, offensive, defamatory, threatening, in violation of trademark, copyright or other laws, of an express commercial nature, or otherwise unacceptable.
In a testimonial published in November 2023, I described the divine grace expressed and transmitted by Mohanji and Devi on my first physical experience with them and how that grace continued on my first visit to MCB (Mohanji Centre of Benevolence) Scotland during the inauguration and Prana Pratishtha of Lord Ganesh idol, Shirdi Sai Baba idol and Lord Dattatreya idol.
At the divine inauguration, the Mohanji Acharyas and volunteers at MCB Scotland were very kind, attentive and eager to serve. As an example of their openness and alignment with Mohanji’s consciousness, I would like to share their role in another act of supreme grace.
I wanted to purchase a set of Padukas for my shrine at home and approached the volunteers who were serving at the stall, where various items, including Padukas, could be purchased. I might have simply been sold a set on display, and that was my expectation, but in the discussion, the volunteers had an inspiration.
There was a set of Padukas that had been acquired by the team for sale but had happened to find their way onto the altar in the Shirdi Sai Baba temple and had been worshipped as part of the Shirdi Sai Baba temple inauguration. Enquiries would be made of the officiating priest, Shri Sulakhe Maharaj (former chief priest of Shirdi), as to whether these could be transferred to me. I was taken aback but extremely grateful for the generosity of spirit that was being demonstrated in going the extra mile (and then some) in this unexpected turn of events.
Grace flowed.
Following an exploratory discussion, Maharaj approved and agreed to transfer the Padukas to me after the final completion of all ceremonies. I was informed that I should attend and meetMaharaj in the temple accordingly.
This was and is an incredible honour and certainly unexpected. It is an expression of how, at the right time, divine grace delivers more than actually sought or even considered possible, but only if the agents acting in delivery and expression of that grace are open to play a role in transmitting the flow.
I attended as instructed, and Maharaj gave a big smile (we can all picture that) and a hug by way of welcome. He then moved to hand over the Padukas with reverence. He positioned me in front of the now-living Shirdi Sai Baba idol and instructed me to wait. He then reached for a Shirdi Sai temple shawl, placed it around my shoulders and then handed the Padukas to me in the presence of and view of Baba.
By ‘chance’ Selma and Peter witnessed this, and Dirk also appeared in the temple. Peter had his mobile phone with him and took a picture to record the event. I was awestruck.
I have no conscious memory or understanding of why I was eligible to receive this grace and honour. Prior to meeting Mohanji, my connection with Sai Baba in the form of Shirdi Sai was through my experiences with Sathya Sai Baba. Many years ago, I was unexpectedly given a small photograph of Shirdi Sai Baba in Prashanti Nilayam.
I was told by the individual handing it over that I had a connection with Shirdi Sai. I was very happy to receive the photo but was perplexed by what the connection could be. I placed the photo in my passport for ‘safe-keeping’, but it subsequently disappeared. I don’t normally lose items and certainly not pictures of avatars. Why I chose my passport as a fitting place to keep the photo is loaded with meaning. The seed of my connection to Shirdi Sai had been planted in my waking consciousness, ready to grow at the right time.
What do the divine feet of Mohanji and Sai Baba represent?
When Sathya Sai Baba declared his avatarhood, he walked out of his family home to the garden of a devotee and sat upon a large rocky outcrop or boulder. His close devotees soon gathered around him, and Sathya Sai Baba led them in the beautifully poignant bhajan of
“Manasa Bhajare Guru Charanam Dusthara Bhava Saagara Tharanam.”
[Oh, mind! Meditate on the Feet of the Guru. This can take you across the difficult ocean of existence, birth after birth.”]
A photographer recorded the event, and when the photograph was developed, the small rock formation in front of the young Sathya Sai emerging from the larger boulder had taken on the form of a Shirdi Sai Baba idol. The supreme consciousness of the Masters is one, even though the forms may differ.
Worshipping the feet of the Guru is considered one among the 9 forms of Bhakti or devotion: the Navavidha Bhakti Marga. However, a close former student devotee of Sathya Sai Baba has disclosed from an intimate conversation with his students that:
“Swami said that people often thought Padasevanam only meant service to the Guru’s feet. This was the reason why everyone felt it was the easiest route to God because all one had to do was to get the opportunity to press and massage his feet. But that was not the actual meaning. Swami said that Padasevanam means walking in the footsteps of a Guru. To walk the path that the Guru walks is true service to his feet.”
To walk the path that is walked and shown by the Guru – that is the invitation and the truest expression of service to the feet of the Master. In the book Mast: the Ecstatic given by Mohanji, a probing, exploratory conversation takes place between Maharishi Shantananda and his prospective follower, Vamadeva, whose heartfelt desire is to be accepted into the Master’s Gurukul (a residential school where students live as part of the Master’s family):
Maharishi: The path is right here within you; why not walk?
Vamadeva: I am param buddhu. I don’t know the way, respected Master
Maharishi: Final destination?
Vamadeva: My Self, the Supreme Self, respected Master
Maharishi: Where shall you walk from? (Read: Where will you start? When can you start?)
Vamadeva: At your lotus feet. (Read: Right here! Right now!)
There is evident genuine camaraderie, friendship, and humour at MCB Scotland in a very welcoming and divine environment. When walking past Mohanji en route to the Shirdi Sai Baba Temple, Mohanji quipped, ‘Nice T-shirt’, to which I replied, ‘Yes, it is’. 3 words each but with profound meaning in the space between them. My Mum would probably roll her exasperated eyes at the depth of emotional expression in my acknowledgement.
As a ‘newcomer’, it was more than heart-warming to be acknowledged. Inclusivity was also the foundation of the closing events following the Shirdi Sai Baba temple inauguration through two satsangs with Mohanji.
At one closing satsang, a number of individuals spoke about their experiences, being encouraged by Mohanji to do so. The sharing of experiences benefits both the experiencer and those listening on a number of levels. Mohanji is also keen that those reluctant to speak, go beyond their comfort zone as this helps to dissolve restricting and limiting ideas and leads to further expansion.
Mohanji and Vijay made sure that everybody was acknowledged and valued. Blessed miniature statutes of Shirdi Sai Baba were presented on a personal basis, with the opportunity to express love and gratitude to Mohanji when receiving the grace of Baba from Mohanji’s hands. Everyone agreed that the food consumed during the divine inauguration event (on all levels) was awesome.
Mohanji gave his concluding satsang in the Datta garden in the presence of Lord Dattatreya. There are no ‘accidents’, and nothing happens by chance. We were all meant to be here at this time for the inaugural event. Mohanji asked us not to bring mental interference into play with ‘why?’ Let the grace and experience flow without obstruction.
Mohanji then gave everyone gathered the opportunity to seek their own clarification to personal questions. In responding to some of those questions, Mohanji explained that the establishment of MCB Scotland and other centres was to provide connected portals or spaces for the expansion and expression of consciousness in a divinely inspired environment which could also inform and inspire personal practice wherever we happened to be. I asked how best to maintain personal evolutionary practice. Faith, connection and consistency, Mohanji responded.
There was just enough time for a group photo. A genius was operating a drone with a camera that took a wonderful ariel picture of those gathered. That picture has since been published.
On returning home, another miracle occurred. At Dirks’s request, I opened up my first-ever WhatsApp account. I could not say no to Dirk. Dirk kindly sent some articles about his experiences with Mohanji and a beautiful picture of himself and Mohanii on a train, which I subsequently printed and framed; a family photo that I placed on the shelf sitting next to me.
MCB Scotland then announced their Rise and Revive retreat in September 2023. To be continued…
Offered at the lotus feet of Mohanji and the Masters of the Tradition with gratitude, love and blessings.
Samastha Lokah Sukinho Bhavantu: May all worlds and all beings in those worlds be happy and free.
Sai Ram! Jai Mohanji!
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 3rd December 2023
Disclaimer:
The views, opinions, and positions expressed by the authors and those providing comments on these blogs are theirs alone and do not necessarily reflect the views, opinions or positions of Mohanji, Mohanji Foundation, it’s members, employees or any other individual or entity associated with Mohanji or Mohanji Foundation. We make no representations as to accuracy, completeness, timeliness, suitability or validity of any information presented by individual authors and/or commenters on our blogs and will not be liable for any errors, omissions, or delays in this information or any losses, injuries or damages arising from its display or use.
We reserve the right to delete, edit, or alter in any manner we see fit blog entries or comments that we, in our sole discretion, deem to be obscene, offensive, defamatory, threatening, in violation of trademark, copyright or other laws, of an express commercial nature, or otherwise unacceptable.
This story starts in the warmth of the Brazilian October when I found myself tiptoeing into Mohanji’s room. His foot pain sentenced him to a self-imposed exile in his room. One of those days, fueled by a brew of concern and compassion, I ventured into Mohanji’s space armed with a simple offering – a cup of tea. Pushing the door open gently, I discovered him reclining on his bed with a phone in hand.
But the unexpected was about to unfold. There, in the midst of his discomfort, Mohanji was engaged in a rare act – he was singing. As the harmonious notes of the “Scarborough Fair” song filled the room, I couldn’t help but be swept away by the unusual blend of emotions. Here was a love song, a timeless classic from 1965, chosen by Mohanji at a moment when love seemed to be the antidote for the ache that bound his foot.
My curiosity, as persistent as ever, wrestled with my better judgment. Why this song? Why now? The answer, predictably unpredictable, came in the form of Mohanji’s response. “I am singing to the people in Gaza to ease their pain. They are suffering a lot.” And just like that, the narrative took an unexpected turn.
In my state of awe, I refrained from probing further. Mohanji, as I knew all too well, answered questions that arose from the depths of sincerity, not the frivolity of idle curiosity. When he replies, he either suggests a solution or clears your vision. Since my questions at the moment were not falling into any of these categories, I decided not to test my faith (or his good mood) and made peace with the understanding that some answers unfold in their own time.
Fast forward to the chill of November in Belgrade, Serbia. Mohanji’s singing lingered in my memory, accompanied by a nagging question – in what way did the people in Gaza hear him? It became a pondering refrain, resurfacing periodically like a gentle nudge from the universe.
Then, a phone call with a friend provided an answer to my curiosity out of nowhere. She spoke of the dire situation in Gaza, explaining how much people were suffering and how unbelievable it was, how everyone left them, and no one came to help them.
Then, she said: “Milica, can you imagine how sad it is that doctors in Gaza can’t even treat their patients properly since they don’t have supplies anymore, so they are SINGING TO THEM TO EASE THEIR PAIN.” It hit me – the answer to my silent question! Mohanji’s song had transcended the walls of his room, traversed continents, and became a source of solace for those in need.
The simultaneous ache and beauty of that realisation settled within me. In a world shaken by turmoil, the simplicity of a song sung with the intention to heal echoed across borders. I felt gratitude, not just for Mohanji’s unassuming compassion but for the assurance that even in the darkest times, one witnesses, once again, his multidimensional work.
And so, dear readers, I share this story not just as a recounting of an extraordinary moment but as a testament to the boundless dimensions of Mohanji’s compassion. In the never-ending dance of life and death, if everyone leaves and forgets about us, we can rest assured that Mohanji will not only remember us but also stand by us and, if we are lucky enough, sing us a song from the bottom of his heart.
I would like to add another thing: Sometimes, it pays off to be naggingly curious, but be prepared to be shaken and stirred with an answer!
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 23rd November 2023
Disclaimer:
The views, opinions, and positions expressed by the authors and those providing comments on these blogs are theirs alone and do not necessarily reflect the views, opinions or positions of Mohanji, Mohanji Foundation, it’s members, employees or any other individual or entity associated with Mohanji or Mohanji Foundation. We make no representations as to accuracy, completeness, timeliness, suitability or validity of any information presented by individual authors and/or commenters on our blogs and will not be liable for any errors, omissions, or delays in this information or any losses, injuries or damages arising from its display or use.
We reserve the right to delete, edit, or alter in any manner we see fit blog entries or comments that we, in our sole discretion, deem to be obscene, offensive, defamatory, threatening, in violation of trademark, copyright or other laws, of an express commercial nature, or otherwise unacceptable.
A few months ago, while doing Kriya practice, I realized that in order to live in the present again, I need to let go of my past and the future. When I made that decision, a realization hit me: “Well, I don’t even know how much longer I’ll have to live!” This caused a train of realization that I’d also have to leave my liberation in the hands of Mohanji and the Tradition; everything and everyone in my life can go at any time, and I don’t know when they will die either.
I had experienced people dying in my life before, and I had experienced grief. I had even thought of my own longevity before. But thinking about it compared to truly realizing that I can go at any moment is different. It was like being in the present moment was a death itself.
I became very distraught. My mind began looking for something permanent that I could hang onto. I didn’t know how to find it! One day, I thought I’d watch near-death experience (NDE) stories in order to calm myself a bit. This was not the first time I was looking into life after death. Years ago, when someone dear to me had died, I had looked into these things. But this time, it was for my own sake!
At first, I listened to two of the NDE stories, and they were so beautiful. The first was a man who said when he died or left his body, he felt that he was not the personality he left behind on the hospital bed. He also said he felt everything a human wants to feel: unconditional love, joy and acceptance.
The second was a woman who had a similar experience. She left her body and felt the presence of guides. They were extremely happy to see her, and she felt all her pains of life being washed away. She, too, described being loved unconditionally by Consciousness or the Supreme Father. When I heard this, I wondered what it was like to feel the things they were talking about. I wanted to feel it while being alive.
One day, I asked Jack Barratt, who holds weekly satsangs, to please speak about the NDEs. At the end of the satsang, we meditate for 10 minutes. During the meditation, I could physically feel a wave of golden light coming from the front into me, surrounding me and filling every cell of my body. It was then that I felt what those people were talking about.
I mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually could feel that I am loved no matter what. I knew it with my entire being. This was not a subtle experience at all. I felt and knew that I was loved, and my personality, my thoughts, my words, actions, memories, my body – all that didn’t matter! Needless to say, it was incredible.
I kept thinking about this for the following week, and it happened again during the next satsang. This experience (along with the lovely help of Mai-Tri sessions) really lifted me back up. It took away the distraught emotions I was feeling. I reflected on so many things throughout this time – it made me contemplate what is important to me and what my priorities in life are. Everything was pointing to the path – to going back home. And to LOVE!
It made me realize and feel the value of everything and everyone who comes our way, especially those who may give us pain, which makes us grow! Because they are all contributing to our journey towards the ultimate (if that’s what we decide we want in this lifetime). I felt so much gratitude for all the situations and people in my life. Never blame anyone; never hurt anyone, including yourself.
If it wasn’t for Mohanji, I don’t know how I would’ve gotten through all this. I never knew that kind of love was possible. Perhaps all we need to do is be open, love ourselves and feel we are also worthy of this supreme love! Definitely, it was a huge booster for me to keep going, NO MATTER WHAT.
I have learned so much from Mohanji being in my life so far – the first thing that I ever really learned from Mohanji was the importance of self-acceptance and how necessary it is for the path. And that we CAN accept ourselves. It’s difficult, it’s a practice. I had never really heard of this kind of teaching growing up. The other things besides acceptance have been about not having guilt, letting go, and respect.
I feel like we all really love each other deep down when we put away the differences, the memories, the situations – everything.
“Love is the effortless expression of a still mind. All other expressions are reactions to circumstances.” ~ Mohanji
One other thing I want to mention, which Mohanji has been talking about a lot recently, is the importance of consistently connecting to one Master deeply. Mohanji has also said that your Master is all Masters, and you only need to focus on the one who came to you. I experienced this recently when I was offering food. As I was getting ready to offer – I thought to myself how I felt connected to Mohanji and the Dattatreya Tradition.
Then, I looked at Babaji’s photo and had some doubts. When I closed my eyes, I immediately saw Babaji, but even though I saw Babaji, I felt Mohanji! There was no separation between them. There was a wonderful sense of love. Our Master Mohanji is all Masters indeed. He is our gateway!
This also happened during Ganesha Chaturthi. We were celebrating Lord Ganesha’s birthday. And even though I was looking at the form Ganesha, I felt Mohanji again! Thank you, Mohanji. For all the support and unconditional love, you have given me. I’m so happy that I’m living this life with you. I love you! Because of you, I am me. You have been my mother, my father, my best friend, and you are my true relative. If anyone ever compliments me, I know it’s you they are seeing.
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 19th November 2023
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I chose to share my little ‘Pre-Kailash story’ to give other young people hope and to share my Kailash transformation. I leave every word at the feet of Mohanji and Lord Shiva.
I was in floods of tears on my way to work, feeling shattered and broken inside. I cried out to Mohanji, “Mohanji, I don’t have the will to go on living like this. I know I am unworthy of you, but I still have faith in you, Mohanji! I still have faith!”
These were the words I cried at my wheel while I drove home from work when I had a clear vision of Mount Kailash. This dramatic American teen film moment was the start of my Kailash journey. For six months, I had wept with my hands on the wheel driving to and from work, with no sign of stopping. Due to deeply imprinted patterns of non-acceptance and lack of self-forgiveness, I had fallen into the trap of self-hatred.
I withdrew from seeing my friends for those six months, and I would lie in bed at the weekends, hoping to just disappear. Unable to stand up for myself at work, my self-worth had hit a low. A few family fallouts and betrayals had pushed me to my limit, and I couldn’t drop the past easily. Due to my own lack of self-acceptance, I was attracting more calamities in my personal and professional life.
I had no will left to do the things that I used to love, like going for a walk, painting, or feeding the birds. Underneath my usual joyful and happy-go-lucky self, I had forgotten that life is to be enjoyed. I had become disconnected from everything I loved, including myself.
The company I worked at was undergoing a takeover, and the workplace had become a challenging environment. Daily jealousy attacks had become the norm, and my self-esteem was so low that I didn’t care about protecting myself anymore or invoking Mohanji to protect me. I had reached the point where I felt totally unworthy of listening to Mohanji’s Shiva Kavacham.
I just accepted the workplace bullying that I was experiencing as a good punishment for what I deserved. Alongside my inner battles, I was being stalked at work by one client. I tried to brush it aside, and I pretended that it wasn’t affecting me, but I was slowly going stark crazy.
Too afraid to appear like a failure to the outside world and to the Mohanji family, I kept my mouth shut and suppressed my negative emotions. As I mentioned, my personal life was also a little rocky. Long-term friends and colleagues were turning against me for what seemed like trivial reasons. Having perfected how to mask my emotions, I managed to successfully fool my loved ones. By that point, I had lost the will to keep going, and I didn’t have any fighting spirit left in me. I hadn’t lost my faith yet, but I had lost my will.
Up until this point, I did not have the courage to mentally ask Mohanji for help. I was holding on to the illusion of being a failure, that I couldn’t maintain my job, and that I had let everybody down. Now that I look back, I can see that it was the hand of Lord Shiva clearing the way to make room for something more beautiful. I thought my life was crumbling apart, but it was slowly being put back together.
Then came that day in May when I drove back from work. “I still have faith in you, Mohanji! I still have faith!” I screamed, still clutching the wheel. Suddenly, my eyes glazed over, and I had a clear vision of Mount Kailash glowing in the golden sun. Silently, I heard the words: “You’re going to Kailash”. All I can remember is weeping in gratitude. A doubt quickly popped up in my mind. “How can that be?” I didn’t have any more holidays left over to take time off work to attend the Kailash pilgrimage. Besides, I wasn’t really thinking about another adventure because I was preparing for Mohanji’s arrival to the UK in June, and I was just so excited to soon be in His presence once again.
June 2023: Mohanji inaugurates the Shirdi Sai Baba Temple at Skanda Vale Ashram and the Mohanji Centre of Benevolence in Scotland.
Having been informed about Mohanji’s UK schedule in advance, I was able to book 10 days of holiday from work to attend both Shirdi Sai Baba Temple consecrations taking place in the UK. The first consecration took place at Skanda Vale Ashram in Wales, and the second at the Mohanji Centre of Benevolence in Scotland. A few days before the inauguration, I prayed to Mohanji. “Mohanji, I used to be able to hear your voice clearly; why did you stop talking to me?”
During my last day at work before the consecration, I believe Mohanji spoke to me loudly and clearly. As I wrapped my scarf around my neck and picked up my bags to leave work, I heard the words ‘This is your last day at work”. It was the same soft, gentle, loving voice I had heard somewhere before. That’s a little weird, I thought. I was slightly fearful that the voice might have been a negative being. I brushed the thought aside and didn’t give the experience any more attention.
Meanwhile, I loved my 10 days of holiday spent in the consciousness of Mohanji with our incredible Mohanji family. The consecration at Skanda Vale Ashram was a celebration for all the senses. Sai Baba really came with a bang! However, something strange started happening at Skanda Vale. That silent voice that I heard earlier became a whisper, and the whisper became louder and louder each day.
The words that struck my mind were ‘Hand your notice in now’. Every time I sat in the ceremony rituals, these words would hit me hundreds of times. Each time I looked at Sai Baba’s form, I could hear the command, ‘It’s time to leave your job. It’s time to leave your job now.’ By the third or fourth day, I was hearing the command all day to the point where I wondered whether other people could hear it, too!
On the final day of the consecration at Skanda Vale, I prayed to the Divine Mother at the Kali Ma temple. “Okay, Divine Mother, if I am going to quit my job, will you provide me with an alternative?” During my darshan, I received confirmation that there were other meaningful ways that I could use my time if I quit. However, I was stubborn. I cared too much about what other people thought, and the idea of being without work brought up intense fear because the job had become a comfort zone.
The final day of the consecration at Skanda Vale was approaching. A few moments before we boarded the bus to leave Skanda Vale ashram, I googled ‘How to write a letter of resignation with immediate effect’, and I copied and pasted the resignation letter to my employer. I informed my employer that I had a new job offer and that I would prefer to accept the new job whilst already on holiday. Thankfully, leaving my job was the best thing my soul could have wished for. I remembered how to smile again, and a natural colour slowly returned to my cheeks. I enjoyed being around the Mohanji family and the abundance of unconditional love I received.
July 2023: the confirmation
The consecration ceremony was powerful for me, and I went through intense inner cleansing afterwards. One evening, I was having intense chest pains and feeling out of my body. I found myself feeling unwell and unable to lift my head from the dinner table, so someone in the Mohanji family suggested that I reach out for a distance Mai-Tri healing session.
After the Mai-Tri healing session, I received a voice message from my Mai-Tri practitioner, which made my mouth drop. “It was good that you listened to your intuition to leave your job. Mohanji and Sai Baba saved you from a major catastrophe. In fact, they changed the course of your life 180 degrees. You would likely not have come back up from what could have happened. Don’t feel guilty about leaving your job. Your energy is so high that a lot gets attracted to you, but Mohanji takes care. No worries.”
This was all the confirmation I needed that I was on the right path and that I could trust my instincts. I knew why I had to leave my job. I didn’t have any more holiday left to take time off work, and I was being prepared for another journey of a lifetime: Mount Kailash. And there it was, all lined up perfectly. With very little time to think, I started packing my bags ready for the Kailash Yatra. With the help of some friends who worked for British Airways, I was able to purchase good plane tickets to Kathmandu.
Kailash with Mohanji: a bubble of love
The moment I stepped into the hotel in Kathmandu, I walked into bliss. Mohanji had wrapped us all in a bubble of love and grace. Those five days with Mohanji in Nepal were simply soaked in love. All twenty-seven of us shared a natural group bond unlike anything I have ever experienced before, and I believe the others have said the same. Everyone in the group was of a similar calm disposition, bonded through our love for Mohanji and Shiva’s Consciousness.
Our days were spent laughing, sharing, bonding, and enjoying casual satsang with Mohanji around the table. Such is Mohanji that he fulfils even our tiniest of wishes. Mohanji even made sure that He was the first person I saw when I landed in Kathmandu.
Being around the Mohanji family quickly shattered some of the illusions I had been holding onto. Our Kailash group were kind to me, and they made me feel loved and respected. We laughed for hours over the silliest of things, and we bonded over this unique shared experience. I was no longer thinking that I was a terribly unlovable person, and I started believing that I was worthy of being on the Yatra with all these beautiful souls.
I experienced a glimpse of being me – beyond my positions, possessions, and relations. Not one person on the trip asked me what I did for a job, where I lived, or whether I was married or unmarried. None of these things mattered. We were bonded for a greater purpose: fulfilling our Kailash journey together. I am so grateful that Mohanji gave me the experience of being me and relaxing within myself. Being around other like-minded souls made me realise that I connect well with all types of people and that I have something to offer others.
On the Yatra, I had to face some of my hidden fears. Somehow, our fears become amplified during the Kailash journey without our usual home comforts or anything concrete to hold onto. I met with my first wild leech experience. I vomited throughout the 12-hour journey to the China border, and I had to confront interactions which pushed me outside my comfort zone.
Thankfully, my pony and sherpa carried me all the way to the top of Dolma La Pass and carried me all the way to the bottom, and I was able to complete the three-day pilgrimage with ease and joy. The whole time, Mohanji was there with his hand over my head, reassuring me that everything would be okay.
I was able to take blessings at Lake Mansarovar for my mother’s brother before he passed away a few days later. My uncle had been in a coma for over a week following a massive heart attack, and I felt that being on the Kailash Yatra during his final days was no coincidence. As I prayed for my uncle, I felt that his soul was light as a feather and that Mohanji had worked on him intensely during his final moments.
One evening, a 20-litre water thermos slipped and smashed in front of me, covering my face, hair, and clothes with flecks of broken glass. Trying to remain calm, I took a shower, and my fellow group members helped me to pick the shards of glass from my hair. Miraculously, I didn’t suffer a single scratch or even a graze, and my eyes were protected. Mohanji, being Mohanji, of course, took a big karma away from me. The glass washed off easily, and I was able to enjoy one of the best sleeps I had on the trip!
All in all, my Kailash trip has been the start of my healing journey to loving and accepting myself more. I laugh and smile more, and I’m able to feel grateful for the things in my life. I am more aware of myself as a good and kind person rather than identifying with my fleeting emotions. I feel more connected to that thing called ‘the energy running the show’.
I am able to sit down and complete my sadhana all the way through, something which I haven’t been able to do for many years. I can only say thank you to Mohanji from the very bottom of my heart for allowing me to experience this Yatra fully, surrounded by love, kindness, and connection.
Thank you, Lord Shiva. Thank you to each and every member of our group. Your kindness, acceptance and love transformed me. Thank you to Madhu for still allowing us to venture to Kailash. Thank you to Mohanji, my eternal Father, in this lifetime and every other lifetime.
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 16th November 2023
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The views, opinions, and positions expressed by the authors and those providing comments on these blogs are theirs alone and do not necessarily reflect the views, opinions or positions of Mohanji, Mohanji Foundation, it’s members, employees or any other individual or entity associated with Mohanji or Mohanji Foundation. We make no representations as to accuracy, completeness, timeliness, suitability or validity of any information presented by individual authors and/or commenters on our blogs and will not be liable for any errors, omissions, or delays in this information or any losses, injuries or damages arising from its display or use.
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My journey with Kailash virtually started in April 2021 when I got a dream where I was in Kailash on a full moon day, and Lord Shiva was meditating on Kailash with a few sages sitting around him.
After this dream, I started thinking about what my connection with Shiva or Kailash would be. I have been a Vishnu and Sai Baba devotee all my life, and I had never chanted any Shiva mantra nor did any meditation, so why did I get that dream?
In Aug 2022, Sai Baba blessed me to go to Skanda Vale Ashram in Wales and to do some seva. I followed that intuition and stayed for four days in Skanda Vale, where I learned about Mohanji.
While doing the food serving seva at Skanda Vale, I met an amazing lady, Heli, from Estonia. While having lunch together, she mentioned to me that she had come to Skanda Vale to seek blessings for the book that she was about to publish. When I asked her about the book, She said – “Pilgrimage to Tibetan Mountain Kailash.” This, for me, was a sign that I should seriously think about going to Kailash.
Heli patiently answered all my queries about Kailash, and she gave me a few references for tour operators in Kathmandu. I contacted them immediately, but they mentioned there was no official announcement from China yet about this pilgrimage. Hence, I lost hope.
In the meantime, I decided to go to India in March 2023, and on 5th March, I visited Shirdi. I was attending an evening aarti in Dwarakamai, and I was praying to Sai Baba: “Baba, please take me to Kailash. If you can’t take me physically, then send a Guru to me, only with whom I can do the yatra.” With this request to Baba, I opened my eyes and saw 2 European disciples standing before me, wearing white t-shirts (with Mohanji written on the t-shirts).
I got a sign that Baba had brought me to Mohanji. I tried to follow the disciples, but as Dwarkamai was overcrowded, I lost them, and they disappeared into that crowd. In the same month, I visited Varanasi, and I happened to accidentally visit Lahiri Mahasaya’s Samadhi place, which also had a beautiful temple for Mahavatar Babaji. In that temple behind Mahavatar Babaji’s idol, in the background, I saw a picture of Kailash. I prayed to Babaji to take me to Kailash.
After returning to the UK, I looked up Mohanji’s website, where I found mentions of a book – Kailash with Mohanji. I ordered it on Amazon, and upon arrival of that book, I read it within two days. Once I finished reading that book, I prayed to Mohanji – “Mohanji, please take me to Kailash.”
On the night of that same day, in my dream, I saw Mohanji unloading my suitcase from a van, and when I asked, “Where are we going?” Mohanji smiled at me and said, “Kailash.” This was in the last week of March 2023 when there was no sign of the Kailash yatra yet announced by the Mohanji Foundation. What a grace!
I was confident that I was going with Mohanji to Kailash one day. But I was surprised when, in April, I saw an advert coming from a social group to save the dates for ‘Kailash Parikrama’, and I was over the moon. I am sure I was the first one to register for this yatra.
Mohanji visited the London Navnat Centre on 27th May for a day retreat. I registered for that event, and I met Mohanji for the first time. I mentioned to him about the dream that I envisioned. He smiled at me and said, you will be fine on Kailash yatra.
I started my preparations for the yatra and reached Kathmandu with my husband. Once I reached the Hyatt Regency hotel, I saw the lobby was the place that I envisioned in my dreams, where Mohanji was unloading my bags.
The 27 yatris of this group felt like a family from day one. The 27 of us came from all over the world, from different directions, but we all had one thing in common – an immense gratitude that the Guru Mandala chose each one of us for this divine journey called Kailash Parikrama.
Preeti Duggal beautifully arranged the morning Shiva Rudrabhsihek, and we all felt that intense energy in the mornings during those pujas. She also performed a group Mai-Tri for all of us. This was my very first session, and I wasn’t expecting anything. But I saw Mother Kaali of Skanda Vale appear before me during the session, and I felt a touch on my forehead, and she said that she came all the way from Skanda Vale to bless me. A mother’s love is so pure and so kind that I had tears in my eyes. I cannot thank enough Preeti Duggal for this beautiful experience.
The next day, we had a satsang with Mohanji, and the topic was ‘Lord Hanuman.’ As Mohanji was doing the talk, I saw a vision again: an image of Mohanji with three heads: Lord Hanuman on the left, Mohanji in the middle, and Lord Dattatreya on the right. Despite being a vision, it was so clear and realistic that I was able to see the faces of them all for a brief period.
While leaving Kathmandu, we were all emotional about leaving Mohanji and the team behind. We had tearful eyes whilst Mohanji blessed us all with his two hands. I, too, became very emotional but knew that Mohanji would be with us all during this sacred journey.
The road to the Neal-China border was bumpy, and I started feeling motion sickness. I closed my eyes, and I saw a vision again. It was the day of Ekadashi. On this day, I usually fast and worship Lord Vishnu. In this vision, I was talking to someone saying, “It is Ekadashi day, and I am fasting, but I could not do Vishnu puja.” I then saw our group photo with Mohanji outside of the hotel, and I was next to Mohanji in that photo.
Suddenly, Mohanji disappeared and took the form of Lord Vitthal, a form of Lord Vishnu (standing in the same pose). My eyes were full of tears. Then, I saw another vision where Mohanji turned into a bird, and his body was expanding as if it was ready to take off. In another vision, Mohanji was blessing us all, and I envisioned a cobra around him protecting us.
Our journey to the Mansarovar was not so smooth. We all felt sick, but thanks to the sherpas and the Tibet team, they looked after us so well. After reaching Mansarovar, everyone was tired due to the long travelling. There was a full moon that night, and some of the yatris decided to go to Mansarovar at dawn at around 2:30am to see any celestial beings.
I awoke exactly at that time and could hear the people who were going towards the lake. I was too powerless to lift my body, and I heard a voice in my ears saying, “Do not move.” I felt an entity enter our room, and taking something out of our bodies, it left. Unexplainable yet realistic, and I realised that something which needed to leave us before the pilgrimage had been removed by grace.
On the next day, we started the Kailash Parikrama. I was fine on day 1, and we reached the guesthouse where we could clearly see Kailash. I was tired, but then I strongly wished to go out and look at Kailash. I went out, sat on a rock, and started meditating. Slowly, a few of the yatris joined me, and we had an amazing Shiva mantra chanting session in front of Kailash itself. At that moment, I felt the incredible feeling of nothingness (shunya).
On that night, I couldn’t sleep as my heart rate was irregular throughout. The following day, the sherpas suggested that I may not be fit to do the Parikrama and should consider returning to Darchen. The nervousness and the fear started taking over me, so I even decided to give up and go back.
Bhavani and Zoran came to see me, and Bhavani did a Mai-Tri for me. I did get a feeling of regaining some energy with some positive thoughts that indicated I carry on with this journey. Zoran also advised me that it was safe to do it and that it was just anxiety that was affecting my will.
On my pony, I started the journey to Dolma–La Pass. I was anxious that my heart rate was still irregular. At one instance, I lost my will to continue. Suddenly, a boy came to my rescue as he started talking to me in English. He was neither a porter nor a pony owner. He appeared out of nowhere, said that we were about to reach the peak, and smiled. I asked him to stay with me and told him I felt safe with him.
He smiled again and accompanied me to Dolma–La Pass, where I saw Kanaiyah from our group. I reached Kanaiyah and asked for some water as my porter was way behind. I completely forgot about the boy who had appeared out of nowhere and accompanied me until there, and I didn’t see him again. I then came across Zoran on the way, and he said, “See, you made it.”
Kanaiyah and Bhavani went down to Gauri Kund, and I chose to sit on a big rock at the top of the Kund to take some rest and wait for my husband and the porter. I was looking down at the Gauri Kund and heard Kanaiyah sing a very beautiful bhajan for Mother Parvati. I cherished that from the top. I closed my eyes and said to Maa, “Sorry I could not go to Gauri Kund this time, but bring me here again to take your darshan.” I witnessed a small landslide with a loud noise, to which Kanaiyah said it was Mother’s way of acknowledging our prayers.
My husband and my porter then joined me. My porter gave me a bottle of Gauri Kund water. I wasn’t anticipating it, but he felt he must fetch it for us all. This reminded me of Kanaiyah’s saying that a Mother always listens to our prayers.
I had read before somewhere that when you go to Kailash, even as a part of a group, each member gets a message from the divine. You must understand that message, and you will witness your life transforming. I have received a message, too, and am still in the process of understanding it!
As Mohanji says, “Go to Kailash with nothing with you, and you will not return empty-handed.” Have faith, surrender completely, and everything will be fine.
Thank you, Sai Baba and Mahavtar Babaji, for fulfilling my wish to go to Kailash. Thank you, Mohanji, for protecting me, and I know that it was he who walked with me to the Dolma–La Pass! Thank you, to all the sherpas, organisers and the homoeopathy doctor who looked after us like Shiva Ganas.
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 12th November 2023
Disclaimer:
The views, opinions, and positions expressed by the authors and those providing comments on these blogs are theirs alone and do not necessarily reflect the views, opinions or positions of Mohanji, Mohanji Foundation, it’s members, employees or any other individual or entity associated with Mohanji or Mohanji Foundation. We make no representations as to accuracy, completeness, timeliness, suitability or validity of any information presented by individual authors and/or commenters on our blogs and will not be liable for any errors, omissions, or delays in this information or any losses, injuries or damages arising from its display or use.
We reserve the right to delete, edit, or alter in any manner we see fit blog entries or comments that we, in our sole discretion, deem to be obscene, offensive, defamatory, threatening, in violation of trademark, copyright or other laws, of an express commercial nature, or otherwise unacceptable.
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