Subhasree

FAREWELL, DEAREST T. R. GOPALAKRISHNAN (APPA)

Posted on June 25, 2021June 25, 2021 by Subhasree

Madhusudan Rajagopalan, India

Mohanji often says, “Life is a journey that starts with two people bringing us into the world, and ends with four people carrying us out. And in between those two points, we meet various people and undergo various experiences that make this life complete.” This frail life journey between the two and four is peppered with encounters of relationships with various flavours – family, relatives, friends, colleagues, enemies, acquaintances, and many strangers. In my time with Mohanji, I have seen relationships with almost complete strangers metamorphose into an unusually close bond. Other than them being past life soul connections, it would be hard to explain this phenomena easily.

One such personality was Mr. T. R. Gopalakrishnan, a doyen of the shipping industry, who recently succumbed to his recent ailments and passed away on 23^rd June 2021 in Chennai, India. Gopalakrishnan Appa was an amazing personality whom I had the privilege of knowing closely over the last few years, thanks to Mohanji. Through this blog, we would like to honour his memory and share insights on the deep connection between Appa and Mohanji that extended over several lifetimes.

Gopalakrishnan Appa and Mohanji – a deep bond

Gopalakrishnan Appa was a highly regarded figure in the world of shipping. He was the head of Southern Shipping Corporation, one of the leading Indian shipping companies in those times, and a much-sought advisor and consultant post retirement. A qualified lawyer and an expert in international maritime law, he served as an arbitrator for legal cases and was also venerated as a model of integrity. He travelled to teach on shipping related topics and was known to breathe life into an otherwise dull subject with intelligent use of humor, anecdotes, stories and experiences.

In 2000, Mohanji was working in the shipping industry in Dubai. One day, an ex-colleague requested Mohanji to arrange a vehicle for his boss (TRG) who was arriving from India. He was out of town and wanted to ensure that things were done right. Knowing him to be a very senior official, Mohanji offered to pick TRG up from the airport. From the airport, Mohanji took TRG to the hotel room and ensured he was comfortable. The next day, TRG had to attend some meetings. Instead of arranging a taxi, Mohanji decided to personally drive him to his meetings. Over those trips, Mohanji shared the story of his daughter Ammu’s death in a tragic accident a few months ago. TRG responded with the story of the unfortunate death of his son. In no time, a strong connection was built up between them.

After completing his business meetings, TRG told Mohanji that he wanted to buy gold jewellery. Mohanji took TRG to the people he knew at the gold souk (market) where TRG bought a big gold ring. When Mohanji dropped TRG back to the hotel room, TRG unexpectedly gifted the expensive ring he had just bought to Mohanji. When Mohanji asked why, he hugged Mohanji with great affection and told him “Even my son wouldn’t have done all that you have done for me. You ensured that I felt loved and not lonely. Please keep the ring as my memory.” Mohanji refused saying, “If I need a material object to remember you, I’m not worth it.” TRG persisted. Mohanji countered, “I will take the ring only if you allow me to gift the same ring to you as my memento to you.” When he heard this, TRG decided against it since he knew that this ring was too expensive for Mohanji to buy. This episode deeply impacted TRG.

On his return to India, he sought Mohanji’s parents’ address and travelled to the neighbouring state to visit them. He told them, “Do you know what kind of a son you have? He is not greedy, not trying to conquer the world, quite unlike the typical professional in Dubai. He needs nothing. He is the epitome of purity. He is not ordinary.”

Their strong bond continued thereon. TRG treated Mohanji like his own son and regularly kept tabs on Mohanji’s well-being and career. Being from the shipping industry, he would engage with Mohanji on this subject matter. Mohanji would visit TRG and his wife in Chennai regularly and stay with them. Mohanji remembers the memorable days they spent together. He took Mohanji to Tirupati, a revered temple town in South India, that is thronged by millions of devotees. Together, they did normal “family stuff” – joked around, watched Tamil movies (7G Rainbow Colony is one of the movies that I’ve heard they watched. They also watched a Malayalam movie called Rajamanikkam, which was directed by Mohanji’s friend Anwar Rashid), ate at restaurants, had late night ice-cream outings. One day, he commented that he had recognised Mohanji as his son from a previous lifetime. Mohanji acknowledged it and over the years, with love and reverence, fulfilled the role of a dutiful son.

My first meeting with Gopalakrishnan Appa… and thereafter

I first met Gopalakrishnan Appa on 24^th November 2015 when I visited his home with Mohanji, Devi and Mila. We had just returned from Tiruvannamalai to Chennai and had a short window of time before a satsang later that evening. Mohanji insisted that we should visit Appa at any cost. Oblivious of their connection, I had accompanied Mohanji to Appa’s home. We were greeted with great warmth and love. Aunty (Appa’s wife) related stories and showed pictures from Mohanji’s visits from the earlier years. Also, pictures of Mila from when she was a small baby. I gathered that Mohanji hadn’t visited them often in recent years. However, he had obviously been in regular touch with them. Similarly, they were keenly tracking developments in his life as well as his work around the world. It was amazing to see Mila warming up to Appa and Aunty, totally at ease in their home. She demanded her favourite food and enjoyed their pampering. It seemed like a visit to one’s family.

Despite his deep affection for Mohanji, I noticed that Appa remained poker faced with a strict demeanour all the time, other than the occasional wise crack, often at Aunty’s expense. At that point, I didn’t know how Mohanji and Appa were connected, but when I learnt about it later, the dynamics during that whole visit made total sense! While leaving, Mohanji casually invited TRG to the evening satsang. Normally, TRG would never budge out of his home or his routine, but on that day, he agreed immediately! At the satsang, Mohanji requested TRG to speak a few words – his way of honouring Appa by giving him due respect. Appa spoke spontaneously and humorously about Vedic texts, their interpretation and relevance to us in human life.

I was responsible for coordinating Appa’s to and fro travel which allowed me to spend more time with him. When we returned to his house, he invited me to his library, stacked with ancient Indian scriptures. I learnt that Appa was an ardent student of the Hindu scripturesand a Sanskrit aficionado. Daily, he would spend time in his library, poring over a scriptural text, reading each word and phrase a few times and contemplating on the depth and true meaning of the verses. Averse to the ritualistic or mechanical scriptural reading, he liked to parse each word, split the syllables, think through various interpretations and truly understand the life lessons from the text. He was learning advanced Sanskrit from a teacher to help understand the scriptures better. Despite being in his 80s, his zest for learning was inspiring. He was an ardent devotee of Lord Krishna, especially in the form of Lord Guruvayurappan (a famous temple of Lord Krishna in Kerala) and would quote shlokas (scriptural verses) at will to buttress his points.

Our first day after satsang meeting cemented my bond with him. I connected with him almost instantly and I believe vice-versa possibly because I accompanied Mohanji. We stayed in regular touch, whenever possible, either on the phone or in person meetings during my visits to my parents in Chennai. This pattern continued for many years after.

The Mohanji Home for Seniors

In late 2019, we acquired a piece of land in Tiruvannamalai (a sacred temple town in Tamil Nadu) to build the “Mohanji Home for Seniors” – a safe home for abandoned elderly people in the town especially sadhus (wandering monks), where they could live with respect and love for the rest of their lives. Mohanji decided to inaugurate the project on 29^th January 2020, on the auspicious day of Vasant Panchami and wished that a few elders close to him preside over the function, namely, his parents, Gopalakrishnan Appa and Snehajyothi Amma (an elderly lady in Tiruvannamalai who was deeply connected to Ramana Maharishi and very fond of Mohanji).

I was tasked with ensuring Appa’s presence at the function and arranging his travel there. When I informed Appa, he was thrilled to hear about the project and keen to support it. He also mentioned a deep yearning for many years to visit Tiruvannamalai. However, he was unwilling to step out of his home or undertake the journey to Tiruvannamalai. He cited various reasons – old age, his health, aunty’s health, the need for him to be there, and so on. I persisted as best as I could, but despite several phone calls, he literally stonewalled me! When I wasn’t making progress, I explained the situation to Mohanji.

Mohanji then shed light on his relationship with Appa. As Appa had revealed their connection an earlier lifetime, Mohanji shared more details that he had been a prince in waiting while Appa was the king. Despite being very fond of his son, Appa as the king could never express his deep affection or love, due to his royal position. It continued in this life as well where he would never display it visibly and keep his expression within bounds. Further, Mohanji revealed that the Mohanji Home for Seniors would be a place of nitya annadaan (daily feeding of people). By presiding over the inauguration, Appa would get the benefits of feeding people three times a day for the times to come, that would cleanse his lineage karma and substantially lighten his baggage. Mohanji was subtly fulfilling his duties as a son, thus completing his past bond with Appa.

Mohanji decided to call Appa directly. He gave Appa an ultimatum, “Either you agree to go to Tiruvannamalai or I will fly down to Chennai tomorrow to take you there with me.” It worked. Appa called me later and mentioned Mohanji’s conversation. While he was still not confident, he could not deny Mohanji’s intense wish! He said that he would travel with us and let Lord Srikrishna ensure his safety. We made the necessary arrangements for Appa’s travel and stay in Tiruvannamalai. Besides Appa and aunty, their close family friends also joined to spend 2 blissful days in Tiruvannamalai.

Over that trip, Appa understood the significance of the project and was deeply grateful for having been involved in it. Appa’s heart melted when he saw the homeless people who would be served by the project. He spoke beautifully at the inauguration and later told us that he now understood Mohanji’s insistence on his participation. He also visited the famous Arunachala temple and Ramana Maharishi’s samadhi as well as soaked in the energy of the powerhouse that is Tiruvannamalai, home to thousands of siddhas (perfected beings).

Appa, Acchan, Amma at the hotel room at Thiruvannamalai

Since then, he regularly stayed in touch with us to enquire about the project progress. By March 2020, our project plans were ready but the Covid-19 lockdown put them on hold. Appa however asked us to use the time to finish our planning. His corporate leadership skills came to the fore. He advised us to take advantage of firms hurting from the lockdown by negotiating with the vendors and buying materials early to save money. He also suggested to fix the project plan and timelines and assign a clear date for completion. He gave a few contacts for help with construction work in Tiruvannamalai and would enquire regularly about the progress. When work started in late 2020, we shared the project interim pictures and videos with Appa. He was thrilled and drew deep satisfaction that this project would soon house many helpless elders in Tiruvannamalai.

The last few months and the protective net of Mohanji Family

In early 2021, Appa’s health took a turn for the worse. When Mohanji found out, he gave one clear instruction, “Appa is family. Do everything that a son would do to take care of his father. No compromises. Do whatever it takes. Go to him like a son.” He also said to us “Do whatever you can, as if you are Mohanji”. I knew through conversations with Mohanji that Appa avoided favours and preferred to be independent. So I spoke to Kishore, our Mohanji family member from Chennai, who was the project lead for the Mohanji Home for Seniors, to discuss how we could help, and ensure that Appa saw it as support from family and not as a favour. Since Kishore had based himself in Tiruvannamalai to drive project progress, he couldn’t visit Appa personally at short notice. However, as it turned out, I happened to be in Chennai for a substantial part of Feb and March 2021 to attend to my father’s health.

When I heard about his failing health, I immediately visited Appa and Aunty without any prior warning. They were excited to see me and invited me for lunch. Aunty even commented “Madhu, we are so happy that you came. You have come here like a son.” I could feel that they were yearning for company and support. Appa was visibly weak, having just returned from the hospital a week before. After lunch, I conversed with Appa – the only topic being the Mohanji Home for Seniors project and its completion date. He expressed a desire to visit the project site to see how the building looked. I told him that we would arrange for it when his health improves.

Over the conversation, I could see that he was brightening up and somehow drawing energy from our discussions. When I entered, he was barely able to walk, even with the support of a walking stick. A couple of hours later, he walked confidently to see me out to the door and said “I am much better, don’t worry.” I also gifted him a copy of Mohanji’s latest book “Mast” and he promised to read it soon.

When I updated Mohanji about my visit, he ominously said that Appa may not have much time left, so we should take good care of him. As per Mohanji’s instructions, we connected Appa to Dr Harpreet Wasir, a renowned cardiac surgeon in Delhi and our close Mohanji family member, to discuss and advise Appa on his health. They spoke regularly and his health began to stabilise slightly.

A few weeks later, I went to visit Appa when I went to Chennai again. This time around, he was much better, evident from his presence in the library. I enquired about his health and he pointed to a picture of Lord Guruvayurappan and said it was all ordained as per His will. He said that he was almost feeling normal again, except when he didn’t drink enough water. I told him that he should drink water every 30-45 minutes. He then went on to explain his process of study. He said that he did not “read” the verses but analysed them in detail by consulting a Sanskrit grammar reference book, made notes to confirm his understanding before continuing. He said that he often went so deep into the book that he completely forget himself. So how could he remember to drink water? While happy to hear about his return to his normal mode, I still insisted that he should prioritise his health.

We started talking again about the Mohanji Home for Seniors. He went on to add, “I have known Mohan for 21 years. But never once have we ever discussed Tiruvannamalai. And then, I got connected to this project. You see, nothing happens without Lord Krishna’s will.” He again expressed a wish to see the completed building, and we agreed to arrange his travel when his health improves.

In late May, Kishore updated that Appa had been hospitalised again and his health had deteriorated. I spoke to Appa on the phone but was barely able to hear him due to his weak state. A few days later, Mohanji also spoke to Appa on the phone. Appa told Mohanji that he would like to spend some peaceful time in Tiruvannamalai and was also keen to meet Mohanji. He enquired about Mohanji’s return to India (from Europe) as he felt that his time was near. Mohanji again told us to do whatever possible from our side and said, “I want him to be happy. I want him to feel that we are all with him. That we care. That extreme love should be felt. Companionship”.

Since arranging travel looked bleak due to his health as well as the fresh lockdown in Tamil Nadu, Mohanji told us to arrange a big sized picture of Appa and get it blessed from him, so that the picture could be placed at the reception of the Mohanji Home for Seniors, as a mark of respect and belonging. Further, given that Mohanji was unlikely to return to India soon, Mohanji also asked to arrange a video call with Appa to fulfil Appa’s desire to meet Mohanji. This was arranged the very next day through Srinivas G, our Mohanji family member who visited Appa’s home to check on him. Later that evening, I spoke to Appa and Aunty and spent nearly 45 minutes on the phone with them. They were overjoyed that they could speak to Mohanji. Appa again spoke less about his health and more about the project. It was evident that the Mohanji Home for Seniors project was really the anchor that was giving him purpose. He told me, “When I get better, I really want to prostrate before you, Kishore and the others who are doing such noble work.” I responded that we would prostrate at his feet and would take him to see the project. But even as I said it, I knew that it may not really be possible. It felt like he had no real interest in living and was holding on just to see the site. I discussed with Kishore to share videos with Appa regularly so that he could feel the place and visually see things developing day by day.

The same day, Mohanji also gave us instructions to take Sai Babu udi (sacred ash), holy water from Ganga and Mansarovar to Appa and give to him regularly. From previous experiences, I knew that Mohanji’s instructions to act quickly, especially in cases of elderly people like Appa must be taken seriously. A wasted day could be a lost opportunity for life. Hence, we acted with urgency and the request was immediately executed through Usha LN, our Mohanji family member in Chennai. Though she had very little Gangajal and Mansarovar jal, she happily parted with it saying, “I can get this later. Let Appa have it now. He needs it more.” While executing Mohanji’s instructions, we once again experienced the true power of a united Mohanji family – people coordinating over the phone in various cities, local people going out of their way to share time or materials without question – working on the basis of the common understanding of the noble intent and compassion behind the purpose.

The only pending thing was to get the photo blessed from Appa. We had two challenges with this – Appa and Aunty had no good usable pictures, and no shops were open during the strict lockdown to get the framing done. We used photos from our archives which we digitally edited to make them suitable. Kishore mustered all his resources to print and frame the picture in an elegant manner within a week. By now, Appa was in the hospital and unable to speak much. But he saw the picture frame taken in by the nurse and blessed it with his eyes. He liked the photo a lot and asked for two copies for his family members too.

When we updated Mohanji, he again reiterated that Appa did not have much time left and asked us to do whatever we could to support him. We stayed in touch with his caregiver at the hospital offering support at every point. We also ensured that Appa was given the gangajal and mansarovar jal with full awareness, so he could appreciate it. Being an extremely spiritual and evolved person, he would have truly understood the significance of those steps.

A couple of days later, Kishore informed that Appa was in pain as a surgical procedure did not work out as planned. He informed that Mohanji had asked our Mai Tri practitioners to offer sessions for Appa to help his situation. As our Maitri practitioners did their sessions, it revealed more dimensions of how Mohanji was fulfilling his responsibilities. Subhasree Thottungal (from the UK) wrote about what she saw during the Mai tri session (Click here to read Subhasree’s blog) – the key message being the cleansing of lineage karma and lightening Appa’s burden as he approached the end of this life.

Mohanji also gave guided us to organise poojas and ceremonies at various temples. With Mohanji’s grace, we had arranged for poojas at various powerful temples – Lord Narasimha at Ahobilam, Sai Baba at Shirdi, Lord Murugan and Sage Bhoganathar at Palani, Mata Vaishno Devi in Jammu, Datta peethams at Gangapur, Pithapuram, Vallabhapuram, Banke Bihaari at Vrindavan amongst others.

On the morning of 23^rd June, 2021, we finally got word that Appa was no more. Our job was not yet done. Mohanji gave further instructions to conduct annadaan in Appa’s name over the next thirteen days of the customary rituals. Annadaan for various beings has been organized – fish, birds, animals as well as people at Haridwar and Tiruvannamalai.

Conclusion

A palpable sense of sadness remains after Appa’s passing. I genuinely enjoyed his company and felt it to be mutual. I remembered feeling similarly on the passing away of Vasudevan Swami (of Ganeshpuri) and Baba Ganeshananda Giri Maharaj. One less stalwart to rely on. I will miss his company, wise cracks and erudition. However, I have absolutely no regrets or guilt, for we left no stone unturned to help and support Appa and aid his onward journey, with the clear and compassionate guidance from Mohanji. In that sense, the sentiment of fulfilment and satisfaction overrides.

As I reflect back on this whole journey and the Mohanji factor in it, the key thing that has really struck me was that there are no half-measures when Mohanji takes responsibility. Everything is done to the fullest extent possible. He truly means it when he says that he treats people like his own family. Irrespective of his own schedule, there are no compromises or short cuts in delivering on his commitments. He repeatedly told us, “Do what a son would do for his father. Do as if Mohanji is doing.” In that process, he also highlighted the value of the putra dharma (duty of a son/ child) that Mohanji values above all other duties to society and even sadhana (spiritual practices)

The second thing is about the value of acting immediately. At several points, Mohanji asked us to complete certain tasks. Following through on those instructions immediately has ensured that we fulfilled all the responsibilities a son could do for his father. A lax approach could have meant an opportunity lost forever. We often hear people crying over their lost ones feeling guilt over what they would have done. In Mohanji’s world, the only time that matters is now. When we do the best we can at each moment, we set ourselves up for completion which leads to contentment. I truly realized this with Gopalakrishnan Appa’s experience.

The third take away for me is the purity of connections that come through when Mohanji entrusts tasks. I can’t quite fathom how I connected with Appa, but in that process, as I have helped and served him, I have never felt anything to be a chore, always a sense of duty with the understanding that there may be other dimensions to this relationship beyond the plainly visible. Neither does Mohanji usually offer this information nor did I seek it. But I am sure there may have been debts that I perhaps owed Gopalakrishnan Appa from a past connection. With Mohanji, here are no accidents or coincidences!

In the last 18 months of his life, Gopalakrishnan Appa’s main interest was the Mohanji Home for Seniors in Tiruvannamalai. His regal photo will grace the reception hall of the Home as reminder for times to come of his significant contribution in getting this project to life, driven by his abiding desire to see many people served and fed at the Home. Nothing could be more apt to honour his memory.

Fond farewell, Appa. Please shower your blessings on us to follow in your glorious footsteps of achievement, integrity, purpose, commitment and selfless service. May Mohanji and the other Mohanji (your favourite Lord Guruvayurappan – Mohan, the enchanter is one of Lord Krishna’s names) take good care of you in the beyond.

|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||

Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 25^thJune 2021

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Final Journey of Appa, Mr T R Gopalakrishnan

Posted on June 25, 2021 by Subhasree

Subhasree Thottungal, London

On the 18th of June, I received a message from Kishore that Mohanji has asked to do Mai-Tri for Mr Gopalakrishnan, who was critically ill and undergoing unbearable pain while in the hospital.

I understood, if Mohanji has given direct instruction, it must be really important and urgent. Hence I did the Mai-Tri session immediately.

I didn’t know much about Mr Gopalakrishnan. However, Kishore mentioned that Mohanji respects and loves him a lot and calls him Appa (means Father in Tamil).

During the Mai-Tri session, I had the vision that truly amazed me; it blew my mind.

I saw all his forefathers in his heart centre, getting Mohanji’s golden light and then dissolving. The pain that Appa was experiencing was the collective pain of his forefathers, which had kept some of them still bound, not attaining complete release. Appa had come forward to take that pain, and with Mohanji’s grace, all of them were merging into light.

I understood that Mohanji allowed Appa to be an instrument for the liberation of his forefathers in his journey towards the eternal light. I had no doubt that Mohanji will take him to light whenever he exits, while in this process, each of his forefathers was also being released to light. One by one, each one!

After I completed the session, I said to myself, “How amazing is that!” Mohanji guided me during the session to continue his Mai-Tri, and I discussed with Kishore, and we listed out five different Mai-Tri Practitioners to do Mai-Tri every day for five days.

After the session, I shared this vision with Mohanji. Of course, Mohanji allowed me to witness this; he knows everything, but telling him was my expression of gratitude for this beautiful opportunity to witness another of his grand actions.

When I wrote to Mohanji and described my vision to him, he said, “Indeed.” As he had already guided during the session, verbally also, he advised continuing the healing for a few days.

Mohanji also wrote to me more about Appa, which really took me by surprise and then the vision became even clearer. So let me narrate Mohanji’s words here.

“He was my father in another life. He was a King, and I was the Prince in waiting in that life. I was quite disinterested in having to rule but had to take it on when he died. He loved me a lot but, being the King, was very reserved and couldn’t express his love for me. In this life, ever since he met me, he was showering me with love, and he is an evolved man. He knows about our past life together; I am completing a son’s responsibility in this life. He has no children. His only son died when he was a student.”

This explanation made it very clear why through this phase of Appa’s journey, Mohanji was actually allowing his entire lineage, ancestors to be released! Mohanji was performing his duty of a son!

After that, the daily healings continued.

Today, on 23rd June, exactly on the 5th day of healing, I received a message from Kishore, same time in the morning, that Appa has moved on to eternal lights. At that moment, I witnessed a glimpse of King Dashrath and Shree Ram! (The epitome of love between a father and son).

I saw Mohanji holding Appa’s hand and taking him to complete brightness!

In less than seven days, Appa had accomplished closure of more than seven lifetimes. Only through Mohanji’s grace!

As a mere Mai-Tri instrument, I witnessed this beautiful journey of final release and the eternal bond of a loving father and dutiful son.

May Appa, Mr Gopalakrishnan’s soul, rest in peace in the embrace of the pure and bright light. Thank you, Mohanji, for your grace and blessing to experience yet another amazing truth of life through the beautiful and powerful journey of Mai-Tri.

|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||

Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 25^thJune 2021

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Mohanji is our beloved Parabrahma

Posted on May 20, 2021May 21, 2021 by Subhasree

by Sandra Sankar, South Africa

A few years ago, Mohanji Canada hosted Devi Mohan at their Retreat. Mohanji Datta Tapovan Ashram, Canada, is set on a magnificent property amidst a wonderous sprawling natural landscape. As the first bhakta, Devi Mohan is such a pure instrument of Mohanji’s energy; and when Deviji dances, Shakti Maa dances; hence everyone was caught up in the rising frequencies of bliss.

During the dancing and singing of our beautiful Canadian bhaktas, which I was following closely, everyone called out to our Acharya Sanjay Mohanji to sing one of his beautiful songs dedicated to Mohanji. He and his brother had recorded one earlier that year.

He started singing “Parabrahma Swaroopa Mohanji, Parabrahma Swaroopa Mohanji, Mohanji, Mohanji, Mohanji, Mohanji…” and just like that, I slipped into bhaav state. I was lost in absolute love for Mohanji.

Tears rolled off my cheeks, but I did not notice. My body vibrated with a rising crescendo of energy. I was lost, lost in bliss. I sang and danced lost in the Rasa Lila of bhaav state. Bliss state. Mohanji, Mohanji, Mohanji …

It was after that experience that I understood the true significance of Parabrahma Swaroopa Mohanji. Parabrahma means Supreme Consciousness. Mohanji is found in every atom; he is here and everywhere. Mohanji is my very life-breath.

Parabrahma is a form of adoration and blissful recognition of who Mohanji really is – ‘Parabrahma Swaroopa Mohanji.’

It is a spontaneous expression of bhaav. It is a form of unconditional love. Sometimes when I write, when inspired by Mohanji, it is easy to just get carried away. The words just roll off the keyboard without any preparation or planning. Mohanji is a song that plays non-stop in my head no matter what I am doing. Chanting just takes my breath away.

Hence, from that point in time, my heart told me that this was the only way to address Mohanji in future. When I write ‘our beloved Parabrahma’ in social media posts, please know it is from a state of absolute bhakti for the ultimate ‘Parabrahma Swaroopa Mohanji.’ Simple. Pure and freely expressed.

Don’t we all have our own expressions of love for Mohanji? Father (Mohanji) always gently reminds us to BE ourselves. Just BE without the need to imitate, impress or direct others. For it is in our BEINGNESS that we enter the GOLDEN AGE!

When I had first joined the South African Mohanji family, we went to the Mohanji Ladysmith Retreat in KwaZulu Natal. The loving warmth and purity of the Mohanji Ladysmith bhaktas allowed me to experience my first state of bliss. The two shining souls we all know from Ladysmith are our beloved Lakshmi Mohan Ananda and Maheswari Mohanji.

Lakshmi had kept playing Lord Shiva’s Maha-mantra “Aum tryambakam yajaamahe sugandhim pushtivardhanam…” From the first moment I had heard the chant, explosive waves of rapture started building up in me. All I know was that I danced and/or floated to our beloved Parabrahma’s photograph on the stage and sang the end part of the song directly to him.

It was as if his photograph had come alive. I could see Mohanji laughing and smiling back at me.

In contrast to this world of endless limitations of the mind, the bhaav one feels is so natural, spontaneous and free. It is almost like I know my beloved Parabrahma Swaroopa Mohanji so well, from numerous other lifetimes. Although I recognise and love all Masters, I know irrefutably that I came to meet my beloved Parabrahma Swaroopa Mohanji in this life.

The Mohanji Peace Centres, Shirdi Temples and Mohanji Centers of Benevolence worldwide are going to change our lives forever. For the first time, we will be able to join like-minded people all over the world in peace and unconditional love. This is our ultimate expression of BEINGNESS. Mohanji came for this reason. Let us not waste a moment to be with him even though he is always with us in consciousness.

At your lotus feet beloved Parabrahma Swaroopa Mohanji!

|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI ||

Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 20^thMay 2021

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Blessings Unlimited

Posted on August 23, 2020 by Subhasree

Sreeja Ranjit, Ethiopia

“You didn’t come to me, I came to you. That is how much love I have for my people.” Mohanji

Whenever I read or remember this quote, I am overwhelmed with gratitude and have tears flowing down my cheeks. I come from a family in Kerala, India, where both my parents and in-laws do not believe in following a Guru’s teachings. So even though I was very religious and used to visit temples frequently, I never believed that a Guru would walk into my life and change it forever.

I always had the desire to do social service, charity work, and to help people who were in need, but was always skeptical because I did not know if it was reaching the right hands most of the time when money was donated. I never used to feel happy because of the above reason. I was working back then and did not know any organisation to go all out and to be among people to help directly.

Then Mohanji came into my life in February 2017, and even though initially it was through blogs and videos (I had finished watching all his videos and read all the blogs before I physically met him), the connection was already strong by the time I met him in January 2018, in a satsang in Thrissur, Kerala. I still remember I was waiting for the satsang from December onwards and was so excited about meeting my Guru for the
first time. My soul was rejoicing and my heart was so expanded in happiness as if I had found a treasure for which I had been waiting many lifetimes. I remember praying nothing should go wrong and that I should reach Thrissur from Cochin on time. Needless to say, my experience there was so profound all throughout the satsang.

From the time I met Mohanji, he has fulfilled all the true desires I had sincerely wished for. It was during the 2018 Kerala floods that I joined Ammucare, and we as a team could reach out directly to many needy people in distress and I was feeling so happy because that innermost desire to serve was getting fulfilled. It is only his grace and experience from Ammucare that helped me to start doing the ACT activities here in Ethiopia from the very first week we landed here. People here warned us saying Ethiopia is not safe but I was not a bit scared as Mohanji had assured us that he is always with us and was taking care of us. He has always said,

“When you start taking responsibility for the well-being of the world, the world takes responsibility for your well-being too. Life is always reciprocal in kindness.”

There had been a phase just before we moved to Ethiopia when I was completely down due to an incident and I was constantly praying to Mohanji to guide me so that I could accept the situation with awareness and let it go. I was not able to forget the incident and every morning I was waking up with a heavy heart as I was more or less free at that time as my husband had just left for Ethiopia and we were to move there in a few months’ time. As usual, Mohanji always listens and one day, a week later, I got a request to write on the Mohanji Consciousness page. I was not sure if it was my cup of tea but I agreed as I felt I will be more close to my beloved Guru’s consciousness. I started writing and within 2 days the weight of the incident started reducing and within a week I forgot all about it even though it had been a serious incident of betrayal which had broken me down completely. I still feel it was a miracle that had shifted my mind from it. I became my normal self again in a few weeks’ time and it had lost its importance in my life. Without any struggle from my side or any self-talk, I had accepted the incident even without my conscious knowledge as a part of my karma and moved on.

Now, I’m coming to the present incident that happened recently during the 41 days of PoP sadhana. I love to do the Power of Purity meditation as it makes me feel so blessed and rejuvenated. Moving to a new country had forced me to do the meditation alone. Since I knew the importance of group energy during meditation for blockage clearings, I had an ardent desire for PoP to be conducted online as a group. When I enquired back then in December 2019 before the Covid-19 situation, I came to know it was not possible to do online sessions. Last month in June 2020, suddenly one day, I came to know that 41 days of PoP sadhana was going to be done online and my joy knew no bounds. Another desire in my heart was thus fulfilled in a few months’ time. Immense gratitude to Mohanji for making this impossible thing possible.

Registered with South Africa Mohanji Acharyas, my sadhana began beautifully. About 15 days into the meditation, I started getting severe headaches. The migraine was so bad that even with migraine painkillers like Ibuprofen, it would not go away. It would fade for some time, and come back with more severity. After each meditation, my third eye would throb and the headaches became unbearable.

Since it was getting impossible to bear the pain daily, I asked Mai-Tri practitioner Savithri Vasudevan for a Mai-Tri session. After the session, she told me a lot of blockages across lifetimes were getting cleared through the body. She told me once the blockages are cleared, I will be fine. But I was finding it so difficult to get up in the morning for the EBC routine with the head throbbing badly. 10 days continued this way and since it was not getting any better, I asked her for another Mai-Tri session. She said it is not required and later told me that Mohanji had asked her to work together with Mohanji Acharya Preeti Duggal. Preetiji, immediately messaged me saying that I should take Baba’s Udi in water till the headaches subside.

I did not have Baba’s Udi with me but have read many experiences of devotees in the Sai Satcharitra that it is the faith and devotion that matters. So I chanted Baba’s Gayatri 9 times, and drank the water mixed with the Udi I had with me. I got engrossed in my work and later within an hour or so found that my continuous headache of 10 days had reduced considerably. I was feeling very happy but decided I would continue to
take the Udi every day till I recovered completely. The next day, I got up and found my headache had reduced further and it was only like a very feeble heaviness in my head. Within 2 days, I was completely fine and my headaches had disappeared. They have never returned after that day and I completed my 41 days of meditation successfully. The miraculous power of Baba’s Udi cannot be explained in words. It was Mohanji who introduced Sai Baba to me and told me the power of Udi when my son had been sick. I have known all great Masters of the tradition only through Mohanji. I also started reading the Sai Satcharitra every Thursday. It was only with Mohanji’s and Baba’s grace that we could visit Shirdi for the first time last year.

I feel so grateful for all the blessings and grace that has been showered on me and my family and my only wish now is to always remain surrendered to Mohanji and the Masters of the Tradition so that I can move steadfastly on the spiritual path. Koti koti pranams to the lotus feet of Para Brahma Swaroop Mohanji.

|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||

Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 23^rdAugust 2020

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Being Unconditional

Posted on August 18, 2020August 18, 2020 by Subhasree

Subhasree, London

Gratitude in Action!

Today (18th Aug 2020) is the day for expressing gratitude for our Guru through actions.

Well, how can I express my gratitude to my eternal Guru, Mohanji? In which actions? I asked this question to myself this morning. My every breath, my every thought, my every action is his! So what can I do for him? What does he even need from me?

Well, whenever I have asked Mohanji, “How can I serve you,” he always says only one statement,

“Serve the world.”

Though it’s the truth that even serving the world is made possible only because of him, he is the doer, he does it! I do not serve, He serves the world!

So what’s left for me to do then? Only thing I can do maybe. To share some gems of wisdom that I get from him, not by lecture but through real-life experiences that he shows me through his own living example. Every time I have been around Mohanji, in his physical presence, I have observed many such gems of wisdom that he keeps giving us.

Let me share a couple more examples through which he has taught me of ‘Being Unconditional.’ In this write-up, I will not use the names of the real persons as we do not want to cause any kind of disrespect to anyone.

This is almost 2 years back. Mohanji and Deviji were invited to a global event of a spiritual congregation; where there were many other spiritual leaders present too. Along with a few other people from Mohanji family, I was very fortunate to be there too and was serving him as one of his assistants at that time.

While from mornings to late evenings were packed with many events, speeches by other leaders etc., I was observing Mohanji who was leaving a positive mark in everyone’s mind through his behaviour and treatment to others.

While most people had their own groups following around, maintaining distance, having their boundaries (to maintain some status maybe!) even during the social gathering time, Mohanji made sure that he meets and greets everyone politely, with a smile, talking to them very compassionately. Most of the time, he would even invite others to sit with him and offer a cup of coffee or so. During meal times, Mohanji would always invite others to sit next to him. Such a gesture often surprised many of the delegates. In a very impersonal environment, Mohanji was treating everyone with kindness and love as if he was the host of the event.

Also, it was very noticeable that Mohanji would always talk to the other leaders with ultimate respect and humility. There wouldn’t be a drop of ego or race to receive attention! In fact, there is one thing I noticed in this hi-profile spiritual congregation that surprised me. Many other so-called top spiritual leaders were always busy in grabbing the attention and ensuring that they had the spotlight on them, sometimes even pushing their way to the front!

Mohanji kept himself far away from this race. As simple as when there were photos taken, while some would ensure that they stand right in front or centre and get all the visibility, Mohanji will quietly slip to the row in the back!

Every single move from Mohanji was displaying his true nature of calmness, kindness, no judging and giving respect irrespective of anyone’s status and position! Trust me; this wasn’t that easily visible in other so-called spiritual leaders!

But what happened towards the end and how Mohanji again showed his humility, his true nature of unconditional love just totally blew me off!

There were a couple of very respectable leaders who had ensured that they get the spotlights on them in every session, in every platform and nearly made it look like as if the entire event was only possible because of them! Pardon me for saying this, but at one point, I couldn’t stop being annoyed when they deliberately kept ignoring Mohanji and even treated Mohanji as if he was some ordinary guy. There have been situations when they had even turned their faces the other side when Deviji sat next to them!

Few other instances like this were making their intention very clear of ignoring the presence of Mohanji and putting Mohanji’s stature completely down so that they could be seen higher! This hypocritical behaviour was making us very uncomfortable. How do we tolerate such insults to our Guru?

But when we expressed this to Mohanji that time, Mohanji would calmly tell us to ignore and stick to our principle of unconditional love, no expectation from anyone and to be with the attitude of gratitude. It was not easy to digest how Mohanji was so easily being indifferent to such insults to himself! The cherry on the top situation came on the last day!

We all had to travel to our next destination which was a drive for 2 hours. While we were just about to go out, the so-called special guests approached Mohanji directly asking for a lift for two of them! All these days, they hardly had a proper conversation or even exchanged a smile with Mohanji!

When I heard them asking Mohanji about this lift, I nearly shouted out loud “No way!” But Mohanji took us all by surprise in welcoming them.

Trust me, it took me some time to understand and accept what Mohanji just said. I was annoyed with Mohanji and was telling him off in my head, “Why?” I am sure Mohanji didn’t take much time to read my thoughts, which also must have been very clear on my face too!

He said very calmly to us,

“What’s our tradition? Unconditional love, right? It doesn’t matter who treats us in which way. We will always show our true nature in every circumstance, which is to be unconditional love. If someone asks me for help, I cannot say no. Saying no is not in our tradition, even if it puts me in trouble. It doesn’t matter.”

I was still annoyed and didn’t want to understand why Mohanji has to be so nice. But I was quiet on top. It wasn’t still over for me yet. The time came when they had to leave in the car. It wasn’t a very big car and it had to carry 4 passengers apart from the driver! That means 3 people to sit in the back seat. In normal circumstances, Mohanji would have sat in the front and just Deviji and maybe one more person would have sat in the back. Now with the two guests coming, can you imagine, Mohanji offered the front seat to one of the guests! And he quietly came and sat in the back seat. 2 hour long drive, cramped with 3 people in the back seat of a not very big car was no way a comfort. When I saw Mohanji sitting in the back seat, that was the end of my patience. My anger was bursting out as tears which I was trying hard to hide. Deviji was sitting in the middle seat, with her long legs folded and sitting not very comfortably either.

After they left, the rest of us ordered a cab and guess what, for the 3 of us, we received a huge 9 seater car! During the 2 hour journey in that 9 seater luxury car, I was just feeling so sad, imagining the condition in which Mohanji and Deviji went in the other car and here we are going luxuriously! This was of course yet another evidence of compassionate Mohanji who always makes sure that his people are comfortable. Whether he got the right food or not, we were fed well. Whether he travelled comfortably or not, we were sent a luxury car without any extra cost or specific ask!

I couldn’t stop questioning though, why did Mohanji accept to give them a lift in his car and had to compromise in his comfort!

Well finally, when we met again at our next destination, Mohanji came out of the car, after dropping the guests at their destination (and in fact after treating them with a nice vegan lunch), as if he wasn’t in any kind of discomfort what so ever.

It was so funny to hide our emotions and Mohanji just handled our bursting emotions in such an easy way. He told us how he kept joking, making the guests laugh all the way during the journey. Mohanji, in his usual jovial way even teased Barbara (who was driving the car), saying that she was so annoyed that she, in fact, wanted to drop them off at a train station. But Mohanji ensured that they were taken right till the end gate!

While Mohanji was telling all this in such a light and funny way, even we couldn’t stop laughing. Finally, through that laughter, the heaviness and anger or whatever feelings I had inside, all came out. And instead, my heart was filled with appreciation for Mohanji, to see how he demonstrated being truly unconditional. No matter who treats us in what way, we exhibit our true nature! It took me quite some time to overcome my turbulent emotions, but I understood through the example that Mohanji showed himself, the stability of the foundation on which Mohanji operates on.

A couple of days back, Mohanji again demonstrated a similar example of unconditional nature and that brought this memory back to me.

Once again, a high profile leader needing some help sent a generic message out to Mohanji, with no personal mention. This was kind of a public note probably he had sent out to loads of other people, as I had received it from another source too. Sending a public note and sending it to Mohanji, who was at one point like a close friend to him, without even personal addressing, didn’t seem very respectful in my eyes. Especially when you are seeking help, at least a personal note is a minimum curtesy, I would think.

My mind said when such an impersonal public note comes; do I need to even attend to it? Well, that’s how ordinary people like me will react. Once again, Mohanji is Mohanji. He took me by surprise. While I was almost convinced to ignore this particular request, Mohanji said, “Go ahead, and do help if you can, regardless of how the request came. We will do our job, unconditionally helping whenever we can.” Within a few moments, I did what I needed to.

My head bowed down with respect and my heart filled up with appreciation and a proud feeling of my Guru Mohanji, who reminded me yet again, “Our tradition is about unconditional love.”

Mohanji, truly is unconditional. Pranams to my Guru who shows us the right path every time, in all circumstances. Thank you Mohanji. Koti pranams at your lotus feet.

Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 18^thAugust 2020

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TRUTH AS IT IS

Posted on April 15, 2020April 15, 2020 by Subhasree

By Subhasree, London

During the coronavirus pandemic, inspired by Mohanji’s call for action, the UK family also came together and started doing online programmes from morning till night. We have had sessions of chanting starting from 6 am to sessions of book reading, meditations, online Mai-Tri, special devotional songs etc.

During these sessions, Mohanji’s presence is often felt by the person who is conducting, as well as those who are viewing. Sometimes Mohanji makes us feel his presence even beyond energetically, many times showing physical signals too.

It’s very easy to discard such signals as imagination or just mere coincidences. For someone, who needs the assurance of Mohanji’s presence, he shows it. Such a signal becomes special for us, because we notice this signal on a specific day, or during a specific session, but not all the time. These signals are not imaginary. These are very much true to show Mohanji’s presence without presence.

Let me narrate a few experiences that we have observed in the last few days.

Last week, on 7th April, during Hanuman Jayanti, Harish and I were chanting the Maha Mrityunjaya Mantra. We were live on Facebook.

(https://www.facebook.com/mohanjiuk/videos/685691758915636/)

As we finished chanting, few of the viewers sent some snapshots from this chanting session, where Mohanji’s photo looked exactly like Hanumanji. No doubt, no coincidence, no imagination.

Mohanji_Hanuman pic — Mohanji’s mouth area appearing like Hanumanji’s

We understood Mohanji’s kindness and compassion. It was his way of showing his presence in a form that someone could connect to. It was such a blessing for all of us to feel the presence of Hanumanji, the Consciousness of Hanuman through Mohanji, through Mohanji’s Consciousness on that occasion.

After all, Para Brahma is one, and only one.

On 13th April, we had a special event, continuous chanting for 12 hours, starting at 6 am. Chai was doing the chanting at that time. While she was about to start, she had some technical issues. She really needed help, and called out to Mohanji, “Please be with me Mohanji.” Of course, her session went on well. When she finished her session (https://www.facebook.com/chailaisiong/videos/10213718080261299/), she noticed the wick of the candle that was in front of Mohanji’s photo showing a clear ‘M’ shape. She realised it was Mohanji showing her the evidence that indeed he was with her.

Then on 14th April, Harish was chanting at 6 am. After his chanting, Pravin bhai messaged saying that he noticed a bright light at the center of Mohanji’s forehead on the photo.

Mohanji_thirdeye light — Bright light in Mohanji’s third eye area

After this message, we contemplated on all these experiences.

I thought this might be the reflection of the ceiling light. We have many spotlights on our ceiling and most of the time we can see those multiple lights as multiple dots over the photo. However today, how come just one was there and exactly on the 3rd eye? Where were the other dots, as all the lights were on!

That made me realise, for someone who needs that assurance of Mohanji’s presence, he shows it.

May be Pravin bhai (the viewer who notified us about this special appearance on the photo), needed some assurance that morning and Mohanji made his presence felt.

When I was talking to Pravin bhai later, he further mentioned that, usually in the morning he doesn’t watch FB online sessions. But when he woke up this morning and looked at his phone, the FB session opened up without any notification. Hence he started watching and noticed this dot. He also mentioned that this dot was expanding at times, it was not static. He even showed this to his wife.

Then he mentioned that yesterday during the 12 hour chanting, when he was chanting the Shiva Mantra, he was feeling Mohanji very much and thought in his mind, is Mohanji really listening to his chanting?

So after seeing this dynamic dot on Mohanji’s third eye on this photo, and the way he was made to see this session, he felt it was surely Mohanji giving him darshan and showing that he was pleased with Pravin bhai’s chanting yesterday.

After listening to this detailed account from Pravin bhai, I was sure of my understanding that even though Mohanji is always with us, he shows such symbols at specific instances to show physical evidence to the person.

Just as he did yesterday for Chai too, she was praying to Mohanji to be with her and he showed her his presence through the candle!

Whether it is the ceiling light reflections or a candle, these real material things show something beyond the material items! The true reality beyond the physical!

I was convinced, this is not imagination. This is very much true.

Truth as it IS!

Because this is Mohanji’s response to the love and call of his devotees.

|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||

Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 15^thApril 2020

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From self-hate to self-acceptance

Posted on August 8, 2019 by Subhasree

By Nikolina Dragojević, Serbia

It was my fifth year at the Bosnian Pyramids with Mohanji. Just like every other program with Mohanji (and being on this path), a lot of acceptance and flexibility is required to pull off the logistics… 100+ participants, 10+ locations, unpredictable weather and our flexibility being tested.

One nice morning, I woke up with my throat completely closed. ‘Closed’ meaning I couldn’t swallow anything: food, water, not even my saliva. I wasn’t surprised as I have been struggling with my throat for many years already and this has happened before, 3 years ago, at the Bosnian Pyramids as well.

That year in 2016, I managed to get through the entire 5-day program only with the IV (intravenous) therapy – no food/water/supplements. My energy was high, my mood was great like nothing was happening, I managed to climb all the pyramids with no struggle. What would be the usual reaction to that? Impossible.

But, ‘impossible’ does not exist in the dictionary of Mohanji’s Path.

This 2019, the same thing happened in the middle of the program. I just woke up one day and couldn’t swallow. Not surprised at all, because I was aware of some internal battles happening that might cause this.

I went for 2 days without food and water before we decided it was time to get IV therapy and ask Mohanji what to do.

I knew what the trigger was. A few days before the Bosnian Pyramids program, I was in a situation where I felt like I didn’t do any good, I failed, I wasn’t good enough, I was misunderstood, not accepted for who I was, all sorts of insecurities were coming to the surface.

As advised by Mohanji, we called Zoran, an amazing man and a great kinesiologist from Sarajevo, who did the treatment and told me things that were lying deep inside me causing this reaction.

The following morning it was time to decide if I should continue travelling with Mohanji and go to Slovenia, as the team there needed support for the upcoming program, or if I should go back home to Serbia.

Going to Slovenia was risky as there was no one to give me IV and I didn’t have insurance. Plus it’s a very long journey of more than 8 hours and I hadn’t eaten for 4 days… but I would travel with Mohanji.

When we asked Him what to do, He insisted that it was up to me and how my body felt.

“You should not suffer; you should do what’s natural to you.”

(Just the night before Zoran and I had discussed how indecisive I was, and here I was in a position to make a big decision. )

But Mohanji also gave me the biggest lecture and so much clarity as to why this was happening. The situation mentioned earlier was just a trigger. But the cause lay much deeper. My self-hate and lack of self-acceptance were causing this. I was punishing my body and denying food and water to my body, not taking care of myself. Self-criticizing, self-judging, self-hating. On the opposite side is self-acceptance.

Mohanji will not interfere with my karmic constitution, but He is giving me a platform which I can use to change that. Now. Self-acceptance. Stop with criticizing, comparing, judging myself and others. We all have our strengths and weaknesses. I just need to make one conscious decision. Self-acceptance.

When we have accepted ourselves, life becomes purposeful. We become Purpose. Power.

My eyes were full of tears. Every single word was hitting hard and straight in the centre. He is giving a platform, He is giving energy, He is empowering us. But we need to take that one step.

How often do you meet someone who is straight to the point, so honest, open and direct? And giving you just what you need at that point. Probably more than what we are even aware of and able to understand. Will we ever be able to understand?

I had a big urge to go to Slovenia but now I wasn’t sure if I was being masochistic (and choosing to suffer) or I really should go. With a little push by lovely friends, I decided to have more faith, surrender, and go to Slovenia.

With a hidden smile on His face when Mohanji said, “Very good” I knew; whatever happened, it was going to be okay.

Devi was sitting in the car seat next to me, just in case, I needed Mai-Tri session on the way. Somewhere halfway, I started feeling nausea and weakness. Devi started with Mai-Tri and I was feeling worse by the second. Nausea was getting stronger and stronger.

I used to constantly wonder how I would vomit with this tight throat and oesophagus, was it even possible, would I choke… And here I was, in the car, on the way to Slovenia, with a completely closed throat and a strong urge to vomit. With so much pain and not being able to breathe properly, thoughts of panic started coming up. At that moment, I was just telling myself ‘But He is sitting in front of you, what could happen to you?’ I was getting calmer, started vomiting and all of a sudden, the pain was gone. We took a quick break at the petrol station and there was me wondering if I could vomit which also meant that I could swallow as well, right? And yes, I could. 🙂 My throat opened up and I could have a cup of tea after 4 days of being without food and water. What a blessing!

It’s not just that He is there holding our hand all the way, helping us, guiding us, but He is there to empower us to deal with all our insecurities and fears.

I know there is still a long way for me to go. I could feel a lot of blockages still in my body, in my throat.

I could swallow but not nearly as well as before the trip to Bosnia.

I went back home and started contemplating on everything He told me in Bosnia.

‘Self-acceptance. More positivity. No judging. No criticizing. No comparing. Take care of yourself so that you can give unconditionally to others.’

All my non-acceptance and self-hate peaked the moment I was told I won’t be able to go to Kailash.

Every single negative thought that was there come to the surface. Every single one.

‘I’m not worth it, I’m not good enough. I’m not doing enough. I don’t even belong to this Path. Why am I here? What for? Do I need all of this in my life? What’s the purpose?’ I started comparing myself to others. I started feeling resentment towards some close people from the team. Why was I even given the hope that there was a chance for me to go?

I had a meeting that I needed to attend at that time and I was on edge, not wanting to pick up the call. Why? Why would I do this? I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want it.

Tears were running down my face as never before. Negative thoughts were suffocating me. I cried uncontrollably and was overwhelmed by sadness. I could never have imagined I would react in this way. I couldn’t believe what was happening.

But one thing in me was strong – awareness. I could feel and differentiate the negative thoughts that were mine and those negative thoughts that were coming from outside. I had the awareness that all those comparisons and resentment wasn’t mine. And I was able to discard it. I was aware that this shall pass as well. I had the awareness that there was a bigger picture to all this. I had the awareness that this was a big cleansing; a big test for me.

I managed to get up, take the call, complete the meeting as though nothing had happened. Then went back to bed to cry.

The next day I woke up feeling a little sad but much better. I had a Mai-Tri session with Milica. There was so much clarity. I felt so much positivity. I felt so much lighter. Like something big had fallen off my shoulders. I knew what I had to do. Just to have faith and keep moving, keep walking, accepting myself.

That night I woke up with the feeling I have something in my mouth. I thought it was the homoeopathic medicine that I had taken before going to bed. But when I took it out, it was a stapler pin! Metal stapler pin. I was shocked. I remember very well brushing my teeth before bed, drinking water, taking homoeopathic medicine. There was no way this could appear in my mouth from some food.

My first thought was ‘Oh my God what would have happened if this went through my throat?’

I started feeling grateful to Mohanji for always taking care of me and being there for me.

The following day when Milica spoke, I was told that it was a huge cleansing, some heavy energies were released and that was why the pin had appeared in my mouth.

Along with that big sign, that huge blockages were being removed, there were little signs as well that showed me I was trying, I was doing something for myself, I was taking that one step forward. I started drinking more water, and everyone who knows me knows that I would never drink, even 1l of water in 2-3 days. I stopped eating sugar, and everyone knows I’m the biggest sugar addict. I just adore chocolate!

And the biggest shock of all, I signed up for yoga classes. In February 2019 during HSTY Teacher Training, the team was unable to convince me to do even 5 minutes of yoga in 10 days. And here I was starting yoga classes.

It was always clear to me that being with Mohanji means fire. It’s always challenging, pushing the mind’s boundaries. But despite the tough times, I remain here because I know why I’m here. He gives strength, He gives awareness. He empowers us to go through ups and downs to (re-) discover the higher Self. He provides the possibilities and platforms for us to progress in life, to serve, to clear our garbage, to develop what we need and drop off what we don’t need, to grow.

He gives us everything we need, at the given moment, as per our capacity, without us asking for anything, even though we might not understand at that point.

Sometimes it might not be easy, especially when tough situations happen. But I remain here, despite all the challenges.

It is up to us to use this opportunity in the best possible way.

|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||

Compiled, Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 8^thAugust 2019

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Yatra with Mohanji

Posted on July 16, 2019July 16, 2019 by Subhasree

By Ulla, Denmark

Yatra with Mohanji – a song of gratitude offered to my dear Mohanji, on this blessed occasion of Guru Poornima, 16th July 2019.

The video for this song prepared by dear Neelu, here.

About a year ago I was visiting the Somaskanda Ashram in the Swiss Alps. Mohanji had participated in the inauguration of the Temple Murtis there in the previous year.

Having a dinner conversation with two of the Brothers, we talked about Mohanji, whom none of us had the opportunity to meet yet. Until then I had only read a few of His blogs but never thought of meeting Him. Now I felt a growing urge to connect with Mohanji, to see Him in person. For the rest of my stay in the Ashram, every day at every puja, I would see Mohanji standing in the Gopurum next to the Somaskanda Murti which consists of a huge Lingam and three Naags. First I thought it was an act of my imagination, but I felt a connection was being established.

When I asked how I could meet Mohanji, people said: “Don’t worry, just wait until next Summer, then He will probably visit the UK again.” But I felt there was no time to waste, that I was not going to sit and wait for things to happen. That is why I went to India for a retreat with Mohanji in Rishikesh. That was the beginning of a journey beyond my imagination.

At the retreat, I met a part of the Mohanji community from around the world, but one thing they had in common was that they all seemed very authentic, natural, loving and unassuming.

Was it the satsangs, the Shaktipat or the mere presence of a Master? I am not able to say what happened, but my life has changed drastically. A lot of stuff has fallen away, relationships, people, fears and anxieties. But, so many blessings have followed in the form of awareness, strong sense of purpose, love and connection to Mohanji, and to the Mohanji global family.

My wish is to share His gift of consciousness, love, and awareness with all the people I meet. On the day of Guru Poornima, we celebrate our connection to the Master. It is my humble wish that this music may become a means for us to always remember you Mohanji, always surrender everything at your feet and realize that we are inseparable.

I have never composed a song before. Since I uttered my wish to learn to compose music, things took shape at rocket speed. Two weeks ago one morning, words came to me and a poem happened, and in the afternoon the melody came. The next day I went to a friend’s house where we put some chords together and she told me about a friend hers, who has a recording studio in his flat. A few people have been involved, some came by and dropped out again due to the deadline and other people replaced them, but the doors remained always open.

So fasten your seat belts when Mohanji is behind the wheel. This shows His efficient manner of getting things done.

Please click below to hear the song.

The process of making this song has been such pure bliss. Thank you for making it possible, dear Mohanji.
Love you always
Ulla

|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||

Compiled, Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 16^th July 2019

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The views, opinions and positions expressed by the authors and those providing comments on these blogs are theirs alone, and do not necessarily reflect the views, opinions or positions of Mohanji, Mohanji Foundation, it’s members, employees or any other individual or entity associated with Mohanji or Mohanji Foundation. We make no representations as to accuracy, completeness, timeliness, suitability or validity of any information presented by individual authors and/or commenters on our blogs and will not be liable for any errors, omissions, or delays in this information or any losses, injuries or damages arising from its display or use.

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The truth beyond revelations

Posted on May 9, 2019March 4, 2020 by Subhasree

Subhasree Thottungal, UK
May 2019

As I was sitting in our ‘Mohanji room’ and looking at the altar, I thought, I should bring home a Datta idol. Sometime later, I saw photos of Mohanji’s home in Bangalore and saw Mahavatar Babaji’s idol in those photos. I had seen this before too. However, this time suddenly I asked myself, why have I never felt inclined to have Babaji’s idol in my altar? Well, with time, I just forgot about this thought.

VTM_8_BlrAshram_hall — Altar in Bangalore Ashram

Just a few months back, in August, just two days before Mohanji’s visit to London, I had a really amazing, unbelievable experience regarding Mahavtar Babaji. I had written this story and published it in Mohanji’s chronicles – “Stone to crystal”

The story was about the expansion beyond my body that I had experienced after reading Mohanji’s written blogs on Mahavatar Babaji.

Anyway, a few days later, suddenly during an informal discussion, I was asked,

“For a complete stranger, what age Mohanji would look like?”

Immediately His image flashed as if He was standing in front of me. This was happening instantly. I spontaneously said 40, or even may be between 35 to 40. Then something just made me write ‘Mohanji is ageless.’

Yes, that’s how Mohanji appeared to me, He is ageless! At this point, I had no comparison of Him with anyone else.

The next morning, I received a photo of a majestic rainbow in Singapore. Unlike my regular gross mind, I could see little beyond and understood that I was not just being shown a beautiful rainbow…I was being reminded of Dattatreya!

As the day progressed, in a miraculous way, I came across a blog that showed me the connection between Mohanji & Hanuman. During this again the reminder of my spontaneous response to a conversation regarding Mohanji as ‘ageless’ flooded my memory.

That night I had knee pain which was getting unbearable. The pain was so bad that I woke up and couldn’t sleep again. This was about 3 am. I kept praying to Mohanji, keeping my own hand on my knee for healing, feeling Mohanji’s energy flowing through.

After some time, I felt better but my sleep had gone. So I took my phone to read something. While I was browsing on my phone, a blog by ‘Vanamali’ on Mahavatar Babaji flashed up. I wondered, is this author ‘Vanamali’, the ‘Vanamali Mataji’ that I know as Mohanji’s spiritual mother? I opened the blog. It was indeed her. I started reading. She was describing a place called Katargama (also known as Kathirgamam) in Sri Lanka, as the Kailash of the South. She had explained about Lord Murugan’s incarnation in that place. Before I realised, it was time to go to the office. I left the blog reading incomplete and continued with my day’s activities. Later on in the evening, I picked up the story from where I had left off. This reading brought me the awareness of something majestic, that I had so far not realised.

In the blog, Vanamali Mataji explained that Kataragama is the place where Lord Murugan (son of Shiva) had moved to from Kailash. Lord Murugan then incarnated as Mahavatar Babaji, in a small village in South India. At the age of 15, as a young boy, Babaji had travelled to Kataragama in Sri Lanka! That’s where he met his Guru, Siddhar Bhoganathar. At the age of 16, Babaji was blessed by his Guru Bhoganathar with ‘Kaya Kalpa’ – to remain a youth forever. While I was reading this part, suddenly ‘Ageless – Mohanji is ageless’ flashed in my memory. It felt as if an electric current went through me.

I continued my reading. The blog explained about Babaji’s journey back from Sri Lanka to India. In South India, Babaji met Guru Agastya, who accepted him as his disciple and taught him Kriya yoga, and the importance of breath. At this point of the story, I was reminded of how Devi Amma of Bangalore, a highly evolved spiritual master, disciple and spiritual daughter of Agastya Rishi, considers Mohanji as her spiritual brother. She says he is none other than Agastya Rishi’s son! Also, the fact that Mohanji imparts the teaching of Kriya, giving importance to the breath, struck a chord, while I was reading about Babaji!

Even though I was reading about Babaji, the image that I had all through this time was of Mohanji.

The story continued. Babaji was in the Himalayas, meditating in the cave. Suddenly a vision flashed to me. I saw Mohanji meditating in this cave! Every word that was mentioning Babaji, the only vision I had in front of my eyes was of Mohanji.

Slowly I realised, whom I see in the very ordinary form of Mohanji is much beyond that.

Surely, He is none other than Babaji himself.

Surely, He is none other than Murugan himself!

I was seeing a smile in my own face, a smile of joy. As if I have found a treasure, I suddenly realised, ah, this is why Mohanji loves going to Skanda Vale!

Skanda Vale is a sacred place where Guru Subramaniam has built a temple for Skanda, also called Murugan. He believed and so does everyone else, that Skanda lives there!

I always thought Mohanji goes to Skanda Vale because of the Guru Parampara, Datta tradition, His love for the Skanda Vale community.

Let me tell you a couple of flash-back stories on Skanda Vale here.

In September 2017, I was blessed to accompany Mohanji to Skanda Vale when He was there for a few days enriching the Skanda Vale community with His valuable presence. During that time, Mohanji had told me that Skanda Vale is very special to Him and to give His time there is a very high priority for Him. At that time, I just attributed His statement to His humility and His duty to the Datta Tradition. Again in August 2018, Mohanji went to Skanda Vale, for a purpose even more powerful – to do the consecration ceremony of the Datta idol!

abhishek1 — Mohanji doing consecration of Lord Dattatreya at Skanda Vale, UK, August 2018

While I was completely merged in the divinity of Mohanji’s actions in Skanda Vale, I was surely far away from understanding why was He doing all these things!

Coming back, I now realised that reading Vanamali Mataji’s blog was not just any ordinary blog reading. This was a great revelation to me. I understood that Mohanji goes to Skanda Vale, the place where Skanda lives. Because He himself is none other than Skanda (Murugan)!

I then remembered, just sometime back, it was an auspicious day for Skanda and my friend Radha sent me a short video clip of her father, Subramaniam uncle doing aarati to Skanda with a special deepam. This was not any ordinary aarati ritual, it was indeed a very powerful one. Subramaniam uncle is not just an ardent devotee of Murugan, he is a devoted disciple of Sri Sathya Sai Baba and loves Mohanji immensely. To receive the video clip of this ritual to Skanda was not ordinary. I had felt the divinity that time to receive the clip, but I only understand now, why was I allowed by the divine to view this!

Kartika Puja — Special Kartika puja (for Skanda) at Subramaniam uncle’s home

Whether we think of Hanuman or Dattatreya or Murugan or Mahavatar Babaji – all are an ansha (part) of Shiva, and ultimately Shiva himself!

That’s the revelation of this incarnation that I know as Mohanji.

In just one day, I had the visions or realisation of Lord Datta, Lord Hanuman and now Murugan and Mahavatar Babaji. Ah, a truth beyond my imagination was unfolding.

A naïve question that had appeared in my mind a few days back about the connection with Mahavatar Babaji was being answered by the divine in such a beautiful way revealing the utmost truth about Mohanji to me. This revelation was happening to me through my own realisation, not by someone telling me! I was surely more than overwhelmed. I was totally awestruck.

In this state, I couldn’t stop myself from expressing this experience to Mohanji and begging Him to confirm this. However, as usual, Mohanji was far from being emotional. He gave me a straight clear answer,

“I am Mohanji. Nothing more. Nothing less.”

mohanji ageless — “I am Mohanji. Nothing more. Nothing less.”

I felt so silly to have asked Him this question.

Did I need to? No.

Does the answer matter? No.

The revelation to me was my own realisation. That was my TRUTH. Period.

My story doesn’t finish here.

Mohanji didn’t answer me. But the divine had other plans. 🙂

Next morning, I received Preethi Gopalarathnam’s WhatsApp message. She had forwarded me a message conversation between Mohanji and her, the previous day. Her message to Mohanji was about her urge for visiting Kataragama in Sri Lanka!

mohanji skanda — An unbelievable similarity between the photo of young Mohanji and young Murugan in a calendar!

As I rubbed my eyes, I was reading the message repeatedly. Am I really reading it correctly? The day before when I discovered about Kataragama and the follow-up on the unfolding truth of Murugan, Mahavatar Babaji, and Mohanji, she was at the same time, thousands of miles away, feeling the same pull too! This couldn’t be just mere coincidence. I realised through this, Mohanji has answered my previous night’s question!

This is now so clear, as clear as a crystal, to me.

All through the day, my whole body was shivering but the heart was full of joy. I don’t know what enlightenment means or feels, but I certainly felt enlightened that day.

Like the little girl who receives a very expensive toy beyond her dreams, I had something that I never could even dare to think of! In my naïve mind, simple Mohanji was enough. This truth indeed was a huge realisation for me.

I started writing about this experience. Usually, when I feel the urge to express my thoughts, I just write it quickly and share. I strongly feel that Mohanji doesn’t delay in giving me experiences, so I must not delay in expressing and sharing it, as every experience that I receive, is not just for me. Someone somewhere will benefit from it too.

But, this blog has taken many days, weeks, even months!

In the meantime, ‘Guru Leela’ happened. Mohanji Acharya training happened. Kumbh Mela happened. All three out of the world, beyond this lifetime experiences, happened. But I still hadn’t completed this blog!

Finally, Mohanji’s birthday approached. I thought it’s high time now for me to publish the blog. I must publish the blog at least for Mohanji’s birthday. However, that still didn’t happen.

A few days later, after Mohanji’s birthday, I received a mail from Lisa, sharing the experience of her visit to Skanda Vale on Mohanji’s birthday. When I read her story, I froze. I was dumbstruck after I read what she experienced at the Skanda Temple in Skanda Vale, on Mohanji’s birthday. Following is an excerpt from her blog which is published in Mohanji Chronicles blog site.

“Suddenly, as I looked at Muruga, I felt as if I was not there in my body, and felt Mahavatar Babaji’s presence.”

Lord Muruga, Mahavatar Babaji, and Mohanji – all as one! Here is one more devotee realising this truth and conveying her experience completely independent of the realisation that I had.

I realised that the Divine was bringing clarity to me about the truth of Mohanji’s incarnation – the one form beyond all forms! Whether I realise Him as Mahavatar Babaji or Lord Muruga or Lord Dattatreya, ‘Being Shiva’ is His eternal truth. With this revelation, Mohanji taught me once again why I need not run behind any form, any incarnation.

Mohanji is the door for me, Mohanji is the path for me and Mohanji is the destination for me. In this life, my Lord Jagannath brought Mohanji to me and then he merged into Mohanji.

Before that, I had no knowledge of anyone else. After that, I have no knowledge of anyone else.

Everyone is just one and the only one for me – Mohanji! Simple and straight, ‘ageless’.

That is why I can see Him in every other Master or God and I can see all Masters and Gods in Him. For me, everything is ‘Sarvam Mohan Mayam’ – all manifestations as one and only ‘Mohanji.’.

I would like to end my story with sharing some special moments of my gratitude for my Gurudev, my Mohanji. I remain at His lotus feet as the eternal slave.

An expression of my devotion…

Jai Mohanji

Compiled, Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 9^th May 2019

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Mohanji Satcharita – Chapter 7 – “A Royal Vision”

Posted on April 3, 2019April 3, 2019 by Subhasree

We begin the next chapter of Mohanji Satcharita, chapter 7, with a story based on a divine vision shared by one devotee to another.

The vision and explanation are quite descriptive and we urge you to read through this to experience this royal vision!

A Royal Vision

Written by Subhasree

On the 29th of March 2019, a follower of Mohanji (name withheld on personal request) from one of the Gulf countries, sent the following message to me. This is the period when Mohanji was busy serving the Shiva bhaktas as part of Ugadi Seva in Kurnool.

This testimonial is of a vision that the person had, while being in a meditative state. Reading the message, I was shocked. This was not an ordinary vision. Besides the fact that the vision matched the activities that Mohanji was actually performing at that point, the vision revealed the royal truth behind the seemingly ordinary form of Mohanji.

The message was quite clear! If I could witness it, feel it, I am sure all of you could feel it too. So here you go. Below are the exact words that I received in the description.

“This morning I had a clear vision. I saw Mohanji with a great glow coming from Him, massaging the legs of Bhagawan Shankar (Lord Shiva). I was quite intrigued with this vision. The vision was very clear. I saw that He was wearing saffron clothes. There were many people around Him and all looked like aliens. Mohanji was sitting on the floor, but had the airs of a king, perhaps an emperor. I thought that perhaps I am given to witness a past life of Mohanji because I know that Mohanji has lived a few lives as a royal and it shows even in this life in His attitude. He has royalty in Him. What was strange was that, alien like people were asking something and Mohanji was removing whatever clothes He was wearing or they were removing His clothes from Him and Mohanji never cared. Finally Mohanji gave away all His clothes. He was still occupied with massaging the legs of Lord Shiva in a bliss state.

Later, I came to know that Mohanji was at Ugadi Seva and was massaging the feet of the pilgrims. Unlike on other days, on this particular day, as soon as He came to the venue, He went straight for massaging the feet of pilgrims instead of going to His room.

Perhaps sitting so far away, I was given the true vision of what actually happened. Hence, I wanted to share. Apologies if all this is in my fertile imagination. Do forgive me.”

A Royal Vision_Mohanji Pressing leg of Shiva bhakta

A Royal Vision_Mohanji Pressing leg of Shiva bhakta 2

I am sure, everyone who has seen the photos and videos of Mohanji from Ugadi Seva, can understand the reality of the expression of this vision. This surely is not ordinary imagination. Someone sitting thousands of miles away, getting the vision of what was actually happening, unfolds the real truth beyond this vision.

So, here is what I understand the truth to be:

1. Mohanji is an incarnation of the Supreme Brightness that represents the state of Lord Shiva (brighter than a million Suns).

2. Mohanji massaging the feet of the Shiva bhaktas means the Infinite Brightness is massaging the feet of the finite – respect for each manifestation, as well as recognizing the manifestations as one’s own expression.

3. People asking Him for His clothes indicates that regular people only ask for temporary things, including our temporary existence.

4. Pure Energy has nothing to do with clothes and Mohanji easily gives away all He has, because clothes or for that matter any terrestrial possession means nothing to Him.

5. Mohanji shedding His clothes means leaving a temporary state where clothes represent impermanence.

Sitting in another continent, even further than the person who had this vision, and just by reading this sincere expression, I could feel the power of this truth. This is indeed yet another Guru Leela (divine play of Guru) that allowed me to experience truth with an honest testimonial sharing.

The vision was pure as sunshine, the power of the vision was divine and will brighten the lives of everyone who is able see the truth behind this vision. I am certainly cherishing every bit of it.

Just to clarify, these are my own understandings and interpretations, not Mohanji’s claims. Mohanji has always maintained His simplicity through ‘Mohanji’ as His only identity.

Jai Mohanji.
Subhasree

||JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||

Compiled, Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 3rd April 2019

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